Kim Namjoon POV,
May 13, 2020,
"Okay, cut!";, Shouted the director
"Kamsahamnida, thank you for your hard work", I said while bowing to the staff in front of us
"Ye, thank you for doing your best ...", said the staff, bowing too
"Kamsahamnida yorobun", said Suga bowing beside me
"We can go home?", I asked one of the staff
"Ye, you can change your clothes first", answered the woman with the glasses
"Arasso. Kajja Namjoon~aah ...", asked Suga to leave the interview room
When I arrived at the dressing room, I immediately sat back on a sofa and closed my eyes.
Suga and I just finished a photo-shoot and sub-unit interview for next month's festa. V and Jimin finished the interview earlier and are changing their clothes right now. Meanwhile Jhope, Jin and Jungkook just started their interview.
"Hyung, are you finished the interview?", Asked V, sat beside me
"Ye. I really want to get home quickly", I replied with a sigh
"Namjoon hyung, have you heard some news from the hospital?", Asked Jimin sitting in front of the dressing table, removing his makeup
"No, not yet ..", I replied weakly while massaging my right thigh
"Are you sure you don't want to see the doctor again hyung? It looks like you look very hurt", said Jimin looking at me with sympathy
"Ani, the doctor thinks this will get better in a few days", I replied
It's been 12 hours since I left Sora in the hospital, until now there has been no news about her condition. I was really anxious, but I couldn't cancel our schedule because the staff worked hard to prepare for this photo shoot.
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16 hours before,
I stumbled towards Sora's body lying sideways on the highway. The driver of the red Hyundai Santa Fe came out in a panic seeing the two women he had just hit lying motionless in front of his car.
"Sora~aah! Aigoo, Jagiya~ ... wake up! Please call an ambulance! Now !! ", I shouted at the driver when I arrived where Sora was lying
I saw her blink weakly several times. Her hair was soaked with blood, her hands and feet were covered in bruises, and there was blood flowing between her legs. I started crying seeing her motionless state in front of me.
"Sora~aah, hold on!", I sobbed while touching her cheek which was dirty with road dust
"Hurry! Call the ambulance right now! ", I shouted frustratedly at the middle-aged driver with the phone in his hand. Then several passing cars stopped and helped secure the scene.
I burst into tears while continuing to call Sora's name. Three minutes seemed like hours to me before finally two ambulances and a police car arrived at Minerva.
"Hurry, please, please help her", I begged the medics as they slowly lifted Sora's body onto the stroller.
"Who are you?", Asked one of the police officers who approached us
"I'm her fiancé, please, save her, she must get help soon", I said between my sobs
"You come in the ambulance, we will ask for your information after arriving at the hospital", said the officer again
"Ye", I nodded my head and got into the ambulance carrying Sora
Before the ambulance door closed, I caught a glimpse of the other medics lifting Aeri's body off the sidewalk. There was blood flowing from her head which wet part of her cheek.
When the ambulance was leaving for the nearest hospital, the medics in front of me began to help Sora.
"She is still breathing but her heart rate is weak", said the female medic who was examining Sora using a stethoscope
"She's bleeding ... what happened to her?", Asked the other medic to me
"She was attacked by the other woman and then they accidentally hit by a car. I .... uh, will she be okay?", I asked in a choked voice
"It looks like there are several broken bones, it seems like she is having trouble breathing, I'm afraid her lungs are filled with blood", said the female medic
"Gosh! Please save her ... Jagiya~ please hold on, you must be strong ...", I said holding one of her hands
"Are you hurt too? There is blood on your leg", said the medic, pointing to my dark red stained trousers
"I'm okay, please save Sora, she's the one you have to take care of right now", I said quickly
Two minutes later we arrived at the hospital, when the ambulance door opened, I saw a doctor and several nurses waiting for us at the door of the Emergency Room.
The medical officer who had been with me immediately shouted out the condition Sora was experiencing while quickly pushing the patient stroller into the Emergency Room.
I was about to follow them, but I had a hard time chasing them because my leg was injured. I grimaced, trying to catch up with them.
