Hell Week Event # 3 : Pageant / Talent
-Xav-
"OHMY XIAH! Please walk slowly" my mom reacted using her worried look. She is assisting me as I am practicing to walk using my 6 inch heels. There are 10 minutes time left before the introduction start. Im really so nervous, my mind is kept thinking that I might trip over on stage and im really nervous because many people or audience are watching. After 5 mins, I made it. I can now walk with confidence.
I fixed my white shirt that is tucked-in my skinny jeans before I walked out of my classroom. My mom removed my hair curls before I line up with the other participants. My hair are now properly curled. Self! Calm down! Its just an introduction and im the last one for the queue..
"People, please fall in line properly" our seniors said, they are the one who helped the school admins to prepare this competition. I now properly lined up along with my opponents. My mom and my own personal make up artist went back to close the door. We now entered the backstage, I peeked a little from the hole and I saw mommy, holding a banner with my make up artist and my 2 siblings. Im touched.
One by one when the participants enter the stage. Ah background music is playing while the participants were doing their ramp. Ohmy, I realize it lately when theres only 1 girl left before I enter the stage and the spotlight as well. Self, be confident! Just remember what the others taught about you.
"From Grade 10 St. Therese. Ms. Xavrina Alexiahiana Fortalejo" as the emcee announced my name, I made my walk out of the backstage with confidence and the walk that is taught to me during the rehearsals. People starts to scream and the loudest one is literally from my older brother. Well, he is a man! I just smiled even thou I don't see any of the people from the audience because of the spotlight.
After I ramp from the middle stage across from the judges, I instantly went back from the main stage and poses with a poise. I just waited for my partner to come out. Since this morning, ive still never see Quart's existence but im still excited. I just smiled as I wait for Quart to come out from the backstage.
"From Grade 10 St. Therese. Mr. Quart Raven Montemayor"
30 seconds already passed but still no one appeared. I still manage to maintain my posture and smile but Im really damn nervous in the inside. I need to stay calm or my sweat will submerged me, After a couple of minutes, someone came out, a man wearing a white shirt that is really right for his fit and tight black jeans walking straight from the backstage to the middle stage across from the judges. I cant see how it was, and the reason for that is the spotlight but im definitely sure that is not Quart.
I knew it in the end of his walk when he stood beside me. It was Sniper, he is wearing his weird smile. Using my eyes, I asked him where was Quart was but he didn't answered, instead we walked out of the stage. We immediately went inside the room.
"Xiah! You've never told me that this handsome boy will be your partner" I didnt even bother to hear what my mom said but instead I just seated. Sniper is right beside me along with his personal make up artist fixing his hair. Without further hesitation, I asked him directly.
"Where's Quart, Sniper?" I asked but he didn't even bother to look at me. Sadness is now invading me, im about to burst out crying. I just calmly seated back as I gave up and I just sighed. They just continued what they were doing as the fix my hair and make up. Even my chances here in the pageant to be with him is really fading away from me,
1 HOUR ALREADY passed when all of the participants are now done doing their sports wear and casual wear. Sadness is just embracing me for only 1 hour. I just wore my costume for my talent segment. Sniper already fixed his guitar and we made out way out.
"Ive been asking you for almost1 hour straight, Sniper. Where's Quart?" I asked seriously while standing up straight in front of him while he is busy holding his guitar that is surrounded in his head. I just stared at him. After a couple for seconds, he pulled me to the side of the stage where I was peeking earlier to see my mom and he pointed someone. He pointed 2 people in a food stall. I just looked Sniper with a questioning look. But he changes his gaze so as mine as well. I clearly knew what he was trying to say. I saw him with her.
"For our talent segment. Please clap your hands for the performace of the representative of St. Therese" the emcee introduced us. My body Is weak when I entered the stage. From here, I can see what they were doing, from those sweet act to hugs and kisses. I just stared at them.
"Hey Xav" I came back to reality when some called my name, it was Sniper. Im shock when I knew I was the only one they were waiting. I fixed the mic's height before I approach it. Sniper started to strum his guitar. Im still just staring at the both of them from here at the stage. After Sniper's intro, I started singing.
'Somebody told me you were leavin' I didn't know'
'Somebody told me you're unhappy but it doesn't show'
'Somebody told me that you don't want me no more. So you're walkin' out the door'
I knew it from the start but I just turned myself into a blind eye. I knew it from the start the he will never like me for his entire life. I just hurts so much because all of my efforts is just turning into a trash. Ive released so much but still, it has no meaning for him. Its just nothing. He really doesn't care about me.
'Nobody told me you've been cryin'every night'
'Nobody told me you'd been dyin'But didn't want to fight'
'Nobody told me that you fell out of love from me. So, im setting you free'
I cant give up, it hurts much more when you give up than loving someone who doesn't love you back. Just like what they said, you cannot win without fighting. Just try and try until you succeed. It can turn into one of your greatest regrets if you didn't fight for the one you love or even if you give up.
'Let me be the one to break it up. So you wont have to make excuses'
Just let me fight Quart. Im fine, I can, I still can. Just for you. Tears starts to flow down to my cheeks. And I saw the audience reaction. But im still looking the same person for over a minute now. He doesn't even know im performing that im dedicating this song for him.
'We don't need to find and set up where. Someone wins and someone loses'
And of course, im the one who always loses, im always the only one who can satisfy and impress you. I never experience on being a winner especially to you. Im the always one who loses while the others were already winning. Im just the loser who loves you but cant accept her defeat.
'We just have to say our love was true but has now become a lie'
I wish my feeling weren't real, I wish I can remove what im feeling for you right now so that I cant feel the same pain all over again. It even hurts when I knew you don't even appreciate me. It hurts me so damn much.
'So im tellin'you I love you one last time and goodbye'
This will be the last time ill ever say I love you, Goodbye.
I just closed my eyes as the outro were slowly fading. I hear the judges so as the audience clapped. I felt the time stops. I just wiped my tears away and smiled before setting off the stage. I don't want my mom to see me like this.
It's the coronation.