As the clock struck midnight
That's when my mind is fully awake
The deadly thoughts I kept inside
The unwanted thoughts I hide
That's when they get so loud
I looked up at the blank space of my ceiling
Just like how my life has been
It's blank, it's empty and lifeless
How I wish my life had been different
But we cannot always have what we wanted most in our life
I learned this the hard way
I'll always whisper this to myself
'Accept it then move on, life goes on'
Time won't stop when you're not okay
It gets faster and faster when you wanted it to stop
That's how cruel life has been to me
That my whole being is getting used to it
I close my eyes and picture myself as someone else
Someone who lives a perfect and peaceful life
Someone who doesn't feel fear every second
Someone who has tears in her eyes because of joy
A life that is so different from what I have right now
I sighed, because I know it will not happen to me
I wrapped myself tighter as the night gets colder