"No, sorry sir, you can not enter that room. You better wait here", said a nurse stopped my steps
"But, but I have to know the situation, please ...", I said, pointing at the doctors, nurses and medics carrying Sora
"They will try to save her. It seems you are injured, come with me, I will treat your wound", said the nurse again
"Ani, I'm okay, I just want to accompany Sora", I said in panic
"Calm down ... she is already in good hands. Now you have to take care of your wound", said the nurse kindly
I looked around the ER in confusion, until I finally nodded my head. When I sat on the patient bed, I saw a group of doctors, nurses and other medical personnel running to push a patient stroller with Aeri on it.
I reached into my pants pocket to take my cellphone. It's still on but the battery is less than 5 percent. I hurriedly typed a message to Sejin and told him where I was right now.
I can't think straight right now because my mind is constantly filled with Sora. Even when the doctor asked me about the wound on my leg, I answered it with confusion.
"Is this hit by something? I think it will hurt the next few days, your lower thigh bone sprain and there is a slight tear so I have to stitch it up", said the doctor giving an explanation of the wound on my leg
"Huh? Yes ... yes, just do it doctor", I replied confused
In the midst of treating my wound, two policemen came and asked about what had just happened. I told him all the details of the incident we had just experienced. They were surprised to hear what I said. They immediately contacted the officers who were still around Minerva to check the inside of Minerva right away.
Several times I saw the doctor who was treating me glance at me with curiosity. I don't care about my surroundings anymore, I just want to know the current state of Sora. After the police finished asking for information from me, I saw Sejin and Jimin come over to me.
"Hyuung ... something has happened to Sora, please, I want to know her condition, hyuung", I said frantically to Sejin
"Calm yourself down, hyung ... how about you? Are you injured?", Asked Jimin anxiously seeing one of my bandaged legs
"I'm fine. Sora ... she was badly injured, she was hit by a car, I ... I don't want to lose her", I said stifling my tears
"Calm down, I'll take care of it, calm yourself down. I'll go for a while. Please take care of him", said Sejin to Jimin
When Sejin left the two of us, Jimin immediately closed the curtains around my bed.
"Hyung, what actually happened? Sejin Hyung said you were in the hospital, I'm very worried about you", said Jimin looking at my face with a worried face
"She's the culprit, we didn't know that she's the culprit ...", I said with teary eyes
"Who? Who is she? I don't understand, please tell me what has happened ....", asked Jimin with a serious face
I told everything that had happened, also about the conversations that Aeri had spoken to me. Jimin looks shocked to learn that the perpetrator of the terror is Aeri, one of Sora's employees. After I finished telling everything, I felt my eyes wet and my chest hurt. Jimin hugged me and spoke some words of comfort to me.
I'm so scared and worried right now, really worried ... I don't know what happened to Sora. She must have been very badly injured, no, not only Sora but my baby and Aeri as well. I remembered how they were hit by a car right in front of me. Their bodies flew several meters and landed hard on the road.
I cried on Jimin's shoulder while covering my face with my hands. Jimin just kept quiet and let all my fear, frustration and anger I poured out in his arms. He kept patting my back silently.
It has been almost an hour since Sejin left us. I put my cell phone on the table beside my bed and stared at the bandage on my legs.
"Gwaenchana, you will recover soon", said Jimin smiling
I just nodded my head in response to Jimin's words while remembering how Aeri kicked my feet with her high heels and then hit a wooden ornament in Sora's office in an attempt to get away from me. It hurts so much, I'm afraid that this wound will make it difficult for me to dance.
I woke up from my daydream when Sejin opened the curtain on my bed and walked over to me with a pale face.
"How is she, hyung?", I asked quickly
"Kim Sora ssi and Song Aeri ssi are undergoing surgery right now, their condition is quite severe, we should pray that their operation goes well. I have also contacted Bighit, they asked us to return to the dorm right now. They will take care of this case so as not to be exposed to the public", Sejin said with a serious face
"No! I will stay here, hyung ... I will accompany Sora. I want to make sure that she will be okay", I insisted
"Hyung, Noona is being handled by the doctors, they will definitely do their best for her. You have to calm yourself down, don't let this harm you later", said Jimin touching my shoulder
"Listen Namjoon~aah, the hospital has contacted Sora's parents in Gwangju and they are on their way to Seoul. Meanwhile, Sora's best friend is already in the hospital right now. Let's just leave it to the doctors, Bighit will also always be on guard here to provide the latest news about Sora. So now all we have to do is go back to the dorm and wait ... ", Sejin said firmly
"I can't hyung, I'm sorry", I said hoarsely
"You can't be selfish Namjoon~aah, there are some people who recognize you right now, Bighit doesn't want this to turn into a scandal. Think about how Jimin and the other members would feel, if they were dragged into this. You are RM, the leader of BTS, the media will take advantage of this to bring you down", Sejin said again
I held back my tears and tried to take a deep breath to try to be more calm. What Sejin said was true, surely the media will use this news to bring us down. I have to think rationally right now, I can't bet BTS on this.
