MONTH 5
I have gotten use to this cabin
All of it's creeks and cracks
I now know the name of my captor
Derek stein
Or that's what he told me
He's been talking about a family and children
For some reason this doesn't bother me
I think I might be attracted to this guy
I mean all I half to do is fallow his rules
Maybe it isn't this that bad
He says he loves me
Is he lying
Sometimes I see him starring at me when he thinks I'm sleeping
I never sleep
The battle with my mind is coming to an end and I'm losing
I don't think I can do the plan
I keep doubting it
When are guys most distracted
When do they let there guards down
Oh I know
And as people reading I thing you should know to
But I can't do that
I won't
But I think it's the only way
Everyday he does the same thing comes here eats kisses me watches tv and then sleeps
I think he wants me to be ready
That's kind
I think I'm ready to do the plan
Now I wait for him
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ MATURE ~~~~~~~~~~
He got home
He kissed me
He went to pull away but I didn't let him
I kissed him with all my might
He definitely got into it
He picked me up and my legs wrapped around him
I tugged at his shirt
Giving him a hint
He pulled away and looked at me for any sign of disapproval
I tried to hide it
He pulled of his shirt and i was shocked he was hot
He pulled at my shirt and ended up ripping it off
He stared at me
I got shivers
He put me on the couch and pulled down my pants
He then took of his
I pulled my bra off
He took of my underwear and then his
He looked at me one last time and then he put it in
I tried to move to hit him and run but I couldn't
I wanted it
I wanted him
My mind finally cracked
I'm in love with my kidnapper