Choi POV
We're back here again. Why does this always happen to me ? Cole warned me so many times, but I never listen. Maybe I need a break. The first time this happened, I was in so much pain. I wanted to stay in here. Where it's safe? Where it doesn't rain? Just warmth and happiness.
I have stopped talking about her, because she have caused me so much pain. She gave me an reason to not live. She was so beautiful, I've let her beauty guide me into an deep depression.
I remembered that day so vividly, to the point where. When I talk about her I feel numb. I didn't know what I was thinking. To ever think that she would love me, the same way I loved her.
Back in time
I had an pretty high profile during my high school years. Due to joining the basketball and football team. I was a very social kid, so I would talk to anyone and everyone.
Most importantly I loved sport. During just my Freshman year in high school. I played all the sports that were available to me. I didn't know what sadness was. if I'm being honest.
Their was a girl that I was interested in and I actually fell in love with how different she was. No it wasn't Holly. I could never tell her how I feel because I was shy, at least to her. Plus she didn't look like she would be interested in me.
She would always be with Devan and they seem very close I thought maybe they were dating and I never tried to approach her.
I was on my phone when this girl approached me . I new her, she would always stare at me at lunch. Not even that, she was a cheerleader. Which is a bonus for some of us, but I never looked at her that way at all.
When she asked me out I was confused, but at the same time. What can I lose? Since the one I actually like is dating someone. In which I thought. maybe that was an sign saying that I needed to move on.
And the date went pretty well. We ended up going to multiple dates and everyone at school knew that we were together.
We were just being us. I even forgot about her, but theirs something I got from her. That I never got from Holly.
"Hi babe". Holly walks in, with her Gucci purse on her hand. Almost like she was showing it off.
"Hey! What's up?", I asked looking up at her from where I was sitting.
"Um, the thing is we can't go on the date today, because I'm going out with my friends". She quietly says. Almost as if I would hurt her if she didn't go on the date with me.
"But today is our anniversary", I was an little hurt by what she said. I felt as if I was the one keeping the relationship together. I just nodded and left.
She didn't try to stop me. She didn't do anything actually. I felt like I was the one holding our relationship together. She's shameless.
I loved her so much I didn't want to let her go, but when I came back from school. All she wanted was an break up. She didn't care about my feelings at all.
I gave her all my love, even though I wasn't the one that asked for it. And the thing that hurt me the most is, When she told me it was all to play me. how was suppose to react to that?I was played. I was only a game to her.
I was empty and she left me empty. The past few years I try and try to get help, but nothing worked.
I stop playing sports. I stop being happy and the thing is I never saw her at school again. The weird thing was Devan was gone as well. I don't know if any of these things relates, but at the time I just wanted to escape.
My family, my family was lovely. My parent worked for the biggest company in the entire world. They were never around. As other parents would be, but they still provide the love and support me and my brother needed. I don't know how they did it though.
They didn't really know that I was dating her except for Cole. It was okay at the time, because Cole was dating as well.
I had an big brother, we were so close. I wonder why I didn't tell him or maybe someone had.
He knew I was in pain. He knew about the break up. I just knew it, but he never said anything. As if he was trying to protect me or trying to help me let her go.
My brother had the biggest heart and I know he loved me. I miss him so much and I know somebody is too.
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How long have I been sleeping. Am I dead yet. I have to get up. I have to get up right now. I have to find my brother. Why am I still asleep?
Yuna's POV
It's been two months already and I asked Cole how long can he stay awake and he wouldn't respond to me. I know Cole, I know something is wrong and he doesn't look like his okay at all.
"Hey Cole". I open his room door. I never been in here before and it looked super nice. He had an big bed and his room had a lots of light coming in. He didn't seem like an person who was sad. at least the room didn't show it.
"Hey, um I think. His trying to get up right now". Cole says, still sounding an little bit sad.
"Really are you serious", I said excitedly.
"But I don't think he should just yet", Cole says. He knows what jun is doing and he know why his getting up, but it's not going to work.
"Cole I'm sorry", Yuna says. Even thought she knows Cole's not going to blame her.
"For what", Cole says still analyzing his papers.
"For you know, him", Yuna fidgets.
"Oh no, his childish like that, but I kinda understand him. His been through a lot ". Cole finishes.
I started to look around his room. The wall, every inch of the wall were full of pictures and quotes. Most importantly the one that says.
''I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too much to bear" - Martin Luther King Jr
It had the hint of sadness, but was all love. Their was one picture that stood out to me. It was an guy, he was standing right next to Cole and they were hugging each other. I couldn't see the guys face, but when I tried getting closer.
I turn around to look at Cole and he was looking right at me, then he looks at the picture and sighs. Almost as if he was about to cry. he wouldn't let himself cry though.
"Who is that person"? I whispered, but Cole heard me.
"His someone special", and that's all he said. That's all that came out of his mouth. How special was this guy, to the point where the sunshine of this house would get so sad when talking about him.
Coles POV
Please don't talk about him. Please don't bring him up. He was so important to Jun. To this day I feel like it was my fault. My fault for not noticing.
My fault for not protecting both of them. Even though he was an lot older than me. I felt ashamed.
I tried to be strong. I tried to act has if nothing ever happened, but at the end of the day. Something did happen.
Jun told me it wasn't my fault, but I refuse to believe it. I refuse to believe that it wasn't my fault.
Jun and I have experienced lost, but this lost was so much bigger. This lost wasn't suppose to happen. This lost wasn't fated. It was mine.
Jun POV
I wanna wake up now. I want to get up now. I want to see my best friend, it's almost time.
I have to be there. I have to protect him during those times. I can't stay asleep. I'm the only one he has. I'm the only one knows how deep this is. So I have to get up.
"Jun don't forget", it sounds like my brother.
"Don't forget to tell him". Don't forget to tell him what. Where r u?
"I'm right here". I can't see you.
"Don't forget to tell him It~"
Please tell him what? Tell him what? My eyes shot open. Should I be happy that I got up or should I have stayed and listen a little bit longer?
What time is it? 2:05 am. What date is today? I try reaching for my phone but I couldn't find it. What the hell?
I didn't want to go back to sleep. I didn't want to face Yuna. What do I say to her now? Now that my heart have fallen for her completely , but what if she does the exact same thing Holly did.
The house was so quiet. The house was sad. This happens every year. The tears, the pain. Mom and dad calling to see if we are okay.
Just maybe, maybe I came in time. I open the my room light. So I could right everything. I've heard before I forget.
I hear the same thing each year and each year the sentence always ends the same. I stayed awake.
In the morning. I heard doors open and I open my door as well. I don't think no one knows I'm awake, because I woke up in the middle of the night.
I struggle to walk, my legs were numb. I wanted to see if I was late. I lean into the wall. And saw Yuna and Cole quietly sitting in the kitchen table.
That's odd.
"Am I to late". Every one snap their neck towards me. In shock. Which I understood? I don't know how long I slept. But I knew only Cole would understand.
"No your not----