It sucks , it really sucks when there's lot going over one's mind and no one is there to share the load with , because telling the business people to live away from red tape rule is like saying an infant to crawl on its feet , my head ponders a lot , and I thought to give up , but I think when one give up the idea under his back against the wall , is the most dead person , because when you got no support and are still fighting for your fear cannot repair the situation , you have to throw your fear away when you have to act for your troubles, I saw Adhiraj was looking out from the window of his jaguar car , he shows no attention towards me , even I can see him tapping his fingers in a ruinous way upon his knees covered by his piece of famous branded business suit, his eyeballs ogling the every sprinting passengers as if he would eat them raw , I silently slipped beside his taupe colored seat , while he averted his eyes while his nose flaring in anger , clenching his fist he was giving me silent treatment ,
" What the fuck are you waiting for , run the engine , or may be I should fire you and drive it myself ?" His sudden outburst startled the chauffeur and he immediately started the dead engine and put a life inside it , after a few minutes of drive and leaving behind the failed conference , we came to streets .
' Bloody Motherfucker !" He mumbled the curse in his low voice but it did rang into my ears , that was too much for him to act like a three years old baby , who was whining over his favorite broken toy , he must learn that he was a renowned business man and not some local worker to behave like some cheap street clunks ,
" If you have some issues churning in that arrogant brain of yours because of me, you must sort it out with me rather than yelling on some poor person .!" I made him turn toward me and I met his furious eyes .
" And what if I don't want to talk with a manipulating bitch ?" He glared me with much disgust , and it somehow did hurt me in my heart , I don't know , even if I had become so much strong in the course of time , but I still do have that vulnerable naive girl , which I used to be once back in past ,
The past life emotions are circling my mind , and I felt like I had been the same depressed girl , who didn't knew how to fight with bravery against the world ,
" But the bitch is only the witch , whose black magic could save your endangered ass, !" Cooling myself with my former composure , I let him have my sly smile , sometimes being a bitch is what you could pretend , it's a right mask to wear in front of your enemies , but he is not my enemy , he is my ex husband and his problems are my enemies ,
He looked away from me, by giving his cold looks which , I'm must sure did worked on some of his employees, but it didn't even managed to scare me , not even at half rates ,
" Look! That woman is very problematic, I m trying my best to keep her at bay." I replied to him with clasping my hands together , and that caught his attention , he moved his gaze just to look at me, meeting his eyes with mine, I only registered, he had some unanswered questions palpating in his mind, and he wants all the answers from me, that gazing was scrutinized.
"What? You're looking at me, as if I made a backhanded pass on you !" I snorted again, when there were no words exchanged from him, he's totally absurd sometimes.
"How?" A question suddenly came deep down from his bobbing Adam's apple ,
"What do you mean by, ' How ' , how am I supposed to give an answer to your how ? Mr. Know-how ?" I gave a tongue in cheek, explanation on his futile one word question, offering him some sense in his sly mind.
"How did you managed to convince Rana! He's not everyone's cup of tea, even sometimes he declines huge amount of cash, but never betray his dealer, what on actual did you do to open his damn mouth about Tanya, that's the question, which is bugging me ?" His stoic expressions were already fussing much with my hidden fear, that's the thing, I expected coming directly from him, my brilliant logical mind paused from yearning some primordial accounts, which could actually defend me, I m busted.
" That's the other thing, if he declined someone's offer, that doesn't implies that he won't accept my offer, it's just a matter of fact .....I offered he grabbed, and it's the end of this story!" Playing it cool and real, I did managed to save my fucked up ass, from getting in more fucks , but still his eyes were twitching, I can see from my peripheral vision, that he was not truly convinced, but at least I kept my words before him, now rest of the things, including his gravest doubt, was none of my business to be handled.
The car was still on its way to reach Adhiraj's manor, and I m still having wavering thoughts against the little stunt , which I did put in front of media, that was another headache for me to deal with, sometimes! I think, I m a walking trap ...
" you're one sporadic woman! I ever met, we're still not finished yet, there's more explanations you owe me about the dainty shits, you just spread today, Srijita Sanyal! You truly fucked my ass today, seriously ! I mean the ex couple are now going to be again future fiances and then future newlyweds ..." Finally the real Adhiraj sprang out of the masked one, I released a breath and gave him an uptight smile, and pinched his stubble left cheek.
"What the fuck? How dare you pinch my cheek , don't touch me ....you're such a weird woman sometimes, skeptical !!" He gave me his angriest look, I did it on a purpose, I knew his hating towards pinching of his cheeks since childhood, and I had done it several times and he always came yelling on me, those were the golden days , of my life ! I doubt about his, and I shook my head moving away from my nostalgia.
