I stared at his eyes.
Fear and anxiety start to rise up on my chest as the minute pass by.
'I'm scared', I thought to myself.
As I stared too long, I can clearly see a million emotions and the thousand unspoken words right through his eyes that I know I don't want to get tied with.
It's deeper than ever before and I don't want to get drown in it.
It's scary to get to know these feelings and it is suicidal for me to get familiar with these emotions when I know that someday it'll also fade away.
If I decide to let myself give in one more try, I don't think I'll ever survive again.
Probably this forbidden bond will mark me forever if I'll dive in again.
Then it'll be the death of me.
This is the unspoken thoughts of a coward heart who doesn't want to try again.
"Never!"
My inner conscience screamed.
I looked away from his intense stare and sighed loudly.
"I'm sorry"
Those two words may have not been enough but I know to myself if I'll speak up more, I know I'll burst into tears.
I slowly remove myself from his grip and I stepped back.
Without any more words to say, I turned my back at him and walked away with tears streaming down my face.