Everyone believes that having a friend has a gender. If you're a girl your friend must be a girl and if you're a boy you're friend has to be a boy.
Because they don't believe that you can stop the feelings and desires towards your friend if you're a different gender.
But It is really not allowed? For me, it's allowed. Because setting boundaries towards your friends is like what you feel in your family.
And also that's what I'm experiencing right now.
Let me tell you my story.
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It's all started when my parents decided to move out to our own current house because of my dad's work. Since it has to be provincial they choose a move to my mom's birthplace which Quezon (Province in the Philippines). We also have to transfer school to be able to continue our remaining year in high school and that's the reason why I'm feeling a little anxious right now.
Like what will going to happen there? Many what-ifs and negative thoughts are coming to my head. What if I get bullied there? If they don't want to talk to me there? As for me, I never initiate to talk since I'm shy and I'm afraid to be ignored.
Everything is planned and even we don't want that. We can't do anything anymore. Their decision is final.
Tomorrow is the day. We like to or not we're going. I like it tho Because we have a lot of relatives there. I've been there a long time ago and I can't remember their face. We visit there every summer when I was in Elementary. But since my parents and brothers got busy, they already forgot about visiting our relatives there.
I'm afraid of what will happen but I just need to be prepared and leave everything to batman. ahahhaha just kidding.
But I need to pack my things and be ready for tomorrow. I also need to rest to be able to have the strength to meet other people there.
Many hours have passed, I don't know how many hours I've slept but I think we're already here.
I can already see the new house that my parents renovated. It's so different from what we've last seen this. It used to be made of wood but now it's cemented and has 2 floors. Looks like mom and dad invested a lot in our house here.
"Alex! Alexis! Go in and bring your luggage and other things here. Help your dad to put our things in our house." Mom's command voice is scary that's why we immediately help dad to remove our things in our car. I'm kinda slow that's why I've scolded by mom. Like, how can I pick these bags? It's heavy as hell. And not to mention I'm the only girl. My brothers will do this for me. I'm not spoiled tho. My mom keeps us disciplined that's why.
After a lot of nagging, I get from mom. We got in, in our new house. It's really different from before, a lot of things are new.
"Mom, where's my room? I want to rest." My younger brother asks.
"Pick up your things and I'll show you your room. It's upstairs." Mom said to us.
I immediately pick up my things because I'm excited about what will my room look like. I pick what I can pick up since my baggage is kinda heavy. I will ask dad to bring that up.
Mom, Alexis, and I go upstairs. There's five-room on this floor. I think the 4 rooms are for us, my 2 older brothers, my little bro Alexis and mine. The last one would mom and dad's room.
"The first room is for Alexander." which is my Oldest brother.
"The second room is for Alexus." which is second to the oldest.
"This one is for Alexis." Mom said. My brother immediately goes in. Since he's really tired.
"And the room beside ours is yours. Take a rest because your cousin will go here and will accompany you to enroll in her old school." she reminds me.
Just like I guess this is my room.
After fixing my things, I immediately take a shower cuz I feel so sticky. After taking a half bath I arrange my things in school so I will not forget about it. Then I need to sleep because it's gonna be a long day for me.