" Are you watching horrors, These days?" I pursed my lips and rolled my eyes.
" No! I m actually surfing through thrillers, hey, what ? " realizing that he'd left his professional overcoat for sometimes and acted like a normal person, his cold demeanor came back, when i suppressed my laugh by biting my inner cheek wall,
" I mean, it's my personal things," he continued, back with his husky voice, I shook my head, he is very pretentious, very well knows how to wear a fake mask, to look more intimidating , my ass!
" you're being too hysterical, geez! Go easy on yourself! Mr. Shekhawat !" I rasped and turned away from him,sliding the window of the car and letting the cool breeze sending chilling down in my worn up body,
After a halt, the car jerked off and we were already at his house, he opened the car's door to slide away and I being known, how a biggest gentleman, he is, opened my side car door by myself, again shrugging it away,
We entered through his remote control gates, his guards saluting him , while he dismissed them by a quick nod, I followed his lead and then we entered in his hall, where loosening his tie a bit off from his collar, he slumped down in his plush sofa, gesturing me to take any of the seat of my accord , I quietly took a seat and watched him, he was totally frustrated, I shifted my eyes towards the kitchen, while he had closed his tired eyes for a moment, I went to the kitchen and pour a glass of water from his purifier, taking back the glass to him, I handed him the glass of water,
" Here, take this ! You're looking like a hell!"
"Could you get me a pill of aspirin, I need that one quick, my head's fuckin' gonna explode!" his hands were pressing his forehead, and he was wincing in a headache pain,
I nodded awhile and was about to search for the medicine kit, but the house was very big and it won't be easy to find a small medical kit, while loitering around each and every drawers of this gigantic duplex,
"Where will be the medical kit ?" I asked half climbing the stairs,
"In the left room, near the big Vietnamese porcelain vase, open the fifth chest of drawer below the one, which had my ties arrayed, ....grab it faster !" His voice died with another louder pain,
"Got it !"
I hurriedly ascended the stairs and moved towards the left hand side finding that big porcelain vase which had some Chinese looking people arts scribbled on it, avoiding it with a gander look, I barged inside that room, this must be his present room, I looked around, the walls were manly dark and charcoal grey with some deep russet lining across the balcony view separated from a light cream curtains, he never liked any kind of photos , even his own portrait sized photo to be stuck around his walls, while irony was that I loved the photography, but again I looked at his king sized bed, with the dark toned grey flannel sheets with black mattress was neatly spread , four big grey pillows were ordered in a very comfortable way, giving his bedroom a look of cushy environment , while framing him as a concrete and a minimalistic person, while the dark grey wallpaper behind the bed had some pictures of skyscrapers building printed in shades of grey and some other alien palette of dark colors,
Neutral colored bathed in his room under the natural sunlight that must fall from his big window with stone wall panels giving his room a mystic look,
a masculine room isn't one where you're likely to find a lot of bright shades of blue or pink generally, you can tell by looking at the geometric patterns and some other typical structures that there's always a constructive thought going in a man's space. Masculine design is all about clean lines and sharp edges, as opposed to the curves and colors of more feminine styles, so having geometric patterns on textiles and accessories allows you to weave that aesthetic all throughout your space.
Men colors tend to run a different gamut, ranging from moody shades of darker colors on one hand, with warm neutrals on the other side, so there was a beige Italian rug lying there with a huge LED fixed on the opposite side, I found PlayStation while VLC player, I knew his fancies about sports and all, he was a true lover of cricket , football and hockey, I rolled my eyes after catching a glimpse of his used to habits, while I spotted that chest of drawers near the
Plush rug and opened its blocks, there were many varieties of colourful work ties arranged in manner, I closed that drawer, I know his crazed love for ties, I moved to the next drawer , it had his collections of wrist watches from Rolex to Gucci with different wrist bands and dials , he was sure a man of luxuries, after fumbling through the last one , I found the packets of condoms , and my fucking lord eyes, they too had varieties in them , I knew they come in flavors but in varieties , that for sure was a new thing for me to discover , I ran my hands to reach out for them , lambskin , dotted and then spiky ....lord he really enjoys juicy sex , isn't it , I m not wrong if I would say, A juicy sex with pleasurable skins .....
