A good explanation!
Just a good explanation!
I watched my face reflected in the mirror with some disgust. A gargoyle. What had I done with my life at all? What a joke!
-Come on, Zorack. Of course there is an excellent reason for Klaus to justify ...
My eyes stare at Max through the mirror reflection.
What damn reason could anyone have to come back from the dead like that after six years? For six years I had suffered and learned to live alone. He had intentionally let me believe he was dead! There couldn't be any excuse, could it?
I sold my soul to Ravenack and I'm breaking the pact. How am I going to guarantee security for these two?
"Six damn and miserable years, Max. Klaus didn't even care about the detail of letting me know he was alive." Can you believe that?
If something happens to you ...
A gargoyle. Double curse.
A Gargoyle had no family. It wasn't business or a style that could guarantee a smooth, trouble-free life. Mercy. How many had I ever blackmailed? How many favors had been charged for my shady services? It was not at all advantageous to charge any kind of money when favors could be demanded at the right time.
-Come on, Edriano. Klaus has always been in love with you. I have observed this myself several times. - Max's defenses continued. What about the girl ...
If I escape a Confederacy trial when they find out I'm a damned space-time dealer ...
"Since when?" I replied, hurt. "Since he let me believe I was responsible for your death?"
I will have to make sure that klaus and Angel are not accused as my accomplices.
It was getting too hard to hold on to miserable pride and hold on to anger.
I should have demanded explanations. I should have argued and fought. I closed my eyes in anguish. Those dimples in his chin when he smiled drove me crazy. As always. And I did everything wrong. I had not hesitated even a second before him and let myself be carried away by lust.
How am I going to explain all this to kalael?
Perhaps the hot redhead I abducted can soften the heart of a Urodelan. He likes warm-blooded females.
Call it what you want. Betrayal. disloyalty. Hypocrisy. Infidelity. Humbug. Had Klaus found someone else all along?
-You now have Angel. - Max had decided to take my conscience.
Was it?
It would have been a stable union of my dreams. Klaus and Angel. It was my undoing, but there was no point in denying facts. I loved those two even though I forced myself to cross all limits. Of course, could be indifferent to Klaus. Pretend that nothing mattered to me where he had been all this time. It was enough not to look at that mouth. And totally ignore that naughty and sexy look. And as for Angel ... Shit! How was I going to explain to her that things in Édrin were different?
The anger was starting to cool ...
Suddenly, I didn't want just sex anymore.
Sex was too little. I wanted them both. And Klaus and Angel could kill themselves with the murderous looks they exchanged. It was supposed to be an excellent start. He just had to deal with Klaus' jealousy and the insecurity of a K'Aldriants hybrid.
My mind did nothing to help by invoking images of what the divine fuck could be with both of them and me.
Honey, any legally recognized union requires two men and a woman. They are very old customs. It's for your safety. I would never do anything to hurt you,girl.
-I really have? - I turned facing Max while crossing my arms. -Well, assuming Klaus doesn't do anything stupid and Angel is still ...
Things have changed.
I officially want a legal union that is recognized by everyone. I'm a little obsessive.
Alive?
Of course she was alive.
I couldn't even admit the possibility of the opposite. Seeing Klaus like this before me had awakened my most violent possession demons. I also didn't know how to handle the situation. If Angel were really ...
I want everyone to know that you two are mine.
I do not believe this.
I'm too young yet. I can't even solve all this mess because of the looping. Holding kalael there was not a good idea.
I will restore the glory of the Tower of Seven for you both. Our people, sweetness ... A new life just for the three of us, my love.
A family! Children.
Only at that moment that I could lose everything did I begin to understand what I expected from my life, forgetting my plans for revenge.
Klaus.
I can't believe he is ashamed of me now that he is among his people again.
The girl was not going to forgive me.
Her hurt eyes haunted me. Did it cost so much to say that you loved that supposedly human teenager? It couldn't cost that much. And Klaus ... Damn it! He seemed more awkward and embarrassed beside me with the humans. It was frustrating.
"And what nonsense do you think Klaus could do, Zorack?" Max asked, perplexed.
I didn't get to answer.
The security sensors fire and cursing I went to check what was going on. It was everything I didn't want. Dealing with humans arguing and fighting in the base's tense environment after the invaders had been expelled. And all my instincts screamed danger in bold letters.
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You are an idiot, Klaus. I thought.
When you plan a thing a lot, it never usually works out. It is the old story that recommended saint does not go to heaven.
You should have told Zorack before he was alive. Of course I could have done it. And I didn't do it. It was dangerous for him, and I couldn't tell why.
Great, Klaus! Really big. The biggest stupidity of all.
-Oh, it seems that the traitor is a little lost in these parts. - I heard someone tease. - Did you stay so far away from the planet to forget that we don't like people of your type?
Apparently I hadn't stayed at all.
Most of the time people like that were very fond of teasing. The world is made up of appearances after all. Good looks always prevail. The old hypocrisy as always. Appearance and money.
They always incarnated in the way of walking or talking. Appearance! And you didn't do anything too much. You could dress like everyone else. I think the word they wanted to use was a fag. Such people attack the hypocrisy of the perfect society.
And they were the worst hypocrites.
There was revolt in me. I could shout, argue and curse the worst swear words and nothing would change. My sex drive didn't make me weak at all. I was not a loser. There were few who had the courage to come out to the world.
