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Chapter 6 - The final question

*Please stop moving, no no no, I need to think of naked old men, naked old, Fuck I shouldn't have that face up meeting with her body, now I remember those perfect shape breast her and her cute slit ughh fuck, stop thinking oh no it's slowly rising.

Then she suddenly sobbed and hugged me even tighter. I was biting my tongue while trying to remove the beautiful images on my head when suddenly she gave off a sobbing sigh, and her stomach pushed it and while her stomach was deflating it was growing like it's wanting to stay near the stomach, even though there's a towel in between us, any of her minute movements increases its size a bit, it may only be 2 seconds but it felt already an hour, she suddenly moved her other hand lazily on my chest but to say lazily isn't enough, it looked like sensually but felt like sexually, given the fact that when she opened her palm it felt like she gently caresses my chest and her thumb was placed on my nipple, it made my son receive additional cheering to stand up.

*Is this your revenge? Is this what they called, the border of heaven, and hell?

She was in a position that can only be defined as both leaning and hugging, she looked like she was finally feeling sleepy and her cries are now about to disappear but, I was cast in even deeper parts of hell.

Chloe – "I'm sleepy,... can you carry me like the old times?"

She looked up at me with pleading eyes.

*Is there ever an end to this? I am doing my best to hold on. Do you even have shame any more? We're both technically naked adults, even if I promised you that I would never look at you with sexual sense but, you should at least see that I am still a man, what grows still grows no matter what. But how can I refuse such an adorable silly girl?

Micheal – "Okay then, so how,-"

Chloe – "1, 2, 3!!"

Before I was able to ask how I should carry her, she jumped at me after counting without any hesitation as if she knows I could carry her without a problem and, now that I realized it, I never carry her when we're young.

*Hey! maybe you got the wrong person!

Micheal – "May I ask, when have I carried you?"

Chloe – "Now"

Micheal – "What do you mean now?"

Chloe – "Only now, carry me or drag me, your choice"

Micheal – "But I can't remember carrying,..."

Chloe – "Because you never did, at least now you do, now go to bed"

Micheal – "You sure you don't remember wrong people?"

Chloe – "Can't you understand that I tricked you?"

By the way, I knew that she tricked me, but I have my reasons why I am stalling time, first was her position while I was carrying her, I'd say it was a dangerous position. The moment she jumped I lost my concentration and was not able to stop the rising of my soldier below, and before I realized I was already supporting her bottom with one hand and supporting her back with the other while she was slowly sliding down. If it continues then the last defense was standing on duty to catch her, so I immediately pushed her up letting me feel the soft sensation of her perfect butt. The soft and enjoyable sensation stimulated me letting my last guard stand more, what's more, deadly was one of her bountiful hills lost its covering. The skin to skin feeling of our chest made my blood boil and I can hear her breathing beside my ear.

*If I do not have any desires to do anything to her right now, I will not be a man.

I told her that I would just fix her robe and so while carrying her I stretched my other hand at her back, grabbed the loosed opening end cover the bare part of her breast, but not forget to accidentally trail the mountain and touch the shrine using the back of my fingers. I did not feel any reaction at all, it's either she ignored it or she is already asleep. I raised her position a bit (squeezed her ass) and started walking towards the bedroom. Each step I took felt so heavy it seems like I can't take another one anymore, of course, it's not because she was heavy but because I know that the closer I get to the destination, the closer this moment of divinity would end. I was enjoying this feeling until I reached the room and stood near the bed but I don't know how to put her down, I can't let her slide down or else my standing guard would assault her without notice, throwing her is out of the question, so I lay her down how I normally lay a woman in bed in a missionary, and so I gave my departing words towards this heaven in my mind, when I finished my mantra of goodbyes, her back was already touching the bed, I already removed my left hand away from her bottom but, her arms that were hugging me above my arm had shown no intention of loosening, the same with her legs that's locked behind me. To be honest, my position right now and I felt an ominous feeling around her. It was something akin to despair and wavering determination but I ignored it because right now it will be awkward if she woke up and saw me in this position. I slowly loosen her hands to not disturb her sleep but I found that it was just a wasted concern. The devil was awake witnessing all I did to her, and she was staring at me with a strange cold gaze that's as if penetrating my mind while her legs loosen their lock but remained behind me.

