Mama cries so hard and Franco and Kian are trying to comfort her, while Ethan tells me about the luggage, "Franco told me everything so I decided that we should runaway, mom should file a divorce then take manang Celine and kuya Renny and give them a job at mom's main hospital in Baguio, and isn't Baguio the former assigned ministry for Father? "
Mom approached us "I have decided that now he is in jail, I should file a divorce. I contacted my cousin in Baguio, we are there in one of her houses"
"But how about your service, Brother?" Kian approached me, "Father was previously assigned to Baguio".
"My point is will you continue to be an acolyte? Especially now it is risky ".
Franco stood up and joined the conversation, "Those who serve in the church are not just acolytes. You can be an IYM or Legion but it's not the same as being an acolyte"
"I will say goodbye to Father", all eyes are on me, "What do you mean?", Ethan said worriedly.
"It's up to you", I said sparingly and I got off my bed but he held my wrist, and whispered to my ear, "Can we talk outside?", And we both went out.
We went to one corner where almost no one was passing by. When we sat down Tantan held my hand, "Bambi I know you love the ministry and I do not want you to sacrifice that for our relationship ...", I hush him and touch his lips with my index finger, "Tantan, I have to because I love you and the ministry but I do not want to ruin the ministry, so it is better for me to leave because there are times when you really have to leave for the good of all even if sacrificing the things or person you love. "
"So is it goodbye?", A tear fell and I wiped it with my thumb and caress his face, "I guess it is Tantan, for our own good isn't it?", My voice keep on cracking because we are both crying , "But how am I? Mom? All of us? Will you leave us?", I keep on shaking my head and cupped his face, "Do you know me right? I'll just let Father know my decision.", I softly kiss his lips and I'm leaving with all tears.
To be honest, I don't know why I said that because I just don't know my decision. I can't leave the ministry and I can't leave the person I love. It is easy to say that things or people have to be sacrificed just to save them but it is very difficult to do it because I am a coward.
I looked back at the hospital and saw Ethan getting ready for the trip and our eyes met. "I'll be back", I whispered and ran away.