Humiliation? I was just as normal and able to do anything like the rest. This was never seen like that in the workplace or at home.
At home.
You know that list of excuses to justify an absent and imaginary girlfriend? I had given up. Ah, I was kicked out of the house. It was not considered normal. My father never spoke to me again. I can remember him very well leaving the room with a shotgun in hand at the height of his despair and disbelief that his only son was different.
It's me. The old Klaus. The same boy who still likes to play football. Who likes to hear their stories after work. Your son. The son who will stay by your side forever. I love you, dad.
I never saw my father again. Expelled in disgrace from home. My father was a lieutenant in the navy and very strict. My mom had tried a lot of explanations to justify what I was.
I'm not a freak!
-Do you have a problem with that, bug?
Besides the hotness of an edrian pissed off with me and a human who is disputing my territory, no.
Just one explanation was enough.
Well, Zorack's anger was going to have to cool down sooner or later. even if I screamed, I doubt anyone would help me. Social segregation. They were furious with me because of the girl. And it wasn't even me who was stealing someone else's boyfriend.
I tried without getting out of there.
There were five faces of those very brave when they were in small groups. I have to admit that my forte was not fighting. he also didn't have a posture as big as Zorack, despite being considered a handsome guy.
After all the tension of captivity, they looked for someone to take their frustration out on. It was my unlucky day. I was not quick enough to get rid of them and before I could react I was immobilized by three of them, while they covered my mouth.
-So how can you have fun? - the tallest asked looking around. - Or we can have fun with you. Nothing like making a happy deer.
What the fuck!
Where was a furious alien when you needed one?
Of course, after the way Zorack had come to avoid me for the past three days, their courage had increased. It was no use fighting or biting.
There was euphoric laughter.
All my resistance seemed to only add to the fun for them.
"Zorack!"
What they could do to me was starting to make my stomach turn cold.
What did they intend to do? At school you usually escape by hiding. The school environment can be tremendously hostile and intimidating. The restrooms and physical education classes ... bullying and violence. Nor are teachers most of the time out of this. Comments kill ... I think the right name is homophobia.
Discussions about gender and sexuality are taboo.
The problem is not gays, lesbians, transvestites or transsexuals, it is sick society. Homosexuals sometimes suffer corrective rapes. Can you believe that most cases don't even win a court sentence?
70% of rapes are committed by relatives, boyfriends or friends and acquaintances of the victim The main enemy is at home and violence often occurs within homes. corrective rape does not guarantee the correction of anyone's sexual orientation.
-You will now learn to like women, man.
I swallowed.
It was the ultimate refinement of cruelty, hatred and prejudice. Little did I feel my shirt being torn in the nervous I was experiencing. That base gave the impression of having gone back to school. I never used the bathroom because of that. Furious hands touched me when they turned me on my back and pressed against the wall.
I didn't even notice when they released me when I fell awkwardly and panicked. I could only see Zorack as I could remember him in the N'Tirlay game arenas. He displayed pure fury when he attacked the man who was probably smoothing me out of his mind.
My eyes widened with more fear. There were five against Zorack. In his wrath, Edrian was something to frighten anyone and anger only doubled his strength. Max had to get into the screaming mess and it ended up getting the attention he didn't want.
And finally Zorack looked at me with a heavy look, massaging the bloody hand from the punches.
-Have you hurt, honey?
Dear? I shook my head without finding the voice.
-I do not believe in what is happening here! - the doctor arrived doing the final show disgusted. - Is that the way you hope to face enemies that came from other planets? How do you think we can survive if we don't come together to help each other? It's not just these bastards. There is a damn virus out there that has killed almost the entire population. This is all the fault of social inequalities. We can't even come into society without the hypocrisy of prejudice ...
-Okay, doctor. This gang decided to get ready and abuse our friend ...- Max started to explain.
I was still baffled by everything that had happened and my ears just listened: dear.
-You hurt your hand.- I finally managed to find the trembling voice at great cost.
And Zorack was suddenly inches from me. I don't even know how to explain what that look in the almond-shaped eyes expressed. His unhurt hand touched my hair very lightly, brushing the bangs away from my forehead.
-I ... I need to apologize. - the whisper came too low.
Apologies?
-Why? - he asked guilty.
I needed to tell him that the last thing I felt was ashamed of him. He was everything to me. My lover. My love, My savior.
I desperately wanted him to kiss me and forget the answers I couldn't give. I would never be able to betray him like that. There had never been anyone but him. The things I had done because of you ...
-I should have imagined that these people would be the type of behavior so wild. When I saw what they were trying to do to you ...
Ah, those beautiful almond-shaped eyes and full of anguish. I wanted and couldn't give the answers.
-Zorack, I would never cheat on you, love ... I ...- I tried to explain.
He took a deep breath.
"I think it's best to stay with the rest of the crew on the ship for your safety." The words came with sadness and regret. - I wouldn't cheat ... but you decided to abandon me ... And worse. You let me believe was dead. You and Angel decided to drive me crazy. You lied to me, Klaus. I haven't had a family in a long time. You and Angel could have made all the difference. You went away and helped that fool to hide that maybe she might be pregnant. I lost you both. Maybe it's too late.
I heard that with a lump in my throat. Lost? How did you lose? And how is it too late?