*Fuck I knew it! she found out what I did, shit, I'm dead now. I should defend myself, I should be angry first.

Micheal – "I-I thought you were asleep and I don't want to disturb you, why didn't you speak? Why didn't you cooperate with me to put you down?"

Fuck I wish it worked, But strange, she's not speaking.

I was staring at her while both my arms are supporting my body. She was just staring at me with a strange cold gaze and then she suddenly moved her gaze below us. I was afraid that she would see the guard standing on duty so my reaction was to try covering the towel with my right hand. When my hand lifts off from the bed her feet that were placed above my waist suddenly made a strange movement. My left hand that's supporting my body was pulled then my weight became unbalance and I was already a human pillow before I knew it. All it took was was 2 seconds for me to transform from a human carrier to a human pillow. Her head was placed under my left armpit while her left arm was placed on my chest, her leg was almost hair's breadth away from my peeking meat stick, Yes PEEKING.

*IT'S OUT! What should I do? If she felt this I'm fucking dead.

She was starting to move her leg that was near my bare meat, and so after receiving an intense wave of shiver down my spine I immediately grabbed her leg and raised it slightly while wriggling my side to increase her sense of comfort. I know that her gateway to eternity is already practically touching me, I would still rather focus on hiding my sinful rod. Only after I stabilized her position, then I realized the situation below, her bare legs all the way to the heaven in between her thighs was almost not covered and the reason my meat stick it out was that the layer above was moved and made a crack enough for it to peek out. During the time I was moving her legs the lock on the towel is loosening. Maybe this would lead to something if left alone so I need to redo its lock. I let go of her leg then traced the towel below, I was about to put the top corner of the second layer inside the inner part of my towel when she moved her leg down, it was able to slightly touch the stick before I was able to grab it again, but in return, the towel lock was now completely loose. She then asked me.

Chloe – "What are you doing down there?"

Micheal – "Just fixing my towel."

Chloe – "Why? We're the only ones right here."

*That's the problem, where the only ones here right now.

Chloe – "Not like it matters if you fix it though, you're just laying down here."

*What's with you right now? Why are you acting like this? Did you somehow get high?

Micheal – "Um, Loe, did you touch any of my things?"

Chloe – "Huh? What things?"

Micheal – "You know, pills and stuff."

Chloe – "Oh you, you're hiding drugs in your apartment?"

Micheal – "Did you touch any?"

Chloe – "Nope, why would I?"

Micheal – "You're just acting a little weird like, right now."

Chloe – "I'm just a little more comfortable right now, I had body pillow again too."

Micheal – "I don't have any memories about being a body pillow though."

Chloe – "In my mind you do."

Micheal – "Really I don't."

Chloe – "Dummy!"

Micheal – "....."

Chloe – "Back then I can only imagine doing this,... in my mind, I always imagine that once you return back home I would miss you so much I would stick with you the moment I see you till the moment I would fell asleep,... I always imagine spending your time until we both get tired and sleep while you were hugging me."

Micheal – "So I'm your imaginary pillow?"

Chloe – "Not anymore though."

Micheal – "Then you also imagined me carrying you like a baby?"

Chloe – "No I just wanted you to carry me while I hug you."

Micheal – "That's some weird reason"

Chloe – "You never carried me when we're young, we had a floater so you never let me ride your back so, I want to get back all the times you refused me"

Micheal – "Then why not ask me to carry you in the back?"

Chloe – "You're already facing me and I just thought you'd suffer more in the front."

Micheal – "...."

*Does she know the agony I feel from the moment I began carrying her until the time I regrettably needed to let go? If she does I won't even care about my promises anymore, she needs punishment, and oh boy I love punishing naughty girls. UGH Shit, what am I thinking I can just ask her.

Micheal – "How am I suffering more?"

Chloe – "I'm heavier in the front, at the back you just need to balance me."

Micheal – "Well enough."

*Well she was right, if she was at my back all the weight will be carried by my feet while at my front, I need to carry her weight while I'm balancing.

Then the devil whispered.

