okay, right now there is still bullying about someone's physicality. Body shaming is one of the most popular bully materials for bullies. why can I speak like this ?, because I experienced it until this second.
When I'm not ready with hurtful sentences, and when I'm feeling down, I really can't accept the bullying words they tell me sincerely.
and once again I was hurt by jokes that they thought were funny and used to be jokes. but to me it's a lowly thing one does to another just because of one's physique. (sorry if I described these with bad english,I'm trying to explained,hope you guys know what I meant). in this moment I want to feel that I'm not okay. it's okay not to be okay. at least I want to be honest with myself that right now I no longer want to pretend that I'm okay.
"oh my, what year is this photo of you?" asked one of my friends when he asked for a picture of me and my daughter.
Okay, let's see the side of my friend who comments on the photo of me and my daughter. The photo shows a mature woman with a seductive body (according to my version). But for some people outside there who adore beauty and perfect body, including this one of my friends, the woman in the photo is not a woman who has a body like a supermodel, tall, slim, white skin, etc.
"This is my latest photo, is there something wrong?" I asked my friend.
"Geez, did you just put extra 5kg of meat on your body?" he just said that with no heart,no sensitivity.
and I was just froze,can't even talk,can't speak out,just froze like a dead zombie. and I tried to grow my strength and being strong and then,I found my strength back and started confronted him right away.
"excuse me,why on earth you said that word?, did you think it's funny to discuss or to talk about?,wow Man you are totally nailed it!" ( I said that with sarcasm).
And he just stared at me and confused why I said that.
"what did you mean?,why you over reacting,it was a jokes,a good jokes to be honest" he said that without no feel guilty.
and at that time,I choose to walked away from him,he is a toxic people,so I don't wanna get involved with toxic people.
And to be honest,this is kind of hard to do, because people around me so this thing alot. let's say..it's a habits in this public, neighbor, stereotype of people looks from the outside.