**A/N: this chapter contains self harm and bad language and is unsuitable for some audiences... this may not make any sense later on in the book if you decide to skip but it's up to you... sorry**
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Natsuki pov
Ring! Ring! Ring! My phone was ringing.I checked to see who it was... shit! It was my dad... but he kicked me out so what does he want from me? Yuri had told me not to answer but my instincts kinda kicked in and I answered it, my heart sinking into my stomach as I heard that voice from my nightmares. Slured and anger filled...
"Hey baby... where are you? You want to start again and maybe have some fun?"
His voice is completely fake... he's done this before "daddy? I thought you didn't want me anymore..." my voice trailed off as he spoke in his threatening voice
"I can trace you from your phone and if you want to be alive then you better come home!"
Yuri snatched the phone off me as she screamed down it
"make her because if you so much as knock on the door I will protect her with my life. That's when I realised that it was on speaker... my tears just came flooding down my cheeks as I realised that my farther could, and would kill her just to get to me... he had done it before... to mark (that's MC by the way)he came to save me from alcohol poisoning myself but my dad got to him first and well... mark fought hard and I called the police but he got away with it since he deemed it "self defence" and he was believed being a police officer and all. He still thinks that our neighbour called them...
I was drowning in my problems: abuse, mark, my sexuality and my depression
Yuri pov
I heard a voice on natsuki's phone...
"...if you want to be alive then you better come home!"
I'm not sure what came over me but it was like I wanted to... no needed to protect her with my life
I wanted to make sure whoever that was... which was her dad when I saw the name on the phone... got to never see her again, to cause her as much pain, sadness and fear. Tears streamed down her cheeks as my heart slowly broke into a million pieces, each tear she shed, a piece snapping off.
So I carried on screaming as my parents walked in... but for once I didn't care.
Natsuki came first
"You wanna hurt her you have to get past me and my dad who happens to be the chief of the police... you might get past him but you won't get past yuri...or me" shit! By the time I realised it was too late... I revealed my secret. My personality disorder. This usually ruins everything. I can't loose her. She is my life, my happiness, my love.
Natsuki pov
Wait... is her secret a disorder? I mean that would explain the alcohol and seductive behaviours from her... I like her for her no matter what so why did she hide it? I love her more... she's my everything... the only thing that mattered to me and my dad wants to kill her...
I leave the room to the bathroom ignoring the pleading calls of my name and lock the door. I can't help it. I just sob into my knees, trying to process everything but I hear an echo in the back of my mind
'Stupid bitch... can't even clean up properly!'
'Your such a slob natsuki...'
'Put some effort into your looks'
'Ugly bitch'
It's like my farther is permanently engraved in my mind.... or like he was right. I see the razor on the edge of the bath and pick it up... just staring at it until I started dragging it across my arms
'I deserve this anyways. Yuri doesn't even love you... she just had pity for you' yet a part of me doesn't want to believe that...
"N...Natsuki!" I heard sobs for my name.
I thought I locked the door yet there in the door way was yuri and her parents. I dropped the razor in shock and just stood there, trying not to cry.
'Crying makes you weak'
That voice... I snapped back into reality as the question was asked from yuri.
"W..why w..would you do this n..natsuki!? I lost my sister to cutting and im not gonna lose you too. I can't lose you because..."
I cut her off "you can't lose me? It's not like anyone could care less about me since I'm just a waste of space anyways! Since no one cares about me, why don't you let me leave this life so I can be happy?" I couldn't stop once I started " I was always a mistake I mean, my mom walked out when I was seven and my dad always took everything out on me... as if I was a PUNCHBAG! So just let me leave this hell we call earth because you would be a lot better off if I didn't exist!" I was whimpering hard by the time I finished but Yuri's face slowly broke my heart as if I had stomped on it and set it alight. "Natsuki! I'm not letting you go because I LOVE YOU...! More than what words can say, more than life itself. I would rather die than see you hurting, or unhappy. Damn I would die to see you happy and safe and healthy." I just started crying all over again as the ambulance arrived.