I shook my head and was about to keep them inside, a voice boomed into my ears, ' what's taking so long !!" I replied back , ' Nothing...just give me seconds!' I hurriedly packed them back and went for last drawer and luckily a box of medications and dispensaries were been stacked down, but I also found a worn out journal there and I really wanted to read that journal but then my mind told me to find the pills of aspirin, there was a pack of aspirins lying near the dettol bottles and a bundle of cotton, I grabbed that tablets and shove the box to its original place,but still I couldn't take it off from my mind, that journal , what must had been stored in that, half torn pages , it had a mauve color covers which had been dusty , but one thought stuck on my mind, that this drawer was clean enough to even produce a germ to flee away, so why he never used to clean this dirty old journal , it seemed like this thing had been freshly picked up from the store room and was made to hide here in this wooden chests ,
" Sri......you for sure are taking hours instead of a nano , Second !!" His whimpering voice filled with the edge of irritation and despair echoed in my ears, shutting the drawer back and I sprinted towards the down floor , descending the stairs and firmly holding the tablet, I stepped towards his direction, he had tightly closed his eyes, and his sleeves were rolled up to his elbow , his armani suit was hanging on the verge of his drawing hall sofa , while his sturdy hands were massaging his scalp , I scooted myself near his place , and took a seat beside him, I noticed the glass of water still resting untouched with the water which I had given to him, I tore off the pack and gave the tablet to him along with that glass,
" Here , take this !"
He took the tablet from me and chugged the water to his bobbing Adam's apple, after having them, he placed the glass on the table and turned towards me facing with an absurd face , he studied my face and paused for a minute, as if he must got remembered of something , a blurry thing but I looked at him in a confusion, he must have got the sense about that journal, he mouthed fuck and cursed in low voice ,
" I hope you weren't tried to being 007 bond ?" He raised his eyebrows towards me and gave me a questioning look.
" I wasn't trying, you, yourself gave me the reason to detect ?" I shrugged my shoulders and he again spat a slang from his mouth,
" So you were detecting that oldie Journal ?" Finally he sounded defeated and deflated.
" I just came across by it , so gave it a look!"
"And by look , what do you mean , did u sneaked through it ?" He was shooting me questions .
" No, I just took that thing in my hand but by that time, your hoarse voice disrupted my querying and I kept it back !"
" At least your basic manners are not gone , thanks to Sanyal uncle for teaching u the goods .!" His sarcasms were gimmick to my sense but I suppressed them and overcoming his dirty mouth, I pitched my queries regarding that journal ,
" Did you picked it freshly from your storehouse ?"
" No comments !" He threw it on my face, I know his buy one get one offer ,
" You are still counting on the fact about Rana's accepting my offer mystery ?" I narrowed my look at him but he shoved them off by his infamous smirk, god ! How much I wanted to kill him, my palms were sweaty enough to drain his bastard skull in my sweaty palms,
" I don't tell my secrets to anyone , even if u had told me about Rana, I would still be keeping it from you !" He was giving me the nastiest remarks since the conference ,
" You're such a limp !" I scowled at him, but that never even touched him slightest,
" That's what they always brands me as, curse something new ! My hearing buds are dying to learn some new cussing !" He winked at me , and I scrunched my nose and become highly furious .
" Shoot down your frustration at me, trust me I won't recoil it back , " finally I surrendered ,
" Why did you showed your bravery at the conference ?" He lashed me with his first question,
"Or you pointing out about that fiance thing ?" I asked to him and he nodded but now he had become very serious eyeing me like I had trapped him into something mesh like situation ,
" So ! That Tanya's advances near you must come at end , "
" How our fake marriage would deal with this situation , are you freaking out of your mind, didn't you remember we have been exes since three years ! Are you still mourning over at me ?" Adhiraj peered down at me , leaving me totally choked and confused .
" I never ever swoon over you and you know that from high school, even in my dreams, girls love prince charming not a bastard devil !" I shouted at him and he snarled but quickly hide his disdains , and pulled out an another smirk ,
" But prince charming like guys are totally cockblocks, and devils are the rock hard, " splashing his ever white teeth and sending me a wink , I flustered at his cockiness , he was being way to modest to define such sex related terms in very cool way.
" You've spoiled me way long, geez ! Don't tell me the differences between pleasure and hard fuck !" I gently averted my eyes and stiffness over pooled my heart.
" Just because, you heard the moans from my second floor, you could have used the ear buds at that time !" When did he stooped so low reviving me about those horrific inhuman experiences .
"Oh ! Please , I was not the one who loved hearing that barbaric squeals of your Bambinos and those floozies across that walls of your room, that would be the cheapest thing one human could do !"I retorted back and he lost his grip,
" Then why did you get fucked by Rana ? " His last question blew the ground off my feet.
I was shocked and I was hitched , that wasn't the probable hoax like I expected , how did he get to know about my fucked up......game over