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Chapter 4 - Chapter 4

Mariam loved having visitors at thekolba. The villagearbab and his gifts, Bibi jo and her aching hip

and endless gossiping, and, of course, Mullah Faizullah. But there was no one, no one, that Mariam

longed to see more than Jalil.

The anxiety set in on Tuesday nights. Mariam would sleep poorly, fretting that some business

entanglement would prevent Jalil from coming on Thursday, that she would have to wait a whole

other week to see him. On Wednesdays, she paced outside, around thekolba, tossed chicken feed

absentmindedly into the coop. She went for aimless walks, picking petals from flowers and batting at

the mosquitoes nibbling on her arms. Finally, on Thursdays, all she could do was sit against a wall,

eyes glued to the stream, and wait. If Jalil was running late, a terrible dread filled her bit by bit. Her

knees would weaken, and she would have to go somewhere and lie down.

Then Nana would call, "And there he is, your father. In all his glory."

Mariam would leap to her feet when she spotted him hopping stones across the stream, all smiles

and hearty waves. Mariam knew that Nana was watching her, gauging her reaction, and it always took

effort to stay in the doorway, to wait, to watch him slowly make his way to her, to not run to him. She

restrained herself, patiently watched him walk through the tall grass, his suit jacket slung over his

shoulder, the breeze lifting his red necktie.

When Jalil entered the clearing, he would throw his jacket on the tandoor and open his arms.

Mariam would walk, then finally run, to him, and he would catch her under the arms and toss her up

high. Mariam would squeal.

Suspended in the air, Mariam would see Jalil's upturned face below her, his wide, crooked smile,

his widow's peak, his cleft chin-a perfect pocket for the tip of her pinkie-his teeth, the whitest in a

town of rotting molars. She liked his trimmed mustache, and she liked that no matter the weather he

always wore a suit on his visits-dark brown, his favorite color, with the white triangle of a handkerchief in the breast pocket-and cuff links too, and a tie, usually red, which he left loosened

Mariam could see herself too, reflected in the brown of Jalil's eyes: her hair billowing, her face

blazing with excitement, the sky behind her.

Nana said that one of these days he would miss, that she, Mariam, would slip through his fingers, hit

the ground, and break a bone. But Mariam did not believe that Jalil would drop her. She believed that

she would always land safely into her father's clean, well-manicured hands.

They sat outside thekolba, in the shade, and Nana served them tea. Jalil and she acknowledged each

other with an uneasy smile and a nod. Jalil never brought up Nana's rock throwing or her cursing.

Despite her rants against him when he wasn't around, Nana was subdued and mannerly when Jalil

visited. Her hair was always washed. She brushed her teeth, wore her besthijab for him. She sat

quietly on a chair across from him, hands folded on her lap. She did not look at him directly and

never used coarse language around him. When she laughed, she covered her mouth with a fist to hide

the bad tooth.

Nana asked about his businesses. And his wives too. When she told him that she had heard, through

Bibi jo, that his youngest wife, Nargis, was expecting her third child, Jalil smiled courteously and

nodded.

"Well. You must be happy," Nana said. "How many is that for you, now? Ten, is it,mashallah1?

Ten?"

Jalil said yes, ten.

"Eleven, if you count Mariam, of course."

Later, after Jalil went home, Mariam and Nana had a small fight about this. Mariam said she had

tricked him.

After tea with Nana, Mariam and Jalil always went fishing in the stream. He showed her how to cast

her line, how to reel in the trout. He taught her the proper way to gut a trout, to clean it, to lift the meat

off the bone in one motion. He drew pictures for her as they waited for a strike, showed her how to

draw an elephant in one stroke without ever lifting the pen off the paper. He taught her rhymes.

Together they sang:

Lili Mi birdbath, Sitting on a dirt path, Minnow sat on the rim and drank, Slipped, and in the water

she sank

Jalil brought clippings from Herat's newspaper,Iiiifaq-i Islam, and read from them to her. He was

Mariam's link, her proof that there existed a world at large, beyond thekolba, beyond Gul Daman and

Herat too, a world of presidents with unpronounceable names, and trains and museums and soccer,

and rockets that orbited the earth and landed on the moon, and, every Thursday, Jalil brought a piece

of that world with him to thekolba.He was the one who told her in the summer of 1973, when Mariam was fourteen, that King Zahir

Shah, who had ruled from Kabul for forty years, had been overthrown in a bloodless coup.

"His cousin Daoud Khan did it while the king was in Italy getting medical treatment- You remember

Daoud Khan, right? I told you about him. He was prime minister in Kabul when you were bom.

Anyway, Afghanistan is no longer a monarchy, Mariam. You see, it's a republic now, and Daoud

Khan is the president. There are rumors that the socialists in Kabul helped him take power. Not that

he's a socialist himself, mind you, but that they helped him. That's the rumor anyway."

Mariam asked him what a socialist was and Jalil beganto explain, but Mariam barely heard him.

"Are you listening?"

"I am."

He saw her looking at the bulge in his coat's side pocket. "Ah. Of course. Well. Here, then. Without

further ado…"

He fished a small box from his pocket and gave it to her. He did this from time to time, bring her

small presents. A carnelian bracelet cuff one time, a choker with lapis lazuli beads another. That day,

Mariam opened the box and found a leaf-shaped pendant, tiny coins etched with moons and stars

hanging from it.

"Try it on, Mariam jo."

She did. "What do you think?"

Jalil beamed "I think you look like a queen."

After he left, Nana saw the pendant around Mariam's neck.

"Nomad jewelry," she said. "I've seen them make it. They melt the coins people throw at them and

make jewelry. Let's see him bring you gold next time, your precious father. Let's see him."

When it was time for Jalil to leave, Mariam always stood in the doorway and watched him exit the

clearing, deflated at the thought of the week that stood, like an immense, immovable object, between

her and his next visit. Mariam always held her breath as she watched him go. She held her breath and,

in her head, counted seconds. She pretended that for each second that she didn't breathe, God would

grant her another day with Jalil.

At night, Mariam lay in her cot and wondered what his house in Herat was like. She wondered what

it would be like to live with him, to see him every day. She pictured herself handing him a towel as

he shaved, telling him when he nicked himself. She would brew tea for him. She would sew on his

missing buttons. They would take walks in Herat together, in the vaulted bazaar where Jalil said you

could find anything you wanted. They would ride in his car, and people would point and say, "There

goes Jalil Khan with his daughter." He would show her the famed tree that had a poet buried beneath it.One day soon, Mariam decided, she would tell Jalil these things. And when he heard, when he saw

how much she missed him when he was gone, he would surely take her with him. He would bring her

to Herat, to live in his house, just like his other children.