The time that Cole and I came around, we had no idea that Dean would be here. We thought maybe he was dead or someplace far away. Yet we didn't want to believe that, while searching for Yuna we also searched for him.
Have I said before it was as if my brother didn't want to be found. We couldn't come up with a conclusion.
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My conclusion was that I knew for a fact that Dean didn't love me and he was only playing with my pity feelings. As always I always fall for guys who have no interest in me. I was wrong, that wasn't true and I have allowed myself to feel such away.
That day I ran out of the house not knowing his explanation and I felt really bad about it. I was only protecting my own heart. I didn't realize I was being selfish, I saw the look on his face when I left. It was the same one when I thought he liked someone else.
"Cole what's the rush!?" Jun grabs Cole by the arm stopping him from moving. He was shaking and Jun got worried, he never saw this side of cole before.
"What's wrong?~"
"Nothings wrong Jun," Keeping his head down not wanting to worry Jun more. Jun saw the plead in Cole's eyes and lets him go.
"Okay, I'll ask my brother to take~"
"No you don't have to", Cole interrupts. Leaving Jun to stand there alone in his thoughts. Cole never reacted this way before, yes they have fought before but cole never leaves without saying sorry. So this has something to do with my brother.
"Dean, What did you do to"~
Jun found his brother sitting on the floor, hugging his knees. Little sniffs could be heard, his crying Dean never cries at least not to the point were it so noticeable.
"I made a mistake", that's all that manage to came out of his mouth at that moment. All Jun can think about is what kind of mistake did he do to cause Cole to react this way.
"Try talking to him", Jun finishes.
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Time Skip
He was all I think about, I wanted to avoid him. The project was finished in the school's library, I've made sure to not step foot inside of Jun house. That didn't stop him from coming to me.
"Taehyun, can we talk?" that voice--- Dean. he didn't look alright like he always does. He wasn't giving me that smile or that flirtatious look he always gives me. He's serious... what should I do?
"I'm sorry for kissing you like that. I should have known you didn't like me and I should have known my boundaries, for that, I'm truly sorry," why do I feel guilty? should I be the one apologizing?
"I forgive you, but why kiss me when I'm not the one that you like? Am I a joke to you?" I finally said it. I felt like a wight was left off my shoulder. Like every breakup and rejection, I can get through this one. Even though he's the first guy I ever love.
"Like someone else?" Dean arches his eyebrow. Finally coming to a conclusion he smiles, leaving Cole confused.
"That person is---", Cole's heart speeds up readying his heart for heartbreak like always. Dean watches Cole close his eyes, fidgeting his fingers. showing that he was nervous and Dean finds it so dang cute. Cole's sweater paws made everything so much softer.
"Kim Taehyun", Dean sees Cole pout turn into a confused one. Seconds later Cole looks up at him with teary eyes.
"That's my name," This for some reason made dean sad.
"Wait, I- you---you like Me? Me as in me, as in Cole---me", Cole started to blabber, but then tears started to build up in his eyes. He doesn't know if he should be happy or feel extremely stupid.
"Bun, why are you crying?", Without realizing what he just said. Cole blushes at the nickname and hides his face with his tiny hands.
"I- I like you too", he whispered softly. So soft that it felt good.
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Later
"Dean, your father and I won't be home for a while; due to a business project. Well, be gone for a maximum of five days starting Monday. please take care of your brother and don't forget about that deal", Dean's mom winks and Dean's smile faltered.
"Good afternoon Mrs. Choi," Cole smiled towards the woman who was passing by him. He sees the frown on Dean's face, but when Dean saw him he quickly puts a smile on. which confused the boy.
"Hi honey, I'm in a rush to talk to you during dinner," She walks past him quickly and disappears around the hall. He looks at Dean who shrugs at him.
That same night Dean had to tell me that he was going to confess to his parents about our relationship. Yet it never happened something was off. I never saw it coming but I should have noticed.
Flashback end
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"Please, can we just try one more time?" Knowing very well that Cole doesn't want to do this again. Cole didn't want to stop, but every time he fails to find Dean it always ends in this; where he felt hopeless and useless.
Dean never gave up on him and he won't either, but this I the end for him. If this time doesn't work, then he will lose hope. He shakes his head towards them and gives them a weak smile.
"Sit right here", Devan gestures him towards a chair and cole sits down. Still not trusting Deavn, yet Devan is willing to help so he won't act petty.
"Try to think of the person you want to meet, no matter what don't open your eyes. if you do, it won't work", Devan says this time seriously. He doesn't like failure and if this happens not to work he will be extremely hard on himself because of it.
"Okay", Cole close his eyes following Devan's orders.
My brother had told me that he wanted to make things official with Cole, but I didn't know he would propose. My brother won't take things to such a level if it wasn't important but I didn't want to go ask. Even if I did he wouldn't tell me.
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"Which one of you is Choi Yungjin?" the officers stood before us. I was confused as to why they wanted my brother, but when I looked up to him he didn't seem to surprise almost like he knew this day would come.
The pain in his eyes was different he didn't seem like he was sad because of the officers but something else---Cole.
"Please don't tell Cole," Is he stupid? Cole is going to find out either way, but before he can fully be taken away he handed something to me. My brother was being taken away by these people and I couldn't do anything but stand there.
My mouth was dry I couldn't say anything and my legs wouldn't move. They weren't treating my brother right, I want to help yet I stood there like an idiot. He looks back and shakes his head no.
It didn't help the fact that everyone knew before I could step inside of my home. My parents informed as well as everyone. I didn't know the rules as much as I should.
*Slap
I was now standing in front of cole who haven't been to school for quite a long time. I forget to knock and run inside finding my best friend on the floor holding his cheeks. Everyone turns around and looks at me, but I was only looking at cole, Who was looking so miserable?
"I promise I won't go back with him, but please bring him back", Cole pleads.
We all were going through the same emotion. I didn't know why they took Dean and I didn't know the rules. I missed Dean, but I thought I would have my brother back.
"I didn't raise you to be a faggot. you know what would have happened if I didn't turn him in, it would have been you who would have been banished," His father kneel towards about to smack that tear off coles face but Jun stopped him.
"What do you mean?"They both said glaring at the man.
"Well I'm not supposed to tell you this at this age; they are rules we just follow especially rule 0034- same-sex relationships are ban," my hands started to shake. That's what it was about when he shook his head on that day.
Cole went pale, he wasn't alright before but this isn't right. Cole's face went dark and cold. He had stopped crying--- sh** I know this feeling. NO.
"Jun, I don't want to be around here anymore", Cole had so much hatred in his words.
"You're not leaving," it was the mother speaking this time for the first time.
"The moment you took every single thing for me; my freedom, my life, my love. I stop considering you have my parents. Ill well go wherever I want and you can't stop me, Mrs. Kim." Cole was still on the floor yet his words were strong.
"What do you mean? Snap out of it", his father says.
FB ends
I don't remember seeing them again. Cole really cared about Dean to the point where he didn't care if he loses the last person he was related to. That moment I told myself to always protect this man who in which came from a toxic family.
This mission was not only to find Yuna but to give Cole fresh air from where he had first met Dean. Cole wasn't the same after that, when I thought he was getting better everything got so much worse. So we had to change that.
We both went through a lot together and I will never let my best friend go through that again without me there.
"I think I saw him~