"Yes. I'm okay." I said then laugh without humor. Then look away because tears starting to pool beneath my eyes. I inhaled deeply then released. When he noticed that I'm quite he spoked.
"Are you sure? Are you sick or something?"
I calm myself and trying to stop the tears before I look at him. I saw his eyes filled with weariness and confusion. I couldn't help but to admire him more despite the emotions dancing in his eyes. His face like a greek god in the greek mythology. Proving me that he is the God's favorite creation. At the sudden thought I can't help but smile a little.
"She's okay, babe." His girlfriend said with a tone of dislikeness lace in her voice.
Atticus looked at her with a brows raised not believing her. When I looked at his girlfriend she raised a brow that the two of us just see it. And I saw her eyes telling me to agree to her and never tell otherwise or else I will going to rot in hell. The fear started to build up as I saw what she's trying to say.
So I decided to agree. I don't want to fight especially that her boyfriend is Atticus... my crush. "S-She's right, Atticus." Suddenly my voice broke but I tried to composed it right away. I don't want to give a doubt to Atticus. He never did a wrong. It's just me.
He looked at me so fast like the flash. And I saw again how his girlfriend give me a sharp eye—warning me. I looked away threaten hovering my whole body. I feel my hands shaking with fear. I'm trying to closed and open to calm myself.
"You are shaking," he said then hold my hands. At that sudden move I revoked my hand. And I saw him startled at what he did to me, too. Because electricity flowed occupying my body as it sent shivers down my spine. I gasped then walked away. I couldn't handle my emotions towards him.
Even though he is calling me and all the students are looking me with so must disgusting and insults. Her girlfriend friends making fun of me as I walk away. And I can hear his girlfriend telling him to don't mind me.
My heart beating so loudly and bolts of electricity running on my mind and my soul. Butterflies on my stomach making me agitated. My hands are trembling nonstop so I clenched my fist. I bowed down while walking I don't want to see anyone what my true feelings.
And also I don't want to see their faces with humiliating. I can't handle that. When I reached the door of the cafeteria I grab the door knob. And as soon I open it I run so fast as if someone after me—chasing after me. I can't help but released my tears for the embarrassing that I've done.
"W-What I have done?" I stammered asking myself. The sobs a while ago turing into a wild cries. I cover myself as I lead to the back of the school to cry my heart on. I'm like a broken hearted. My crush rejecting me as I confessed my feelings toward him. As my boyfriend caught cheating with my two widen eyes with an anger and betrayal.
But sadly, it's not. My crush is into someone else and I embarrassed myself in front of him. That's the greatest fear and ignominious I felt in my entire fifteen years of existence. I will carry this when I'm old and when I die. I want to forget this day or if not I want to travel back and I avoided him the first time I met him.
"Hmm..."
I stopped crying and scolding myself as I hear a voice.
"Embarrassing moments are the best moments you can have in your entire life. Because you make people happy and so are you. I know that I don't have a say to this stand but... yeah." He advices. But that advices he gave me didn't help but more increased.
I cried harder not minding the man in front of me. I didn't bother to look at him though.
"Oh, sorry!" He apologized immediately when he heard me crying more. He hold my shoulders and tapped my back to comfort me. I was shocked when he did that so my cries stopped too.
When he feels that I'm not crying anymore he removed his hands at me. So that's my cue to wipe my tears and my cold. But sadly I can't wipe them off.
"Here," he said then gave me his handkerchief. I looked at his handkerchief battling if I should accept it or not.
"It's clean, don't worry. Or you can have it I have so many like this. So accept it now and wipe your tears."
"I-Is it okay?" I stammered.
"Yeah. So please accept it now because my hand is now trembling badly." He joked around then laugh a little.
I looked at his hand and saw that its trembling now I can't help but smile a little. I accept it then wipe my tears away so fast and breathe a cold. I heard him chuckling when I do my cold.
I gave him a danger look—as soon as I looked at the man in front me my system stop. The beating and the bolts I've felt earlier came back and messing my system as I recognize his face and his voice.
"Finally you look at me. I'm sorry what happened a while ago. I didn't mean to embarrassed you in may people." He apologized sincerely.
My eyes widden so wide as I process what's happening. I'm in a process mode so I can't answer him back. I've felt my system shut down while looking at him pausing and not breathing.
"Hey! Are you alright?" He asked again with weariness. And touched me again—that bring me back into the reality that I've never expected!