Chloe – (beside)

*What? Besides I had my dick in the front?

Chloe – "I want to make sure"

*Oh shit, make sure what? Make sure mine would stand up? You think you can check it while I carry you? Make sure I won't take advantage of the situation? Make sure if I would be consumed by my human nature? Make sure what? Wait, I can ask her what.

Micheal – "Make sure?"

Chloe – "Make sure I could reach."

*?????? reach what?

Micheal – "Reach?"

Chloe – "If I jumped at your back, what if I wasn't able to put my arms around your neck? It's your fault for being tall, so don't blame me."

Micheal – "I could catch you at my back, you know."

Chloe – "Even so, I'm a little afraid of jumping on people."

Micheal – "Even though you suddenly jumped in front of me."

Chloe – "I counted."

*How can I refute that?

Micheal – "You shouldn't jump suddenly on people while expecting they could catch you every time."

Chloe – "It's easier to catch at the front."

Micheal – "That's not the point, what if I wasn't able to catch you? And what if I lost my balance, you could've-,....hurt both of us you know?"

*No, you could've been impaled by something you know? But most likely you could've broken something hard.

Chloe – "But we're still okay right? besides I know you're body is hard and strong so you wouldn't fall down easily."

Micheal – "Then you should just jump at my back."

Chloe – "Then you won't suffer."

*Mmm well her reason was to make me suffer for not letting her ride my back when we're young so she made me carry her at my front because I would need more effort to do it. no matter where I look at it, it feels odd that I feel her reason was making sense inside my head. Fuck it, is she going to sleep now?

Micheal – "Loe, are you going to sleep?"

Chloe – "Nope"

Micheal – "Then why are you?"

Chloe – "I'm trying to sleep but I can't"

Micheal – "You should put on some clothes now."

Chloe – "It's more comfortable like this, I often sleep naked you know? I often raise the temp and remove clothes, because it's always too hot or too cold whenever I try to sleep."

Micheal – "Well if you,..."

Chloe – "If you want to wear clothes go ahead, it's gonna be a little awkward when you have yours while I have none"

Micheal – "Well,..."

*Is it bad for my mind if I think she makes sense about the awkwardness of her half-naked while I have my whole body covered, NO! If she knows that was awkward then she should know laying almost naked on a bed with a man without doing anything intimate is not okay, this is not okay, this is more than awkward. This...

Micheal – "Hey Loe, you don't think this is normal do you?"

Chloe – "we shouldn't care if it's normal or special, it's only us."

*I think I heard that somewhere? Did I read that from a novel?

Micheal – "Seriously, the way you treat this thing isn't healthy. Who thought you these things?"

Chloe – "Me, it��s not like I can't think my own ideas, besides I don't really know what I'm doing, I just wanted to do the things I imagined while you were far away from me, now that I think about it. None of my imagination became true, this was somewhat anticlimactic but it's better than not having you here"

Micheal – "Then what did you imagine?"

Chloe – "I imagined that you would hug me, then you would talk to me for a very long time, we will cry, then we will talk about the past, we will talk about what happened when we're not together. You would be hugging me the whole time it all happened, and then I would say I'm tired, and then you will suddenly carry me to bed, then you didn't bother moving and let me use your arms as a pillow because I was already asleep and you were also sleepy."

Micheal – "How can you say that I'd let you use my arm?"

Chloe – "I imagined you would. Besides you didn't mind right now."

Micheal – "Huh"

*Yeah, to be honest, it's quite comfortable, or is it because it's her? When other girls do it, they would try to find pillows.

Micheal – "Then where's the barely naked part? You imagined that too?"

Chloe – "NO!"

*Ugh shit, picked the mine, I should've just ignored these 2s and 1s.

Micheal – "I'm just curious, you seemed to have developed a strange habit. I just wanted to know."

Chloe – "I told you when the AC is on, it's either too cold or too hot."

Micheal – "You don't use comforter or something?"

Chloe – "Why do you even mind having a naked woman beside you? Aren't you already used to this? It's not that different than what you do with them right?"

*It is, the difference is like heaven and hell, they will act like this after reaching the summit together but you, you make me feel agony. But right now my guard below is going down though, I think I just need to talk to her for a while and it will completely sleep again.

