MONTH 3
It's been 1 month since I first met him
He's told me the rules I must follow and what I can and can't do
He said if I go to the police that he would kill me so I do what he says and I don't ask questions
Everyday I come home from the diner and he's there everywhere I go he's there
I feel myself losing my sanity its slipping away
Maybe he isn't that bad
Maybe he really loves me
Whenever I think this I slap myself
He's evil and holding you captive I say
He's been getting more touchy, every time he touches me I feel the need to throw up I can't handle his hands on me his touch is sickening in a way
Sometimes I'll wake up in the middle of the night and he'll just be standing there watching, waiting
He gives a new meaning to creepy
His eyes burn me with chills
His hands make me sick
His voice makes me insane
I don't know how much longer I can take this
Sometimes he makes me cook for him and I do but when he doesn't like it he goes into like a state of psychosis
He starts to yell and throwing things and then in a flash he normal again like nothing ever happened
He's a psychopath or a sociopath i don't know
I've been interested to psychology for a long time and I'm fascinated by a serial killer I just want to know why they do it but I think that curiosity is going to get me killed
I try and keep all of this in journals
I have to hide them away
Everyday is battle for my mind but I have a plan
I'm going to pretend that I'm in love with him hopefully my mind doesn't snap and I fall in love with my captor it's common in kidnapped victims it's called Stockholm syndrome.
But I have to push past the disgust and rage and act like I love him it's going to be hard
But I think writing and re- reading past writings will help me not go crazy next time I write I write about what he does his behavior so I can get inside his head
All I have to remember is he doesn't love u psychopaths don't show emotion they don't feel and I can't slip in a state of non reality
Here's what I know about him
- sociopath
- bipolar
- maybe multiple personality disorder
I have to keep strong wish me luck