Thea's POV
I'm happy.
Guess what?
Binigyan kasi ako ni krystal ng chocolates ayieee
"That's from benjamin" sabi niya na agad naman nagpabura sa ngiti ko "he told me na ibigay ko daw yan sayo"
I'm happy not.
"Wow. Ang sweet naman ng kapatid mo" akala ko pa naman galing sa kanya di pala hmp.
I saw how she rolled her eyes when I said that.
"Mas sweet pa ako dun" She mumbled
Di ko naman narinig yun kaya pinaulit ko sa kanya
"May sinasabi ka ba?"
She looked at me innocently "may narinig ka ba?"
Problema nito? Bakit ang sungit ata niya ngayon? Ah alam ko na baka meron.
"Hi mga bakla!" Masayang bati samin ni ally
Pareho kaming napatitig ni krystal sa kanya.
"Sinong bakla?" takang tanong ni krystal
"Kayo" walang paki niyang sagot
Nakatingin pa rin kami sa kanya. Napansin niya siguro na di kami naimik kaya nagsalita ulit siya "ano ba naman kayo...yan ang uso ngayong tawagan ng magffriendship" paliwanag pa niya habang tatawa tawa pa
Sinamaan ko lang siya ng tingin.
"Alam niyo kayong dalawa ang aga-aga ganyan mga mukha niyo" reklamo niya "anyare sa inyo?"
"Wala. Alis na ko" walang ganang sabi ni krystal
"Oh teka san ka pupunta? Kakarating ko lang eh" pagmamaktol ni ally
Pero di siya sinagot ni krystal instead nag-wave lang ito ng kamay habang naglalakad palayo samin.
"Problema non?" tanong ko kay ally
"Aba malay ko sayo bakla. Kayo magkasama kanina ah" mataray ko siyang tiningnan. Kinibit niya lang yung balikat niya
"So, this is the day" excited niyang sabi. Napakunot naman ang aking noo "no, don't tell me you forgot?" di makapaniwalang sabi ni ally
Ano naman yung sinasabi niya? Ano yung nakalimutan ko?
"Ngayon ka aamin" she reminded me
Medyo napalaki yung mata ko kasi naman nakalimutan ko nga ang tungkol dun. Wala kasi akong ibang inisip mula nung weekend kundi yung time na nakasama ko si krystal especially yung mga kapatid niya.
Ang saya ng araw na yun.
Palagi din nasa isip ko ang sasabihin sana sakin ni krystal nung araw na yun. Kaso di ko na siya natanong kung ano ulit yun kasi ang sungit niya ngayon. Parang bad timing kaya next time ko na lang siya tatanungin.
"Ngayon na ba yun?" She nodded her head. Oh sh*t. Bigla akong ninerbyos. May usapan kasi kami ni ally na ngayon ko sasabihin kay krystal ang lahat.
"Ano..." she nudged me "ready ka na?"
I exhaled some air then shook my head
Napabagsak naman ng balikat si ally "c'mon dude...seriously?" she knitted her brows "we've talked about this already"
"I know!" Nagsimula na akong maglakad na sinundan naman niya "ninenerbyos lang ako"
"Well don't be" kampante niyang sabi
"Duh, ally! How can I not be nervous? Aamin ako sa kanya! Our friendship is at stake here"
I heard her hissed. Iniling niya ang ulo niya "thea. thea. thea...if only you knew..."
Tsk "if only I knew what?"
She stopped walking then face me. She stared at me for a second "you'll gonna find out later" then she start to walk away from me backwards "yun ay kung itutuloy mo pag-amin mamaya" she winked as she chuckled then humarap na at umalis "bye! See you later" pahabol pa niya
If only I knew? What does she mean? May di ba ako alam na alam niya at kailangan kong malaman?
Now I'm curious. Is it related to krystal?
Ally said if I'm not going to confessed to her then I won't be able to know what I have to know.
You can do this thea. You can do this.
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It's already quarter to 12
Tapus na ako maglunch pero di ko man lang nakita si krystal at ally.
Alam ko wala silang pasok ng 11. So asan sila? Hmm? Baka nasa clinic.
Waiting ako sa next period ko with some of my friends.
Siyempre may iba din akong friend bukod kina lea, ally at krystal no. Speaking of lea.
"Hey" she greeted me
"Hey" I greeted back
"Tagal din natin di nag-usap ah" she admitted
Totoo yan. May ilang subjects kami na magkaklase but we really never had a chance to talk. She's giving me the space that I asked her ever since that day I found out. Siyempre masakit sakin yung niloko niya ako no kahit na di ko naman talaga mahal si george but still she hurt me.
Pero dati yun. She's already forgiven.
"Yeah, right! How are you?" I asked her
"I'm fine..."
"and happy?" She looked at me smiling. I nudged her shoulder while smiling at her too "ayiiee...ikaw ha? Kamusta na kayo ni george?"
"We're doing great" she shrugged her shoulders "we're able to...you know do things freely"
"Like kissing in the hallways?" I joked. She laughed then shook her head.