Chloe – "Do women often do this with you? After they get exhausted,..?"

Micheal – "Not really, there would be some but they would always try to move after some time, they say it's not comfortable."

Chloe – "But it's pretty comfortable though."

Micheal – "Not everyone feels the same though, maybe you feel comfortable because of all the pent-up times you felt you miss me."

Chloe – "Maybe, or maybe it's just more comfortable for me than others."

Micheal – "Yeah maybe because your cuddly size just fit right in my arm."

She suddenly lightly slapped me at my stomach, it may sound loud but all I can feel is light slaps and even if she punches me I wouldn't feel pain though.

Chloe – "Micheal, you live with Christina right?"

Micheal – "I do, why?"

Chloe – "Does she really owned this place in the past?"

Micheal – "Pretty much, but, you know,... what happened to her father on the other side."

Chloe – "I know, so how did you end up here?"

Micheal – "Well, you see, I met her at school. That time we're called the door couple, you remember that?"

Chloe – "Are you those two? I didn't know, Christina never told me that."

Micheal – "Of course we'd never tell anyone. The only one that knows its use was the professor that opened the door."

Chloe – "Oh, then you became friends with each other?"

Micheal – "Technically not, we became friends when I met her at a party, it was my first time going on as a chem seller so I was a bit, nervous then I saw her, it was her first time partying so she was a little shocked at the chaos. She thought it was my first time too so, yeah we somehow connect."

Chloe – "Party huh."

Then I remembered her first party.

Micheal – "Sorry I ruined your party experience."

Chloe – "no-no, it's okay, if you hadn't saved me, I can't imagine how I'd end up."

Micheal – "But if you're gonna ask me, green ghost's party was one of the top three decent places. She would occasionally spread some nonaddictive anti-depressant if the mood isn't lively, she would even sometimes give away some high-class supportives to people she knows having a bad time. She would give rehabilitation medicines to people who need it. She just invited the wrong people at the wrong time today."

When I ended my words I looked at her and saw her smiling, I did not forget to peek at her cleavage though, I mean to check if something's off with her robe.

Micheal – "Loe, why are you smiling?"

Chloe – "It's just funny."

Micheal – "You were drugged what's funny about that?"

Chloe – "She said she would introduce me to a great person, she said it would be a waste if we cross the astral border without me knowing the future genius of chemistry and machinery that was hidden in the campus."

Micheal – "Oh."

Chloe – "Yes, I went to her party because she's crossing the astral with me and, she will introduce you to me. But to be honest, I would've asked her to give me a drug to boost my confidence when you arrive, in my mind I already made my speech, my ranting about you, how to beg you to go home and how can I convince you to change for the better but I was victimized by someone, and all the preparations I did in my head went down the drain when I saw your hover."

Micheal – "It's sad you know, you'd even think of using support just to talk to me. Was I that unapproachable?"

Chloe – "No!, It's just, how can I talk it out to you in front of so many people?"

Micheal – "We can borrow a roo- yeah, we can't"

Chloe – "I already asked her to let me borrow her room but she said "someone" already borrowed it so it was off-limits"

Now I remember, Guts said Green will help me? So she would let me borrow her room?

Chloe – "You're that someone right? What would you do there?"

Micheal – "Meet people."

Chloe – "Even on that day huh?"

Micheal – "Nobody told me you'd come, heck I think everyone never expected you'd be there."

Chloe – "It's not about me, it was about Rachel, she was about to go away and you still think about doing something with other people inside her own house."

Micheal – "What? you think I need to do it with her?"

Chloe – "NO!"

Micheal – "I'm just kidding, yeah we're friends but we're not so close as to make me cry when she crossed, our relationship is more on business and fellow chem enthusiast."

Chloe – "I thought you two."

Micheal – "No, we don't do it, her parents are enough to poison the whole metro so nobody will ever think of doing anything to her, don't you feel it strange that everyone knows that she creates, sells, and gives away drugs? Even though it can be considered harmless the cops should still be bothered but, there is a rule that no cops should bother any activities 3 blocks near her house. Remember in the past her house was ransacked, a week later a chemical leaked and killed off 13 people? That time her mother was at school tutoring her."

