I am pregnant. Is all I can think about. After all this time I have been thinking and how? I mean how could I have not been more careful? This is not the time for me to be pregnant, they need me, I need to help and now I am just dead weight to them. I begin to cry.
"Baby don't cry I promise that I will take great care of you. I love you and I can't wait to be a daddy and not just to our baby..." He says while rubbing my belly. "but also to Isaiah. I love you guys."
"I am not crying because of that I am crying because I can't help you guys anymore. Now I am the stupid girl who needs to be protected yet again." I say while smacking my legs and remembering when I needed protection from Isaiah's dad.
"My love you are not the girl who needs to be protected, you have been protecting so many people all this time baby, and taking care of everyone else but yourself but now it is your turn. I promise you I will take care of you don't feel like you are a bother, or burden or anything like that." He says while rubbing my arm.
"OK I'll be ok. It's just the hormones I guess." I say as I wipe my tears. I get up and go to the kitchen to get some water.
"Well Vanessa what did the tests say?" Mrs. Villarreal asks scaring the crap out of me.
"Oh my goodness you nearly scared me to death." I say while grabbing my heart. "Well they said that you should maybe refrain from scaring me anymore, because then you can making me go into premature labor."
"Oh my gosh Vanessa you are pregnant. Ah this is amazing news. Finally something beautiful is coming out of this horrific nightmare." she says while hugging me.
"I know this is surreal. But this is scary for me because I don't want to be the weak link of the group, as much as I am happy that I am having this baby, it just sucks that this is happening during a time when I need to be fighting."
"You are not a weak link Vanessa. We will get through this and you will help us. Remember what I told you when you were pregnant with Isaiah. 'pregnancy isn't a disease.' You will be fighting along side us when the time comes. And as much as you don't want this, we will protect you just as you protect us. We are a family and we love each other, this is what families do."
"Thank you Mrs. Villarreal. I really appreciate this talk." I tell her while embracing her in my arms.
I tell everyone else about the baby and they are all really excited for me. I can't believe that after all this I am going to have a baby. There really is a rainbow at the end of every storm. We go about the rest of the day like normal. Only thing is I was craving chicken wings and bananas. I don't usually make a big deal about things I want but they heard my stomach growl and naturally Alejandro asked what I wanted I wasn't even thinking when I said chicken wings and bananas. He immediately called John and told him what we needed. I guess he could tell the desperation in Alejandro's voice that he didn't even think to question it and just got the stuff for him.
Once the food gets here I devour my share. While eating I am moaning at how good the food tastes. I am not realizing this until I can feel people staring at me. I look up and every one is looking at me.
"What?!" I ask.
"Nothing you just really seem to be enjoying that meal." Mr. Sanchez says.
"Oh I am sorry for enjoying my food." I say starting to feel my emotions want to take over.
"I am sorry Vanessa. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings." He says.
"It's fine I am just being an emotional bitch. Don't pay attention to me." I say wanting to cry.
"Baby don't worry we all understand your hormones are all over the place. It's almost over I promise." Alejandro says while taking my hand in his.
We are having a light conversation about my friend Sam and how she is going to work with Chris and John in how to help us escape this nightmare. Then we are all having a few laughs now and we are just talking about what I was like when I was pregnant with Isaiah. They are letting Alejandro know how I was when my hormones would go all crazy and how they would help calm me down. But that Alejandro needs to brace himself because my hormones really do go crazy.
"I think I can handle her. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me, I mean I got a family with this beautiful woman of mine. Not only with this baby but with her amazing son Isaiah. I am honored to be able to deal with whatever hormones and I'll do it with a smile on my face." Alejandro says while he has my hand in his.
"You really think you can handle all this crazy?" Mr. Villarreal asked. "I remember when I was staying over one night to help watch over her because of her psycho ex-boyfriend, I offered to make dinner. We ate and then she got nauseous and after she threw up she came back crying saying how sorry she was that the food that I made, made her feel so sick." He says while chuckling. "And I say this with all the sympathy in the world, I was laughing on the inside while hugging her and letting her cry into my shoulder."
"And I appreciate all that you did for me as well as everyone else. You guys became family to me, when I needed people the most." I say while tearing up.
Before I get a chance to let out what I want to let out there is a knock at the door....