The hope inside me gave me happiness. The bonding may or may not happen but there is a reason of hope that I would at least meet my family. Advik would get a family. We will be happy. It is bound to be. Because hope is still alive. It makes it bound to happen. With that thought I made my way outside my office with a hopeful smile on my face. Family. Love creates that smile. love is a feeling we couldn't define. It is not simply a emotion. It is not a simple defination either. It is unbelievable trust towards a certain person. A agony of fear that keep us praying to God to that nothing happens to that person. People who doesn't believe in God also pray. It creates a faith. After all love unbiased and it is not chosen. It just happens and we couldn't decide who we love because our heart creates a feeling a without our knowledge. Whatever that love may be. It may be a love of a brother and sister or maybe a love between a father and daughter or parents and kids or lovers or teacher. The love maybe different from each person but the feeling and amount is same. The bond is different from person to person but it creates a unimaginable feelings in us. Simply unexplainable. The respect is same. The trust is same. The purity of the relationship is same. love makes our heart place it's own risk and creates a jepordy. A dangerous jepordy at that.
But again who faced the risk was still living happily. And I will take the risk if that means I can live with my family. And again love makes me do that. Along with hope. A smile forms. Anger happens. Sadness fills. Heart beats. Feels complete. All because of just one word. Love. The greatest and most powerful word. It has the most powerful in the whole world and people don't even recognize that. People use that word for fun. Every love is different but same. People who think they has everything which in there world everything means luxury and all those materialistic things are always feed by greed. greed for more. Money is not everything. Living and feeling alone in that very expensive room is not a feeling I would crave for. Instead I would opt for a simple family that bounded by love.
With those thoughts I drove. I stopped at a restaurant. I really want to eat homemade food right now. I looked up to see the name. Again... . I stopped at Isabella restaurant. Its letters are curved elegantly making it look so sophisticated. The last time I came here there was a chaos and I get too meet one of my elder brothers. Of course it is a total chaos but a good chaos. It created a hope inside me. Again.... . But I don't want any shocks today because I don't have any more energy take.
But when would I get what I want........
As soon as I entered the restaurant I was taken away again by the breath taking beauty in front of me. The homey feeling along with modern view gives me some comfort. There is a sense of familiarity inside me when I entered the restaurant. A sudden nostalgia hit me. I couldn't explain this. This is after all the second time I came to this restaurant. Then why do I get the familiarity. Like I played here. like I stayed here before. I felt lost right now. I shook away those thoughts. they are irrational, absurd even.
Radha helped me to the chair again. Like the last time she folded the wheel chair and kept it aside. People were looking at me. I don't like being the center of attraction. But since the accident the spot light always goes on me wherever I went. Why are people like this? Some are looking at me with pity and sympathy. Why do they show sympathy like they could understand what I went through. They don't understand it then why do they sympathised?. And pity. I hate pity. I am fine with how I am. I don't like it but I am fine with it. then why do people show me pity. I don't need pity. Just support is enough for me. For people like me. And some people are looking at me with disgust. Disgust? I really don't understand why they show me disgust. I may be imperfect with my body but I am perfect like this.
I ignored their looks on my way and instead focused on ordering something. Not able to choose anything I gave the menu book to Radha. She quickly ordered something for both of us. The dish name was something I couldn't pronounce. I would make a fool out of myself if I do pronounce that word. Waiting for my order to come I once again glanced around the surrounding. I wish I didn't.
There is my brother looking at me with disbelief etched on his face. Beside him were an older version of himself along with look alike or mostly a doppelganger of....... me.