Chapter 6 - Chapter 6 : Insecurities

It was Monday of March and the last week of our classes and practice for graduation . Then after i get up at our house and go to school

When i arrive at our school and i saw my best friends waiting at me in the gate of our university then while walking towards i suddenly bumps into the girl who was few inches taller and skinnier than me yes she was pretty and taller than me but for me we are all beautiful and we have different kind of beauty .

And Im still confident about myself and not insecure in her but i don't know why when we bump into each other she was staring at me from head to toe like she was gonna scare me or eat me hahhahah but I'm not scared because i know my friends are there to rescue me up when she plan on fighting me but she was on a hurry so she just walk faster after eye to eye match and i said sorry to her even though she was the one who is the cause of that trouble because she didn't look on the road while walking because she is busy looking at her phone to see if her face is still look fresh and beautiful .

Then i started walking again towards my friends direction then when i came to them they told me that girl was the most mean girl of the other section in her batch and she didn't go always outside the room socializing with other people and like she only has few friends in their section .

I said to them , that is so weird of her even though she has pretty face but deep inside maybe she has a very dark side .

Yarrah replied to me , Yes gurl , you are very right to what you thought also this is a secret dark side of her when she see something that is threatening her and maybe someone who could feel her insecure and try to get close to her or even if not is she will destroy that someone reputation or even blackmail that person until that person will be totally out of her life thats why in their class section almost all of her classmates is not trying to get close to her .

I replied to Yarrah , oh thats a very creepy side of her i must say that no one will like her for her dark and bad side . A beautiful face with a black heart and soul what a crap .

Cassie and Marga response , Yes thats why we are lucky that she is not our batch mate and we are graduating now .

I replied to them , thanks God because i dont want to deal with her or become a victim of her .

Yarrah replied , Don't worry gurl she can never hurt you because everyone knows in our school that if they hurt you is they will receive punishment from the school and also from your family because your father and mother has a lot of powerful connection in our school and even in our city .

I replied , oh thanks i felt so lucky to have my family and you guys too are the best .

Marga said , yess , because we are the best solid squad in our section .

Cassie response , and we will be always solid no matter what happens am i right gurls ?

We replied to her , of course always and forever will be the best of friends .

Then the ring bells and its time for our practice for the graduation .and while we are walking towards to our gymnasium we noticed that many students are gossiping around the Guidance office and we asked them what happens they tell us that this girl named Penelope Bolivanes got caught spreading false rumor against me and vandalizing the wall of our school by one of friends in the other section and they complain it to our guidance counselor so that she could stop doing it because they could not stop her from vandalizing our walls with my names written on it and spreading false rumors about me because she became late in her exam after we bump into each other and she is very mad and insecure to me because when she explain to her teacher why she is late is they didn't believe on her and now she is in the guidance counselor to be punished by our school official until one of our school official sees me in the crowd and ask me if Penelope accusation against me is true and i said them that it is not true and i even asked them to ask my friend and the guard who see the event lately in our school between me and that Penelope and when they ask them even the guard Penelope is proven guilty of spreading false rumors and vandalizing against me and i am guilt free and innocent of the violation so they did punish her by giving her the letter to send to her parents to go to our school to talk to the guidance counselor for Penelope's violation in spreading false rumor which is part of bullying and second for vandalizing our school is minus 20% percent in her grades in GMRC subject and in the shame she is facing is she just look down on the floor and begging for our guidance counselor to not let her parents know about what she did because she could not accept it and she will be punished by her parents too if she does something bad in our school and just punish her by cleaning the walls she vandalizes and minus her grades and also suspension is okay to her but not to ask her parents to come to school .

But our guidance counselor says that they could only do her request is she ask for my forgiveness and if i agree on her request and after that she feels much more insecure and had hesitations too because she ask our guidance counselor if there other options but the guidance counselor thats the only option she have and in her fear for the penalty of her parents to her is she do what our guidance counselor order to her and she apologizes to me .

Penelope , Vany i am sorry for what i did to you please accept my apology and approve my request .

I replied to her ; uhm let me think first because i felt your apology was not so sincere , i want an sincere apology and valid reasons why did you do that to me in the first place ?

She answers , first of all i was in a hurry that time because it was my special exam in my math subject and when we bump lately in the morning i felt so insecure to you because there are many people laughing at me because i dropped by books even when you helped me pick it up and says sorry is i just look at you and run even from the first place i was the wrong one and not looking on the road while walking so i just run because of the shame i felt and irritation and when i told my teacher why i was late is they didn't believe me so i didn't get my exam and i just release my frustration to you and mostly to myself by that thing i do but i failed on doing it and now it seems that you are the one who can save me from this and even though i didn't to say sorry to you is i did because i badly need your approval so my first apology was honest all in all .

