I'm laying in bed with thoughts running rampant. I am tossing and turning in bed when Alejandro says, "Look I get that you've been through a lot mama but we have to get some sleep. Tomorrow is a very important day. We are training and we have to be well rested."
"I know I just can't sleep. You'd think with everything that we have been through that I would be exhausted but I just can't sleep." I say and I remember having nights like this. Where it was so hard to sleep even though I went nights without sleeping.
"Well talk to me what's on your mind?" he asks.
"I'm having flashbacks to when I was with Isaiah's dad."
"You never mention him. What is he dead or something?"
"Or something." I say in a low tone. He looks at me with a curious look as well as a concerned look, as if he is waiting for me to be comfortable enough to just tell him everything.
"Look before coming to the beautiful town of Harmony, I was in a big city. I was a reporter. Not for a big tv show but for the radio and some blogs. Well when I met Isaiah's dad, I thought that I had met my soulmate, my one true love. Rafe. And at the beginning things were great. He would take me out everywhere showed me off. Wined and dined me. It was perfect. Until I got my first job offer for a national news station. I was offered a tv spot. I was so excited I couldn't wait to tell him. And well that's when things went down hill from there." I say with my voice beginning to get shaking
Alejandro gets up from his bed and comes over to my bed and he is hugging me. "Why didn't you just leave him when he didn't support you?" He asks.
"A lot of people ask that. I don't know. By the time I was offered the big role in the news world it had been years we were together for about 3 years then. He was what I knew. See I am an only child and my parents died when I was 19 so it has always just been me. And well not long after him getting so upset that I was offered a tv role did he actually start to hit me. I knew I had to get out but it wasn't so simple. He controlled all of our assets." I look at him and he has a look of anger in his eyes.
"I began to save money and I just wanted to have enough for when the time was right."
"So how did Isaiah come about? I mean if you don't mind me asking. How could you still sleep with someone after they beat you?"
"No one really knows this but after he started to beat me, I refused to sleep with him. But that only made him angrier. So when he wanted to he would take it. I had no say in it."
"HE RAPED YOU?!?!?!?"
"Look, its in the past now. I don't care anymore Isaiah is 10 now and he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. But yes he raped me, several times. I just took it because it was what made him calm down. Well one day I realized that I was late and I took a pregnancy test and that's the day I decided that I needed to protect my baby. I left." I say with tears in my eyes because yes when that happened to me it was scary but being separated from my child for the first time in years is so hard. And it hurts.
"So that's when you escaped to Harmony? Kind of ironic don't you think going to a new town and its called Harmony?" He says holding me tighter.
"Ha yeah now that I think about it. I had found my "Harmony". Well when I first arrived it was great. I minded my business and found work at our little market there and it was great I got my house and things were just perfect. I had escaped Rafe and things were looking so much better for me. But when I was about 8 months pregnant he found me."
"What do you mean he found you?"
"Well apparently someone told him that they saw me there in Harmony. Which was weird because I never saw anyone that we knew. Well anyways I didn't tell anyone that I was hiding from anyone so the first person he saw he asked them if they knew me and if they knew where I lived and they told him and he found me. He dragged me out of my home and beat me. He beat me for leaving him and he began to kick my belly because I didn't tell him that I was pregnant."
"What the fuck!"
"Yeah. But Iris and her husband saw everything and saved me. Mr. and Mrs. Sanchez arrested him, and Mrs. Villarreal tended to my wounds. And after that they took care of me and we have all been so close ever since." I don't even realize that tears are just coming out.
"My gosh sweetheart. I don't understand how some women can go through all that. But I am glad that you and little Isaiah are out. And I promise that I will reunite you two." He looks at me with those beautiful eyes of his.
I can't help but lean in and kiss him. And this kiss isn't a pitty kiss, but a kiss of love.
There is so much love radiating from our lips. As he leans in and kisses me back, I get this sudden rush of electricity that radiates all down my spine and sends a tingle all through my most intimate parts of my body. He breaks our kiss for just one second and asks, "Did you feel that?"
I can't even answer I just nod my head.
"Do you want me to stop?" I shake my head no. I lean back in and continue to kiss him. He then slowly begins to take off his shirt and I take off mine. We lay on the bed and he lays on top of me.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asks again.
"Yes I am sure that I want this." I say.
And he continues. He removes his pants and boxers, while I remove my pants and panties. He looks me in the eyes as be prepares himself to enter me. He slowly enters me and I gasp and grab onto his shoulders. He is going in and out at a slow pace that is driving me insane.
"Please. I want more. You are torturing me." I whisper, trying to keep quiet so that the others don't hear us.
"Oh yeah. Alright then love." He says as he begins to go faster and harder and he is hitting the very spot that I need him to hit.
After a good while I begin to feel the jolt of electricity go down my spine and down my most intimate areas again. He whispers in my ear, "I love you Vanessa." And I whisper back, "I love you to." And then we both climax together.
He lays down next to me and takes me in his arms and says, "I will always love and protect you, and your son. I will never hurt you. You have my word."
I lay my head on his chest and say, "I love you too." And then I just fall asleep peacefully.