I toss my body and hit his hard naked body. I tear a warm smile. If I can spend my life waking up with Musa like this, life will be worth living. I smile. He is like the sleeping beauty, so handsome. His skin is radiating with beauty and his lips nestled well with passion. His forehead and his eyebrows drew together. I wonder what's bothering him in his dream. I look at him with empathy. I get up and dress up my light silky nightdress. I trace my body with my hands and place them on my waist and release a careful sigh. my life has been interesting lately, filled with drama. I release a sigh and walk towards the biggest window in my room. I slowly pull the curtain to the side and breathe in the sunrise that comes with its breeze aroma. Hands slide to my front and start caressing my belly.
"Morning Sunshine" He places a peck on my neck. I smile at my new pet name that is corresponding to the Sun shining on us.
"Morning Handsome" I try to sound all loved up.
"Oh...I see what you are doing. I love it". He gives another pat on my neck.
The sun shining on us and the morning breeze, creating chills on my skin. I wish this moment should stay still forever. I feel warmth fill my heart and tears well up in my eyes. I pull back my sniff trying not to catch Musa's attention. I am such an emotional person. He tightens his embrace around me and I feel safe and loved. I smile at the thought of being his. Today marks the first day of our relationship. I can't believe all this is happening within the first week of varsity years. I hope that this does not come back and bite me on the ass.
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I slowly open my sunken reddened eyes. If only was it possible to sleep forever so that I don't own up to my responsibilities, but if that happened it means I would be dead. I groan a heavy sigh. I force myself up on the bed and bury my head between my legs. " Fuck!!!" I am screwed right now. A gush of hot tears runs on my face. I sob violently with little escapes of sounds. I messed up big time. What will I do? What will I tell my mom and dad? I should ask Musa to stay over for a couple of days till the results are released from the lab. so that I go home with tangible proof. But what would I do if the baby is mine? Maya won't forgive me, the worst-case scenario is the shame that my mom will suffer from, she's such a perfectionist. I don't understand how mom and dad stay married to each other, they were different people.
A thumping sound comes from the door. I jolt my head and wipe my tears at the speed of light. I stretch and pull my face, then pose a smile. I walk towards the door and open it. My jaw dropped.
"Why are you surprised?" She asks politely.
"I thought you might be hungry, so I bought you a little something to fill your empty stomach. " Her face tear a warm smile. My heart fills with fuzzy feelings. Isn't she sweet? This explains why my Father cheated on my mom with her mom. I pull a weak smile. "Thank you, Half-sister".
" So much for a thank you that you call her that. move aside, I want to get in " Musa's body suddenly appears and lead towards the door. He gets inside the room with a cold face. I release a sigh. When will he forgive me? I can not go on like this, I need to find a way to pursue his forgiveness. What should I do? Should I abort my mission with Lala? But that will save me from my parents and Maya.
"Uhm, will you sit down, you have been standing there for a minute and you are blocking my morning sunshine" Exclaim Musa bursting my bubble. My jaw dropped at Musa's exaggeration. Do I deserve this level of pettiness?
"Can we talk privately?" I plead and he gives me an icy look.
"About what now? Man you are here for a couple of hours, but you have so many demands" Musa complains in a cold tone. I roll my eyes, he's being melodramatic. I just stare at him waiting for his drama to pass, so we can talk about my special plea. I am hoping he agrees to my plea. He releases a sigh then look at my half-sister, who did not wait for him to utter a word, she just left us. I gaze at Musa scrutinising my sister's body like it's a piece of cake on the table. I gag. He looks up at me and gives me an icy look.
"That's the least I can do before I get to face you again" He walks towards his bed, and fling his heavy body. "Can I stay over till the results are released?" I get straight to the point. His eyes dilated bewildered by my plea, then again, he cooled down and pull a solemn face. "Sure, you can stay. just don't do funny businesses in my room. like..." I cut into him "I get it. I will leave by your rules. I just need a breather so I can focus my mind" I explain my plea. "Okay" He answers shortly with disinterest.
What can I do to win him back? make him think of me as his brother and friend again. "What are the plans for today?" I ask trying to initiate a conversation. "I was supposed to be in bed with my new lover on my bed all day, but then again..." He gives me a nasty look. "I don't have any" He finishes his answer. Musa is becoming icy each minute I spend with him. I am feeling uncomfortable and anxious. I don't want to be too cautious around. I was hoping that we would make up and I would ease off the pent up energy in me, but I doubt that will happen. I look at his body lying on the bed gazing at the ceiling. I wonder what is he thinking about. Maybe I should have Lala as my back up, in case this reconciliation plan does not work in my favour or work at all. I unaware release a heavy sigh.
" What's up traitor, share your mind. what's bothering you?" Is he trying to provoke me? I wonder.
"Is this how things are going to be from now on huh?" Emotions choke me.
"You made your bed" He replies in a flat voice. I walk towards the bed where he is lying.
"I know I messed up. I take full responsibility for that. it was wrong of me. But bruh I can't lose you. you are my day one" I plead my apology. I can't lose him, he's my escape.
"Your day one..." He snickers. "You should have thought of that when you undressed her. but none of ish crossed your F mind, because all you want was eleven minutes. an F eleven minutes..." Emotions choke him and he gasps for air. "Bro...I trusted you with her. I told you, she's my woman, the one I want to put the ring on it. but you went and fuck it up because good things are suitable for you only. I loved her. but what do you know about love..." Musa's words pierce through my heart, but I can't let him see all of the impacts, I need to be a man and be strong. Men are not supposed to show their emotional side. "I am sorry" I find the courage to push those words out of my mouth.
"F YOU AND YOUR SORRY. you don't mean any of that" He flung his body up and look right in my eyeball. "You want to reconcile?" He asks daringly. it's a trap, but let me take the bait. "More than anything. We need the closure" I massage his ego. I can't believe I am ass-kissing him. The things that life forces us to forge burned bridges.
'How did it feel when you were riding her? How frequent was it? What did you say to her to make her drop her panties for you? Did you promise her Heaven and Earth? How did the one night stand happen, and turn to frequent sex? How many times did you do it? Did you love her or even liked her? was she one of your to-do lists? I guess she's that hot that she made you forget about your dear brotherhood to me. You fucked the woman I loved. Do you love her? " The room fills with a cold loud silence. "How would you feel if I fuck and poop baby Maya huh? tit for tat". Musa's face is ice cold and his eyes red with anger. I am lost for words, I am not ready.
" Answer me damn it!" He screams. When I was about to answer. A blow landed on my face, followed by blows. I feel myself fading out, I can't defend myself. I just keep pleading for mercy. Please show me mercy.
I hear a bang on the door. I hear distant faint voices crying out for my rescue. What have I done?