"How about you? What's going on?" she asked me
I shrugged my shoulders before answering her "nothing much is going on"
"Eh may nagpaparamdam na ba sayo?" bigla niyang tanong
I sighed "no..." I started to play my fingers "but there's definitely someone that I like..." I looked down "no scratch that! There's someone that I love"
"Oh" tanging sabi niya
Napaangat ako ng tingin sa kanya. I sighed again then faked a smile
She knitted her eyebrows "why do I have a feeling that you're not happy?" Saad niya "you love someone c'mon you should be happy"
"I am happy!" Pilit ko sa kanya
"Nah-uh! You're not" lea really knows me. Of course she's my bestfriend since forever. She knows me like the back of her hands. Minsan nga parang mas kilala pa niya ako kesa sa sarili ko. Well ganun naman talaga diba?
"I know you thea" I rolled my eyes on her "tell me what's up?" she put her hands over mine "you know you can trust me...well, despite of what happened before" she chuckled a bit "you still trust me, right?" Sumeryoso naman yung mukha niya
I chuckled "of course I do trust you"
"Really?"
"Mmm-mm. Lea nasaktan ako, oo. I feel betrayed most especially by you. Siyempre bestfriend kita eh and to think na nagawa mo akong lokohin with george? Pero naisip ko na wala naman talaga ako dapat ikagalit since right from the start eh wala naman talaga akong nararamdaman para kay george. In fact ginamit ko lang siya. Siya nga dapat magalit sakin dahil nagawa ko siyang gamitin. Pero ano? He chose to forgive me. Di siya nagalit sakin. So, I have no right to get mad at you lea dahil una pa lang sayo naman talaga siya. Paepal lang ako sa story niyo"
Wow. Ang haba nun ah
She smiled at me
"You know what? di ko pa rin magets kung bakit mo ginamit si george. For what reason?"
Lea and george knew na I only used george but they didn't know yet the reason behind it.
"I told you I love someone" kumunot naman yung noo niya "yung someone na yun...she's the reason I was with george" at mas lalo pang kumunot yung noo niya nung sinabi ko yun
"Wait, tama ba narinig ko? She?" Tumango ako sa kanya
"I'm so confused back then. Alam ko sa sarili ko na di ako ganun that's when george came in the picture. I want to prove to myself na wala lang yung nararamdaman ko sa babaeng yun. Na lalaki ang gusto ko. That it's only just a phase but I was wrong" paliwanag ko ulit kay lea "Apparently, george made me realise something"
"And what was that?" She's now curious by the way she asked me.
"He helped me figure out what I am. Who I am"
"And...who exactly are you?"
I guess this is it. She's the second person na makakaalam about sa sexuality ko. Yes second kasi si ally yung unang nakaalam.
"I'm not straight"
"You're gay?" It's more on statement than question. I hesitantly nodded my head "oh my God thea" she hugged me "I knew it" she said na nagpakunot ng noo ko
Kumalas ako sa pagkakayakap niya sakin "wait, what do you mean?"
She shrugged her shoulders "I just know"
"Am I that obvious?"
"Di naman. Sadyang di ka lang talaga marunong magtago ng feelings mo" she giggled
Salubong na naman ang kilay ko "palagi kasi kitang nahuhuli nakatingin kay krystal" she explained
So that's it? Dahil lang dun nahalata niya na ganun ako?
"Dahil lang dun?"
"Oh c'mon thea. Friends don't look at their friends the way you look at krystal" she stated "you don't look at me with those longing and yearning eyes of yours" she sarcastically said
Tss "so obvious nga ako?"
She just giggle.
"How many times did you caught me?"
"Hmm...basta nahuhuli kita" tumawa na naman siya
"Pano ba ako tumingin sa kanya?" Tanong ko pa
"Alam mo yung tingin na may balak? Ganun yun" ngayon malakas na yung tawa niya. Siniko ko nga
"Aray naman" reklamo niya
"Creepy ko ba?" Bigla akong nakaramdam ng hiya. Kung nahuhuli ako ni lea na nakatingin palagi kay krystal pano na lang yung ibang kaklase ko or even krystal? Malamang she finds me creepy everytime she caught me looking at her. Ahh!
"Pasalamat ka na lang maganda ka" she nudged me while tatawa tawa pa rin
I rolled my eyes on her
"So, tell me who's the girl?" Baba taas yung kilay na tanong niya sakin "oh no. Don't tell me. I think I already know who the girl is" tawa na naman siya
Inaasar niya ako. Palibhasa bestfriends na kami ulit.
"So, we're still bestfriends, right?"
"Is that your way of asking me if I do accept you being gay?" I just nod "are you serious? I just got you back thea! Of course, duh!" she then hugged me tightly "come here you marvin gay" we chuckled
"Marvin gaye with an e" I corrected her
"It doesn't matter whether it has an e or not. It still sounds the same, gay"
Hinampas ko siya sa likod. Tawa pa rin siya
"I miss you" she said to me while still hugging each other.
I smiled "me too"