"Chisai! Hey wait! Where are you going?" Kane was running through the train cars, when the doors separating them from Katsumi closed, Ren had let go of his hand and ran through the cars. "Stop chasing me Kane! Just leave!" Ren shouted back, Kane? since when does he call me Kane? Reaching the last train car, Ren hunched over trying to catch his breath, before feeling his hands on his back "Chisai, what the hell was that?" Kane spoke between breaths, Ren facing the doors shaking his head. "Im sorry Ka-Kane... Please just leave me alone. I need to be alone right now." There was a short pause before Kane wrapped his hands around his body pulling his cold body into his warm chest. "Chisai, im not going anywhere." Ren turning around pushing at Kane's chest in attempt to push him away, with fail. "Kane! Stop trying to fucking do this! Just leave!" Kane pulling him tighter as the greenette was softly punching his chest before his body started trembling, his body eventually falling limp, gripping at Kane's shirt as soft sobs escaped his lips. "No, push me away all you want. I am not leaving you here to deal with whatever that was. I want to help." Ren clenching onto Kane's shirt silently sobbing "There's nothing you can do. I've dealt with this before on my own ill be okay in an hour or so." Kane nodded "Can i at least hold you while you calm yourself down?" Ren stayed silent, still gripping onto his shirt as he sobbed. Looking around the car, it was pretty much empty, there was only one elderly man sitting in the corner asleep. Reaching his hand back to the door he locked it so no one else could come in and shuffled over to the free seats closest to them. Slowly sitting as he hugged the greenette close before laying his head in his lap, stroking his hair to calm him.
At least an hour passed before Ren's breathing calmed, his eyes puffy and red, Kane still running his fingers through his hair like a brush. "Chisai? Are you feeling better?" He whispered, Ren nodded whipping the remaining tears on his cheeks as he sat up. "Yeah I'm better. Im sorry you had to see me like that Kane." Shaking his head "I don't really know what you mean Chisai." Ren looked to the ceiling as his eyes glossed over again. "You know what i mean. I lost my shit back there! I said some awful, regrettable things! I dont know what came over me!" He yelled placing his face in his hands. Kane chuckled "Chisai, you were angry. That bitch called you something so fucking rude im surprised i didnt rip her goddamn head off myself. You are not repulsive in anyway, and you had every right to be that angry." Kane was rubbing small circles into his back letting the greenette have his freak out, letting him talk, doing whatever he needed to feel better, until he so naturally, started to nit pick at the things he hated about himself. "Chisai, you really need to calm down and stop talking like that. Everyone loses their shit once and a while. My concern, the name she called you seemed to really set you off, for obvious reasons, but why was that?" Ren looked back to Kane tears still pooling out of his eyes, "I-well, I-" he stuttered letting out a sigh before rubbing the back of his neck "I want to tell you. I do, but im afraid that if i tell you even a little, ill lose you as a friend." Kane shook his head "No, there is no way you could ever lose me. I dont care what the fuck you did or what you think you did. I wanna know what you'll tell me, i wont push you for more than that." Ren stayed quiet as he stared at Kane, deciding quietly what he could tell him. "Alright well i'll only tell you bits and pieces... there is way too much to go into full detail and im not sure im mentally up for that anyway." Kane nodded pulling him closer, his eyes showing his concern, though he wasnt going to speak, he was going to let Ren speak and say whatever he wanted to or what he needed to. "Well, the best place to start i guess is, why i wont tell people my name.. I had such shitty things happen to me, that i hate the sound of my name. It makes my body shake, and i cant get it to stop even after having a decade to get over it. So thats why i let people call me whatever they want, rude or not." Kane was silent, He hates the sound of his own name? What in the hell happened to him?, "There was so much happening to me at once, so much that ruined me in so many ways, so many rumors started from those events and my name was in every single one of those rumors that i grew to hate my name. The only ones who know my name as of now are my mom and Aki, and that's because we knew each other growing up. But, thats it. And, i wont even let Aki say my name, i just cant bring myself to hear it anymore." Kane sighed "I understand, but what about your mom? Im sure she still uses your name." Ren shrugged "Im not sure i havent seen her in years. I cant bring myself to visit her." Kane wrapped his arm around his waist pulling them nose to nose making sure he had the greenette's full attention. "Why. Why havent you seen your mother in so long?" Ren sighed as he slid his forehead off Kane's forehead and placed his face into hi shoulder "I cant bring myself to see her. I brought so much pain and suffering to her im not sure i could stand to see what her eyes would hold towards me. Bitterness or Happiness? Hate or Love? I just cant do it yet, i dont think i could take it if she does hate me." Placing his hands on the small of his back, he tightened his grip slightly, turning his head to whisper in his ear "Chisai, you cant do that, she's your mother. I'm not sure what happened in your past but i dont think anyone could hate you let alone your own mother. Everyone i know that knows you fucking loves you. So chin up." He spoke kissing the shell of his ear. Ren chuckled shaking his head, "I dont know anyone who could love someone like me. I'm too fucked up." Kane's breath hitched letting go of his back pulling his head out of the crook of his neck "Your kidding, right?" he whispered his breath grazing on his cheeks. Ren shaking his head with a confused look plastered on his face. "No? Im not kidding." Kane huffed as he let go of his back and placed his face in his hands "You are either so dense or fucking blind." Ren softly putting his hand on Kane's arm "I-i'm sorry, did i do or say something?" Kane shook his head, "No, no. This is my fault really. I dont know why i thought you could be interested in me." Ren's face grew into a deep red "Wha-what do you mean? It's n-not that i wouldnt be interested in you, it's just your not gay? You've told me about your previous one night stands, the ones you regret. Which was literally all of them. And none were male, how could i show any interest in you? I thought i'd gross you out, me being bisexsual and or being interested in you. or both." Ren spoke as his blush grew deeper, Kane's eyes wide with surprise "Wha-What? Y-you like me?" Ren gulped as he nodded slowly. Kane didnt give him anytime to speak out against it, quickly grabbing his face pressing their lips together. Making it a quick but sweet and passionate kiss, "K-Kai!? Why would you do that!?" Ren yelled, making Kane laugh at his blushing reaction. "Your so blind you couldnt see how much i like you. Yeah all my one nighters were all chicks, and no i didnt know i was into men too. Not until i met you, at least. I met you and i fell hard and fast Chisai." Ren's face was flushed all over as he placed their foreheads together "Oh Kai, i like you too. But, we can't.."