How will you gift someone if you know that person is not likely to accept anything you give. Like earlier he didn't take any money from me for being a friend when i tried to bribe him. He is awesome in every way and that is going to be my gift to him. My gift will make him feel awesome and he will take my friendship seriously. I went home with a plan in my head I didn't have any money Fanny is obviously broke thanks to me. I have one and only reliable source of money that is Father. I know how to get money out of him. I don't usually do it because first you have to wait for him to be home second it involves talking to him both makes me put off. I wait for the dinner and I know Fanny is having her period so she won't come and is resting now. I greeted him warmly and checked his mood he sounded fine. This is going to be easy then. "Father i need some money I'm thinking of doing some interior change in our home. " He was skeptical at first and looked at the home it used to be bright and sunny but now it speaks of doom. I know it bothered him because when my mother was alive she used to take care of all of it. When my father's friend comes here occasionally to drink and chat they sometimes comment at the state of our home. He assured to give me some money for mild changes i never knew it was my passion until that day. Thanks to Raja and father I started to know what I really like to do in future. I went out to buy the gift as soon as I got hands on money it was exactly what I wanted no denying the fact he has a hand in helping me pick up the gift.
I ran all the way to stable it earned me a few curious stares but I ignored it. As soon as I saw him my heart sank. He was sitting dejected on a heap of hay it was kind of awesome I never saw anyone climb that up Raja knows his way for sure and he had a bottle with him."Come down i shouted "."Go away brat" was his immediate retort. I took deep breath to control my anger here I was standing in my best dress to wish him happy birthday like in movies with a gift in hand and what was he doing drinking. I decided to wish him anyways and he said nothing i didn't lose my hope yet. "I dare you to jump this second and if you can ask me to do anything for you even go away". I was skeptical will he take up this challenge no way he will jump from this height. I was wrong as soon as I said the words he jumped i can now hear the faint chanting of the rain he came towards me I was mesmerized he was still handsome even if he is drunk as a wheel barrow. "If you are serious wanting to be my friend know this about me don't ever wish me birthday ". "Why" I whispered because of my father the fucker sent me a birthday card on every year of my birthday with a letter will come and see you on next birthday and I waited for him . Did you know that asshole wrote to me Ike that for 5 years then he quit I guess he might be bored. I hate him and my mother for giving birth to me she shouldn't have done that I can't even shout at her because she cries every time I get angry. "We survived because my mother done everything to survive from being maid to sleeping with men though she won't accept it I knew that.
I felt sorry for him I know he loved his mother and wanted to forgive her but funny thing was he couldn't forgive himself for causing her to do that. "I wish I could see her i have always respected single mothers so much I sometimes wish mother was alive having a father doesn't mean anything if he didn't love you" . I know he wouldn't have been listening to me his drinking and slight rain outside makes it impossible for anyone to hear me. I Slowly showed him his gift he seemed to be in surprise i put it into his arms and said "This gift might not be that original but I want you to read the note i have put in your gift". I know he would try to return it to me. So I walked outside rain has stopped now it was clear I smiled. How Raja think and how I think we are world apart but we completed each other.
I still remember my mother her hair has been straight like Fanny and she made me fries when ever it rained she said it would make me love those rainy days which I hated earlier because I couldn't go out and play. She was not perfect I saw her once with a bank officer they were kissing I was shocked my mother saw that and she didn't lie to me she told it was just a kiss we human beings make mistakes and are selfish sometimes she gave me her word she won't do that again and she never did. i always think her of a free spirit my father was exact opposite of her. She loved piano but father thought it was useless waste of space. Fanny plays on it now father goes away when ever she plays it. I used to think how perfect our relationship will be both of us will never cheat or lie to each other and always be happy with one another. How naive was I there is no perfect relationship there are only relationships which can be made far close to it if not perfect by devoting time attention and love. Life was never an examination were we get books to prepare but rather like a sea with unpredictable waves some will make fall or make you rise with them. You better hold on because journey will sure be rough.