"Okay, I'm sorry ", I said softly, bowing down
We sat in silence on the way home, busy with our thoughts and worries. Jimin repeatedly checked on me and made sure I was okay. When I arrived at the dorm, it was already 2 o'clock in the morning. I limped over to my room on the second floor assisted by Jimin.
"I know, surely you will find it difficult to sleep at a time like this, hyung ... but try to rest and close your eyes", said Jimin after helping me change clothes
"Gomawo", I answered
"I'll bring hot tea for you, I'll be back in a moment", said Jimin, smiling and walked out of my room
Three minutes later there was a knock on the door and I saw Suga sticking his head out from behind the door.
"Are you sleeping?", He asked
"Ani ...", I replied weakly
"Gosh Namjoon~aah, you look so messy right now", said Suga surprised as he walked into my room and sat on the end of my bed
"I've heard everything from Sejin hyung, you must be devastated right now. I can't say that everything will be fine, Namjoon~aah .. because it sounds so fake right now. I just wanted to say, you can get through this. We will always be by your side", Suga earnestly
"Ye hyung, gumawo", I said nodding my head
"Namjoon hyung I brought tea for you, ah, there's Suga hyung here too", said Jimin bringing a large glass of chamomile tea
"This will help you calm down, and I hope we will get good news about noona from the hospital soon", said Jimin smiling at me
"Gomawo", I said while receiving a glass from him
"Okay, we will leave you Namjoon~aah, try to sleep", said Suga who urged Jimin to leave my room
"Ye, gumawo", I replied
When they were gone, I stared blankly at my door for several minutes. Then I took a sip of tea and immediately felt the warmth run through my body. I put the glass on the table beside my bed and took the black ring box that was lying there.
I straightened my body to stare at the diamond ring in my hand, my chest felt tight, this ring should have been wrapped around Sora's finger, but why did this happen?!.
I growled angrily and threw the ring box across the room. I grabbed my hair and sobbed. Please, save Sora! God, anyone, please save her, I don't want to lose her !.
I sobbed even louder, I've never cried like this before. My heart ached, I cried as hard as I could trying to get rid of the tightness in my chest.
I don't have God, I don't even believe in God, but right now I'm willing to ask any God so that Sora and my baby can be safe.
I'm so desperate right now, I can't accompany her in the hospital, I don't know how she is right now. Was the operation successful? Has she regained consciousness? Is our baby okay ?, all the questions keep spinning in my head until it feels heavy.
I cried for almost an hour, until my voice was hoarse, my eyes and face felt hot. I can't close my eyes even though I feel so tired.
Until finally morning came, Jin hyung knocked on my door and brought me food.
"Gosh Namjoon~aah, you're such a mess", said Jin, surprised to see me curled up on the bed
"I made you breakfast ... I'm sorry Namjoon~aah, Sejin hyung hasn't got any news about Sora. Maybe today we can cancel your schedule. I think you should rest and recover", he said looking at me sympathetically
"Ani. I'm okay. I have to do something, hyung. Otherwise I will keep falling apart like this", I replied straightening myself into a sitting position
"Are you sure?", Asked Jin, frowning
"Ye, gwaenchana ... after all, the staff must have worked hard to prepare everything for us today", I replied while rubbing my face
"I'll tell Sejin hyung about it ... eat Namjoon~aah, you need a lot of energy right now", said Jin as he left my room
I just ate a few bites of toast in front of me. My stomach actually feels nauseous after eating it. Then I headed to the bathroom to take a shower and get ready to do our schedule today.
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At this time, 2.30 pm,
I had changed and was sitting on the sofa in the waiting room when Sejin walked into the room with a pale face. Somehow I felt that something was wrong.
"Hyung, what's wrong?", Asked Jk to Sejin
We are ready and waiting for the car that will take us to the office. We sat across from each other talking about our new album.
"Namjoon~aah, I just got news from the hospital", Sejin said over to me and sat in front of me
Me and the others immediately straightened our bodies and looked at him seriously.