I replied to her , ummm okay then i forgive you and i approve what our guidance suggest that you will be punish with cleaning the wall you vandalize and stop spreading false rumor against me and that you will be suspended and your grades will be deducted in GMRC just swear that you will never do it again and if you do it and i will ask our school official to kick you out in this school .

She replied , okay i swear it and I'm afraid of what you can do to me so from now on. I will be quiet and stay away from you and lastly thank you for approving my request , they are really true about you that you have a good heart but don't let other people abuse that .

I replied to her , you're welcome and i know that and i will not let other people destroy me too and also my reminder to you don't be insecure to me because you are pretty too and we are all pretty and just love yourself first so you will not be insecure to others . I am not your enemy because our enemy is self that if we let our insecurities consume us it will ruins us and you will not always be happy and contented with yourself because you will always think that you are a inferior person compared to others .

She replied , okay then i know and thank you again .

After that trouble , me and my friends go back on walking towards our gym and started practicing and all of the people around us smiled at us and we smiled back too because we are friendly and we don't want trouble again because we are graduating then when i see our other friend who complains penelope to our guidance is i thanked her and promise treat her lunch and we go back to practicing our march for the graduation .

A few minutes later after our last practice for the day is we go to the canteen and eat together and we saw on the other table far away from our side is Penelope and her friends talking too while looking at us and we just badly stares at them and give them a look that Don't you dare do it again to me or to anyone of us and you will receive more punishment .

In return she gave that look okay i know my limitations and i don't want to cause trouble again especially on you then look away from us .

After that we buy our foods and drinks and just go the upper level of the canteen where it is air conditioned and talk about Penelope and laughed about what happened .

Marga said suddenly , you see how powerful we are and now no one can really destroy and hurt us hahahaha .

Then we just replier to her , hahaha you are very right oh we will miss this moments together .

Then we all agreed that we will miss our bonding together and each other because next school year we are already a college student and we enter into our dream school without each other .

Until our dismissal time comes and our school ring bells then me and my friends started packing up our things into our locker and then walking towards the gate of our school and then while getting closer to it is we encounter Penelope again and her friends but this i felt something strange like she look at me before she goes out at the gate and gave me that look that I'm just pretending earlier and our war is not over so don't feel so relax at all and that makes me just scared a little because i don't any trouble again because i am graduating and i don't want my mom to be disappointed at me and my friend notice me that i feel at unease after we see Penelope and Yarrah asked me " best are you alright it seems that something is troubling you ? I replied to her , uhh i don't know but i started feeling strange and nervous when i see that last look of Penelope at me before she goes at the gate .

Yarrah replied to me , Don't worry gurl , if she has plan on doing something bad again to you is we will rescue you so calm down besh , we got you .

I just replied at her , thanks best for always being there to rescue me in times of trouble .

Yarrah said , because thats what friend are for and you know for me you are just like my sister from another mother .

Then after that i just smiled at her and we go out at the school and parted ways .

I was driving way back home and i still feel unease and nervous even though i know there is nothing to be scared about .

Until i arrive at our house and my mom also notices at the I act different that day but when she asked me , Darling what's wrong ? Is i just replied at her nothing mom maybe i was just tired then my mom just said okay darling , just take a rest for a while and later i will call you when dinner is ready then i replied to her okay , mommy thank you .

And then i go to my room and change clothes and lay on my bed to rest so i could calm myself until my phone rings and i feel still nervous so i slowly pick it up to see whose calling me that time and when i see that it was from unknown caller is i just shut my phone off so it would not disturb me .

Then a few minutes later , my mom called me because it's dinner time and while we are eating my mom asked me if i was really okay then i said yes i am really okay because i don't want to add problems in her because she has lot of work load to do and i don't want to stressed her out so i just take it all by myself then we started eating again and my mom said " darling  even if  you said that you are really okay is i still don't believe at you but i know you don't want to talk about it for now but when you feel like you want to tell it to me is you know i am always here to listen for you and for now just take a good rest so that tomorrow you will feel alright and i just hugged her and said thank you so much mom that word of yours make me feel a little calm so don't worry mom i'll be alright soon and please don't over worked yourself . Then my mom said you are always welcome darling and then we continue eating and after our dinner my mom said " take a rest now darling and i will be the one cleaning our dishes for now and i replied to my mom alright  thank you mommy  , then i go back to my room and turn on my laptop to watch music videos of my favorite boyband and movies so that i could be relax and i also turn on my phone to see if the unknown caller will still call me .

A few minutes later my phone rings and i open it and luckily it was just Yarrah who texted me and said that we don't have practice tomorrow because our teachers will attend seminar that day and she also tells me to use that day to pamper myself so i could feel calm and relax because she knows what happened at me lately at our school then i replied and said to her that i will do what she asked me to do and thanked her for caring for me .

After that I feel sleepy and tired then i started sleeping but then my phone rings again .