...Kati POV...
There has been no response from Sebastian after that last message that I sent to him. I have been lying on the couch in a little ball, crying my tears dry. Every part of her body aches.
My heart beats at a sore drum, I am missing him so much. My legs feel numb; I cannot run away from him anymore. My arms feel heavy; I need to be in his embrace. My head hurts; I cannot bear thinking of losing him. I have been a fool thinking that I can live without him. Sebastian is the glue that keeps me together; he is the one that makes me feel whole when my body is falling apart. He has loved me, and I know that he will still love me long after I am gone.
But there is another pain inside; I hurt for a completely other reason. The cancer is spreading. I can feel it. Soon I am going to start feeling really sick. My body is going to change. I am going to change it. It is time to prepare for inevitable