"Sora's operation went well, she was injured badly enough that she had to undergo surgery for almost 7 hours. 3 broken ribs, fractured hip and broken left wrist", said Sejin
"Oh my God!", Screamed Jhope closed his mouth
"Gosh, noona ...", said Tae with a shocked face
I swallowed hard, trying to hold back the tears that began to fill my eyes.
"She also had a concussion, and ... and, uh, I'm sorry Namjoon~aah ... I'm so sorry, ...", he stuttered with tears in his eyes
"What is it, hyung? Tell me", I asked quietly
My heart was racing, I felt my hands sweat with nervousness. No! I don't want to hear it, I'm afraid to hear the thing I'm most afraid of ...
"Namjoon~aah, Kim Sora ssi ... she, uh, she lost her baby, and she is currently in a critical condition and still unconscious ...", Sejin said ending his words.
"What?! Aigoo", Said Jk widened his eyes in disbelief at what he heard
"Oh my god ...", said Jin clutching his hair
Suga and Jimin, covered their faces. We are all shocked by this news. And I .... I didn't move a bit trying to digest the words spoken by Sejin. This is a lie, this must be a lie ... I felt tears slowly running down my cheeks. I closed my eyes trying my best to stay conscious.
"I know it must be hard for you ... but the doctors have tried their best, right now they can only wait for Sora to struggle to regain consciousness ...", Sejin said again
I covered my face with my hands and burst into tears. I felt Jimin sat beside me and hugged me.
"Hyung, I'm sorry", he said, holding me tightly
"The doctors have transferred her to the intensive care room (ICU), they say they need a miracle so that Sora can get through the critical period and survive", said Sejin
"Then what about the other woman?", Asked Jhope
"Ah, yes .. that woman did not survive, she had a severe head injury when she hit the pavement. Song Aeri ssi had a brain hemorrhage and died on the operating table", Sejin said, his face getting darker over time
"Jinjja ??!", Screamed Suga in shock
"She died? Oh my God ...", said V
"The police have matched the testimony of Namjoon and the witnesses with the CCTV footage in Minerva. This problem has become very complicated, so that Bighit will immediately step in. They are negotiating with the police so that this problem does not spread to the media", said Sejin again
I don't know what to do right now, I lowered my head and tried to catch my breath. I really wanted to meet Sora, asked her to open her eyes for me.
"Can I meet her,hyung? I want to meet Sora", I said hoarsely
Tae approached me while carrying a bottle of water for me. I thanked him and took a sip of water with trembling hands.
"I'm sorry Namjoon~aah, for now you are not allowed to see her. Sora is getting a lot of attention for this case, many reporters are passing around the hospital and Minerva too. When you show up at the hospital, it's the same as you expose yourself", said Sejin with a face of regret
I nodded my head while wiping my tears.
"There are reporters waiting for you outside, you don't need to say anything. Just be friendly and get into the car. They still don't know that you were involved in the incident at the Minerva", Sejin continued
We nodded and prepared to leave the set. Jin, jhope and Suga will go to the office, Tae will go to meet his friends to discuss his new song. Meanwhile, Jimin and I will go back to the dorm.
We took turns going out, starting with Jin and Suga, then me and Tae. Then followed by Jhope, Jungkook and Jimin. Tae embraced my shoulders as we walked towards the car, I tried to walk as usual, grimacing every time my right leg supported my body.
I felt unsteady and almost lost my balance on the way to my car. Tae kept cheering me on and patting my shoulder, whispering "don't mind the reporters, hyung. Go on as usual, you can do it", over and over
While on my way home, I felt that my body was weak, all my energy and emotions had been drained for the past two days because of the incident. I feel so desperate.
I can feel my world slowly crumbling, and I can't do anything to rebuild it. Not without Sora by my side ....
"I still can't believe it
Everything seems like a dream
Don't you try to disappear ...
"Is this true?
You, you,
You're so beautiful, I feel scared
Untrue , untrue...
You, you ...
Will you be by my side?
Will you promise me?
If I let go of your hand,
You will fly and break
I'm afraid, so afraid of that
Will you stop the time
When this moment ends?
Even though that hasn't happened yet
I'm afraid, I'm afraid of losing you ... " *
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Hi ARMY, sorry the update is late, so hectic today😣
* credit song for this chapter: Butterfly (BTS)
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