After spending all day and planning with Trystin I headed back home. I was starving, I had a couple of snacks at Trystin's house. As soon as I got home I started digging through my fridge. We really needed to get groceries. All that was left in our fridge was a cucumber and three greek yogurts. So I decided to eat half a cucumber and one yogurt. I want to leave Jason something to eat if he comes home tonight.
I ran up to my room and grabbed some clothes. Quickly glancing out the window. I could see where I had just been sitting in Trystin's room. Looking through my window reminded me of my daydream earlier. I saw my mom and my dad. They were both standing by my bed. They were asking me about my day and hugging me good night. A tear slides down my cheek wishing so much that it had been real. I wish that I could go back in time and just hug them again, but this time I would never let go. Everything in my life was falling apart. I do not care how horrible it might be I would give anything to be where my parents are right now.
I have been slowly losing hope in having a happy future. At the same time, I lose my will to live. I feel like I am diving into a pond reaching for the bottom to push me back up to the surface. Turns out the pond is less a pond and more of an abyss. Instead of diving, I was shoved into the water, but I can not swim. Now I am drowning with nobody there to save me. I am almost to the point where drowning sounds better than the journey back to the surface. Fighting for air now seems pointless. Do I even deserve to breathe?
Between physical and emotional exhaustion I was beyond ready to go to bed. I set an alarm for early the next morning. I know that Trystin will be up and ready to go pretty early. Trystin seems even more excited than me. I figured we would share the dread of possibly finding yet another dead end. I honestly do not even want to look. The only reason I am going is that the possibility they might be there or if I do not go Trystin will get taken as well. Enough of the negative thinking I laid out my outfit for tomorrow. It was simple, but nice something perfect for some investigating and a meeting with the sheriff. Honestly, I am both excited and extremely nervous to talk to him.
With all the different scenarios running through my head I close my eyes and go to sleep
"Ember... Ember!" I woke up to someone calling my name. I opened my eyes to see my mom sitting in front of me. Wait a minute, I am so confused right now how did my mom get here. I started sobbing I could not control it.
"Mom, is it really you? Where were you, why did you leave me?" I asked through my tears.
"Ember you need to save yourself. Trust no one, it is always those closest to us that betray our trust. Nothing is as it seems when you dive into your fate." my mom said while reaching her hand towards my face. Just as she was about to touch me I heard a loud ringing sound.
With that, I opened my eyes. It was just my alarm going off. I can not believe I woke up before I could feel her touch or ask her what she meant. I got up and started getting dressed for the day I made sure to throw in some good walking shoes. I wanted to cry so hard right now, but maybe my mom being in my dream means I am close to finding her. Maybe she told me not to trust anyone because I have been questioning everyone that I know. After dressing I headed downstairs to grab a quick breakfast from the fridge. Looks like Jason never came home last night. Honestly can not say I am surprised. I grabbed another yogurt and headed over to Trystin's house.
I went straight into his room. When I walked in he was tying his shoes. Trystin looked up at me and winked.
"Are you ready to go exploring?" the smile on his face was ridiculous. I wish I had half of his enthusiasm. My own feelings towards this investigation were rather dour.
"I guess I am as ready as I will ever be," I said trying not to sound too upset. I do not want Trystin worrying about me right now, it is nice to see him in such a good mood.
"Everything alright?" he asked. I guess I am not as good at hiding my emotions as I thought.
"Yeah, I just had a really weird dream last night. My mom was in my room talking to me." when I told Trystin this his face lit up.
"Really! What was she saying?" he sounded weirdly excited. I decided to tell him verbatim what my mom said to me in my dream.
"Maybe her saying not to trust anyone is really your consciousness telling you that you do not trust people. That could be a serious problem if we are going to work together on this investigation." he said looking at the ground frowning a little.
I guess Trystin has a point. Honestly, I can not trust very many people right now because I have no clue who is trying to tear up my life. I do not even know if that is this person's plan. All I know is three of the people I love the most are missing. Right now all I can do is try my best to find them and hope that the police find something to help. I wish I could rely on our police department more, but before my case they have not seen a true crime in year's. The worst thing a lot of them have dealt with is animal neglect and shoplifting.