Chloe – "That's if that kind of life is too dangerous shouldn't you step away from it?..."

Micheal – "I was known as "Replicator" because I only need to disassemble and assemble machines to create a modified version of my own, I only need to use the drug to recreate it. Those who know me sometimes depend on me, if I were to suddenly disappear you think it will be simple?. If I were to suddenly disappear in their system and appear in your family's company then I don't know what harm it can give."

Chloe – "you're right."

Micheal – "If Green's mother can kill people kilometers away while tutoring her own child, I don't know how I'll be damned if I suddenly pissed off people, it as a little great that Astrahuman faction isn't really fond of my talent. Imagine if those Astrahuman mafias found out that astral medicine works on me too and can copy those effects."

Chloe – "They will kidnap you and work you to death?"

Micheal – "NO! That's like burying the fountain of youth, they will wage war to get me to their side."

Chloe – "Nobody expected that because they thought you're Metrahuman."

Micheal – "Haha yeah, that was how amazing I am."

Chloe – "If I crossed."

Micheal – "I will hold the underground with my hands."

Chloe – "How?"

Micheal – "Once you cross help me to get some materials, then I will concoct the medicines."

Chloe – "But,..."

Micheal – "Then once those Astrahuman became my patron then we can just pull some connection to be ignored by the law."

*Can you please understand that I'm just bullshitting myself right now to forget that you will go away? But no! you still have to say what you want to say, dammit.

Chloe – "Won't you miss me, why are you thinking about drugs?"

Micheal – "I'm just distracting myself because I'll miss you, it's because once you go away I don't know what will happen to me. I know that nobody will ever touch me underground, nobody will bother me on the surface, nobody can affect me in the first place but,... I don't know the amount of harm I can do to myself."

Chloe – "Can't you find something for you to do? Something that doesn't involve bad people, something that doesn't involve drugs or sex or machines."

Micheal – "I-, Actually I did, the game,... I finished it,...."

Chloe – "You created a game?"

Micheal – "Yeah, I finished it a few days ago. But I need to do some tests for it."

Chloe – "Promise me that once it's okay you should let me be your first player."

Micheal – "I will so don't worry."

Chloe – "Thank you."

She suddenly raised her head and kissed my cheek, to be honest, she could only reach my chin,. I let out a laugh because of it and shove the question of did she just try to kiss me in my mind. She was embarrassed so in retaliation, she bit me in my chest. That was a great talk, I nearly forgot that we're both half-naked. My head was calm so is the other one, I was getting a little sleepy when she suddenly started moving her hand around my chest, and the way she does it was giving me so many shivers and goosebumps I can feel my sinful rod being stimulated. Then she asked me while moving her hands as if she was idly fidgeting while talking in a phone call.

Chloe – "Was Christina your first kiss?"

Micheal – "No, it was Dianne, she went overseas for a university."

Her fidgeting hand suddenly glittered for a bit before going back to normal as if the light played a little trick. She then asked in a surprising ton but with a hidden ominous intention.

Chloe – "Oh so you, already kissed someone before you went to Uni"

Micheal – "Dianne was my benefactor though, she was like a good Samaritan that was taken advantage of by me, I mean she helped me find a place to stay for a while, she helped me find part-time jobs. She was an astrakhan but her family was a minor one, and she was so keen on studying abroad, the day I confessed to her, she rejected me because she needs to study abroad, she planted a kiss because she said that maybe it will become a painful day for me so she kissed me to lighten up my mood, she doesn't have time for love yet, she said she doesn't want to be an Astrahuman who just married into someone's family to rise up, she said she wanted to have the say to her life."

Chloe – "Was she like me?"

Micheal – "No you wanted to run away from your life but she was trying to face everything alone. She's a determined person, so determined that she was dead set on a single goal. She was the type of person that if she needs 100 even if you try to give her a million she would only grab 100."

I suddenly feel something about Chloe changed but I can't point it out.

Chloe – "So you fall for such a person too, I thought you fell for me? How come you love her too."

Micheal – "Can't you understand that back then I was trying to remove my feelings towards you, and so I tried giving it to others."

