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Chapter 38 - This Is Awkward

Your POV

I grabbed my bag ready to go to the Hogwarts Express. Fred and George were happy that I was gaining weight, I still had a bit more to gain before I was a healthy weight again but they kept supporting me. I opened the door to Fred and George already standing on the other side I jumped in fright, this triggered my invisibility. I couldn't believe it and neither could the twins.

"Oh my God I'm invisible" I screamed in joy. They both tried to apologize for scaring me, I jumped into their arms.

"No thank you so much, this means I can still use them." I said, they smiled and hugged me back.

"Let's go, don't want to be late" George said. We all made our way down quickly.

I was about to board when Molly stopped me.

"At the end of the year you come to the Burrow and stay with us, you are to never go back to that horrible place again." She said.

"It's okay you don't have to-" I started.

"It wasn't an offer and I want too" She said. I smiled.

"Thanks Mrs Weasley" I stepped onto the train and went to find a compartment. The twins pulled me into their compartment.

"You're obviously with us" Fred smiled.

"Mom didn't scare you too much did she?" George asked. I shook my head.

"But you have so many people in the house already it wouldn't be fair." I told them.

"Well you don't have a choice...No offense but we don't trust you would stay at the castle" They said simultaneously. I pulled my legs up.

"Understandable" I mumbled.

Neville's POV

I sat with Ginny as she was talking about something, I wasn't really listening.

"Earth to Neville" She spoke loudly gaining my attention.

"Sorry what was that?" I said. She groaned.

"What's on your mind that's got you so distracted?" She asked. I frowned.

"Is Y/n okay?" I murmured. She thought about it for a second.

"Yeah she is now, she is spending a lot of time with Fred and George which is good for her. They are the ones that got her out after all" Ginny replied. I felt jealous of Fred and George but also blamed myself that she was there for that long before I decided to ask about her. I should have known she wasn't going with the Weasley's, she was by herself in the compartment last year. I'm such an idiot.

We got off the train and went to the carriages, I walked up to the trio.

"Hi guys" I said.

"Hey Neville" They all replied. A few seconds later Y/n walked up to us, when she finally took her eyes off the ground she saw me and immediately avoided eye contact. My heart hurt, I missed her so much but it was my fault this happened.

"What are those things pulling the carriages, I haven't seen them before?" Harry said.

"There isn't, they are pulling themselves like always" Hermione said.

"They've always been there" Y/n mumbled. We turned to her.

"They're call thestrals. Don't worry you're just as sane as I am" Luna said from on the carriage.

Soon as we got on it was a bit over crowded, Y/n was squished up against me, which I could tell was Harry's plan.

"It is a bit squishy, maybe Y/n could sit on Neville's lap" Luna said innocently. I blushed a crimson red as did Y/n.

"We aren't together anymore, Luna" Y/n mumbled. I hated myself for letting our relationship be ruined.

"I know, you are still friends aren't you?" Luna said. I looked down waiting for Y/n to answer.

I thought back to the school break. I spent the whole time pining for Y/n, I really missed her and it hurt. My Gran would constantly remind me that we would still be together if I didn't drink the Love Potion. I cried my heart out most nights especially after I found out she went home. I know it was my fault, I should have checked with her or Ron. I could have prevented the pain she felt everyday.

Your POV

I got up and contemplated using invisibility to get out of this awkward situation but I knew I wasn't strong enough to hold it for long yet. I sighed and stood up moving to sit on Neville's lap. Ron smiled and opened his mouth.

"Not a word" I grumbled with a finger up. This was really awkward and I wanted to be at the castle as fast as possible so I could stop feeling weird. The carriage hit a few bumps and I was knocked into Neville slightly, I put my hands on his chest to stop myself from leaning into him more. At the same time Neville reacted and held my waist. We looked into each others eyes for a brief second before I cleared my throat and looked away.

Neville's face changed to an almost hurt expression and I could tell he didn't know what to do with his hands. I just kept my hands in my lap as I was kind of zoning out of the conversation that the trio were having. I felt angry at myself for not believing him, I still had feelings for that boy after all but I was terrified of being hurt again, of him hating the me now or even his reaction to my health both physically and mentally. I can't help but wonder whether he hates me now, whether he's glad our relationship is over. It felt like my heart was being pierced with a metal rod every time I imagined him with someone else.

Harry's POV

I was hoping that they could go back to normal but this task has proven itself difficult. Y/n thinks she isn't capable of having a relationship with Neville again if she can't rid of her fear that she will be hurt again. It's understandable since she hasn't had a very easy life and their breakup really affected her. Neville blames himself for everything and thinks he will hurt her again without meaning too and he can't stand the thought of doing that. They both just need to put aside their worries and just talk to each other. I sighed thinking about the work it will take getting them back together.