Vaniah ,
I thought for the moment that we could finally live happily , peacefully and move on after that everything has happened to us . But i was wrong the end it just the beginning of everything more complicated and dark to face
Things changed a lot especially when i grew up
There are times when me and my mom would always have arguments because she always want me to do her orders and rules and i couldn't do that and so often times i always disappoint her and i will be always her daughter who is the black sheep in the family and a disappointment so sometimes when we are okay and having bonding and moments to talk together i couldn't help it but feel sad and heartbroken because when im telling her what is my dream in this life and when i showed her my achievements is i could only see a little smile on her face that looks like she is not so proud of me and would say a word like this
" thats good of you , keep it up but why would you try to be like your siblings and cousins who is so industrious , achiever and obedient "
So instead becoming more proud of myself i would tend to become more insecure and have low self confidence and heart broken and my heart is becoming far away from her and i would feel like maybe its better if im the one who died than my dad and i would try to kill myself often but failed and thats how my life it is so sad and boring but oh thanks god that my friends are always there for me to cheer me up when im feeling heartbroken and sorrowful like my friend Yarra she is one of my friends whose is really good at cheering me up and saying those words i really need to hear like when we met on school she saw how sad and down i am and talk to me and lend me her ankerchief .
Yarra : hey vaniah , cheer up gurl , you know you are not alone and everything gonna be alright , dont give up my friend because there are still people who really appreciates and loved you like us your friends so smile please i dont wanna see you sad .
Me : thank you my friend for being always there for me and not giving up on me and for saying those i really need to hear in times like this :) .
Yarra: because thats what friends are for you know through good times and bad times .
So thats one of the most unforgettable moments i had with my friend Yarra despite all of the things that happened to me i can say that god is still there for me and not letting me down and alone but there are still part of me that is longing and felt empty like i feel i wanted to have someone who will love , understand , protect , support and appreciate me .
In that thought when i finally reached the age where it is okay to find a lover i tried finding one who could give me that feeling and could fill my empty heart but what i found is instead of fixing it and is he just broke my heart and make me feel worthless but i accepted it and still thank him for what he did because in a short time we've been together he make me feel loved and happy too maybe its just he is wrong person for me .
The first , second , third And 4th man i found was just wrong too and because it is also wrong timing and they messed everything in our relationship and they are all too obsessed kind of person and i dont want that so i ended my relationship with them .
Until i met Daario Naharis , he was the only man whose most different from my ex-lovers because he was such a loving , caring romantic but a little hard headed men . Maybe thats the thing i like about him that even though he is hard headed is he still have soft heart for me and he listens and follow what i order to him .
We met in the Mereen City when i was traveling there and when i visit an coffee shop there that has interesting vibe in the view of shop . When i was ordering an coffee and waiting for my order i bump into him when i am looking into mugs and coffee beans that the shop display in their room and so then thats when we are our eyes met and smiled to each other and started talking to each other until we finally get closer and closer until the day we finally decided to date and when he finally ask me for us to be an couple .
My life really a changed for a moment when i met him .because there are days when my insecurities and anxieties are eating me inside my head and i couldn't fight it alone so there he was slowly coming into my side and gently wrapping his arms around me and lifting up my head until our eyes met each other and thats when he starting to talk to me to light up my mood and saying " hey love , please calm down and don't overthink about everything because you have nothing to worry about and nothing to be insecure about because you know you have me and we will fix and fight your rather i say our battles together and lastly for me you're the most beautiful lady i met inside and out and no one can be much better than you so cheer up and smile my love " those words of him is what makes my heart felt so alive and happy and thats what keeping me all those times to be feel secured and loved .
So i say to him with a soft sweet voice , "love thank you so much for coming to my life for me you really are the most beautiful that ever happened to me and the most precious gift i receive , i just wish that you will stay here with me forever because i don't know what i will do without you " then he smiled unto me and hug me more tightly reassuring me that he will always be there for me and not gonna leave me alone .
Then we both looked unto the sky and hopefully wishing that our dreams will come true but then he softly whisper into my ears " love what is that one thing you wish in the stars that you really wanted to come true and happened and i replied love , i wish that our love together will stay strong and this moment will be repeated , he then replied with a big smile on his face and those dashing look of his brown eyes and said you really loved me that much ha and then laugh at me for a while and continue what his saying well you don't have to wish that because it will really happen just trust me and believe on me " he said those words with a big smile on him and holds my hand and place it into his chest where his heart lies and so that i can be assured that his promises will be fulfilled and there is nothing to worry about .
That night , i really realized that I'm so lucky to have a man like him in my life and every lady would really want to have a man like him and out of the ladies in this world is Im the luckiest one because he chose me and that i always hope that my wish will be come true and i also wanted this moment would be repeated and all things will stay like this after all of the things that happened to me before i just a happy ending for myself like the story of how a lady found the man who will love her for the rest of her life and show her the good things in this cruel world .
There are days
I wake up and I pinch myself
You're with me, not someone else
And I am scared, yeah, I'm still scared
That it's all a dream
'Cause you still look perfect as days go by
Even the worst ones, you make me smile
I'd stop the world if it gave us time
featured song :
Love someone by Lukas Graham.