Chloe – "Is that how it is? Does it work like that?"

Micheal – "Sometimes it does, most of the time not. I took a gamble on trying to let my love grow with her but, alas, I was rejected."

Chloe – "Okay, I wish her good fortune in following her dreams. Do you miss her?"

Micheal – "Sometimes, it's not like I'd easily forget the person that helped me to stand up."

Chloe – "Oh, then how come you were able to have girls now."

Micheal ��� "You see, I had a kiss, then got curious about what's next after kissing so, I did many things. After a long time of interacting with others, I was able to click and match with them to get some kiss and the like."

Chloe – "Then you became like this?"

She suddenly stopped her fidgeting hands and looked up at me. Maybe she got curious why was I suddenly became interested in intimate actions.

Chloe – "How did your first kiss feel like?"

Micheal – "To be honest it was comforting like she was telling me that everything will be okay. It kinda feels like healing some painful part in my heart or something, it just felt like I wanted more but, I know she won't give me any. So I spent a long time pondering about that kiss, then I tried getting it on others, the last thing I knew I'm getting more than kisses now. Maybe that was the effect of that kiss."

Chloe – "You're saying her kiss was to be blamed for your dirty brain?"

Micheal – "No, my brain is nasty because it already is, her kiss was like a friendly neighbor that welcomed me but I robbed it instead. It's like giving me medicine but I made it a supplement for my everyday life."

Chloe – "That's, a confusing analogy but I got the point so."

She suddenly slid herself above me, she was in a crawling like manner in front of me while her head was leveled with mine. Her gaze became the cold gaze she had when I put her down, we're staring at each other as if it was the first time we saw one another. Strange. I had a dark thought on what the devil was planning to do but, I don't dare to move right lest the sinful rod peeks upon the untainted above. I was thinking about the possibility when she suddenly showed a sign of moving down the ward. I was surprised and sensed danger so I instinctively put a surprised expression, held her waist to stop her from touching my sinful rod below. But her next movement caught me off guard. I felt a warm sense of power that traveled from my lips down to my meat stick.

She was kissing me, but, WHICH FUCKING BASTARD THOUGHT YOU THIS? This isn't the first kiss of someone.

She was moving her lips but only her lips though. And then she stopped and laid herself above me, she slipped her hands behind my neck and placed her head next to mine. She whispered to me.

Chloe – (I know you're in pain right now because of your feelings for me, I hope this can help you lighten up your mood)

*Lighten up? You didn't just lighten it you hardened it! I want to step away from losing my sanity here.

I can feel her breathing near my ears, yeah, the hot air was like electricity powering up the jackhammer, she spoke with a weak and hesitating manner.

Chloe – (If, that girl, Dianne,... returned again,... do you, would you still love her?)

"...."

To be honest, I really don't know, I fell in love with a girl that randomly helps people in need. Falling for her was natural because she helped me at my lowest and assisted me to stand on my own until I find my parents' old home. She also promised that once she was able to fulfill her dreams maybe then she could pay attention to relationships, but the absurd possibility that I was the only man who fell in love with her was too much, coupled with the fact that her main goal was the competitive astral world over the sea where the top of the tops Astrahuman gathers. I know that promise was just a hope she planted on me to not lose hope in love. If there was Chloe the most perfect beauty and silliness, there is Dianne that have the most perfect will and determination, they do not contradict each other but complement their weakness instead, Chloe was too carefree while Dianne was too serious, Dianne was too focused on her goal while Chloe would always have time for her own, Chloe had the beauty of softness and innocence while Dianne had the beauty of perseverance and maturity. If she returned, I, don't know.

Chloe – (You would still love her right?)

Micheal – "Don't be absurd, she's an Astrahuman, why would she need to return here? And if she does, why would I love her? I don't have the rights you know? She won't let go of her dreams for me and I don't think she has feelings for me either."

No, that was a lie, I can feel something, she would often protect me from danger and she would always treat me a little better than other people too. That's where I received my courage to confess to her.

Chloe – (Do you? If she went here, and not be interested in astral anymore, are you loving her again?)

Micheal – "I think we should stop this"

Chloe – (Who did you love more, me? Or her?)