When I was still new in Mexico I had brought all my depression running around in my head, I felt like everything was gone I was lonely I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted everything to just go away. At school I would smile at everyone and laugh with everyone but I got tired of everyone and eveything, on short breaks i distracted on my phone when i get a message from some guy named David..sigh another stupid guy trying to get at me. I said hi guy, a few hours later I kept talking to him and found myself smiling at his lame jokes. During this time I would always play with guys feelings somehow that made me feel calmed because it was something I would control, but I somehow didnt want to do that to David. I felt something nice for him. I couldn't help but to fall for him, his goofiness and kindness I loved all that about him.
One day we decided to meet each other but I had things going on of school and him work, we choose December 3rd, on the day it was his birthday so it would benefit both of us, we get to see each other and celebrate his birthday. That was the plan, I was so excited to see him I couldn't wait any long i put the cloths i would wear to see him underneath my school's uniform. Straight after school my mom took me to meet him at the park of the closest town we could see each other. Medo town was big and always had so many people coming in and out of the town plus it was like the only place where we could meet up. When I got their he was wearing this big red velvet jacket it was pretty cold, he also had such stylish cloths and when I looked at myself I had paint on my jeans and an alien shirt.. still he looked at me with a smile and liked the way I dressed, I had told him it was the best I could do. I giggled and looked at my shoes covered in paint as I was so nervous. He held my hand and we walked around the park while taking pictures of each other and eating ice cream. Then he looked deeply into my eyes and smiled as he brushed my hair away, I could feel my heart beating so fast I felt like I was going to pass out, but I smiled nervously and we both shared a passionate kiss, when I felt his lips touch mine, shivers went down my spine as he held me warmly in his arms. I pulled back as it was my first kiss, I was so nervous he smiled and chuckled a bit and kissed my forehead. "Your so adorable!" Dabid smiled more as he kept kissing my forehead. I felt my face trun bright red and hid my face in my small hands when he pulled my hands away from my face he kept having the charming smile, I looked up at him seeing his black amber curly hair stay in place as his brown eyes looked deeply into mines, his lips soft as a blanket and his skin was gentle against mine. He had kissed me again.
December 11th, I couldn't wait I was so happy! David had told me he was going to visit me in my town! I did get a little worried but I was so excited to see him, I'm just really hopeless when it comes to him, I even made him a letter of my feelings to him. I poured my heart into it and took copies of our pictures together. I was so excited, when I went to the park to wait for him I kept getting nervous then he called me that he had arrived but just had to take a small trun to the other block and he found me smiling happily to him, he ran and hugged me tight as he kissed my forehead happily. We went to the church and were happily chatting in the bench for what seemed like hours and hours, until I gave him the card I wrote and looked away from embarrassment. He truned my head to him and kissed me while he smiled softly, "i-is that a y-yes?" I asked him nervously, he kisses me again. "Of course, I want to be yours only princess." David had said in such a sweet caring tone it made my heart beat fast I couldn't help but feel super nervous and happy.
Being in that moment was the happiest of my life, I thought everything could happen for better! But little did I know everything changed for me.
A year had past and David had stopped coming to see me more often he had slowly stopped everything. I kept my love for him strong and more loving, be he just stop one day he had told me he had a work issue in another state, and wouldn't be back for a month and I believed him, so I stayed the same loving him everyday more and more. One day, my friend came running to my moms store looking for me. When my mom told her I was getting food for both of us, she decided to wait for me. When I came I was surprised that she came and he looked at me sad, she took me to the back of our store and showed me that David.. had a family a wife and a son. My heart sank, I couldn't believe it... the man that I loved with my whole heart had a family, my first love.. has just been something fake for a whole year. I couldn't handle my emotions and I had a break down. The feeling I had had been something bigger than I thought it was going to tear me aparte from the inside. When that month had passed he came looking for me happily without knowing that, I had found out about his secret. When I came to my house my friends had been staying with me for a while, and we were talking outside until he tryed to kiss me.
I couldn't help but slap him and hit him as hard as I could. When he asked what the hell was wrong with me, I showed him..
He looked at me surprised and he little secret had been discovered. "That's a lie, I'm not married and I dont have a kid!" He kept trying to deny it, and I just cried. "Stop lying David... I even went to see you, as a surprise I had brought your favorite food and I saw you. You were kissing her and she brought her child! Stop lying about everything.." He couldn't help but to cry as well seeing me the way i was.
"I love you.." David whispered in my ear then left. As I saw him walk away I threw rocks at him. "I hate you!" I kept feeling more sad and disappointed in myself and him.. i wanted to forget everything that happened and never see him again. I started being bad taking more drugs drinking more alcohol than before, but I was just young and stupid. I would RIP my heart for him.. while he was happy with his family. I wished to disappear from there and left without telling my friends that I had gone back to the states. I left everything..behind..