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"Dammit!" I shouted when I look at my phone.
Iriz is getting into my nerves when she talked about something that should be forgotten. Damn! I just can't control my anger right now!
I quickly find the number of my manager, and my friend also. Toni, he's a gay and I don't mind. We're friends since college and until now, he want to work with me even though he's busy with his business. When I find his number, I call him immediately. I want to confirm if it is real or just fucking rumors.
"Yes? Leo?" After he said that, my blood boiled.
"Fucking shit! Leonce!" I corrected him. " You're making me a boy if you continue calling me that way!"
I don't really want to call 'Leo' it's giving me a goosebumps.
"Oh okay fine, what now? You don't have any meetings,fansignings, concerts and others" He laughed.
Shit.
I don't know what would I feel right now, I'm nervous and stuttering. Shit, there's a big impact to me when we talked about that freaking person.
I just sighed. I don't know why would I feel this? This is not new to me. But—his near to me right now, we breath the same air and this is making me feel nervous.
"Hey? You seemed quiet? I have something to do, it's important...I will end it." He said
"Wait! Is it true that Iroul Ortiaga is back?" I said by my broke voice. Goddamn! It's so obvious that I'm panicking here!
I'm waiting on his answers, I bet he searched for it. Freak!why this is happening?! I'm fine here! I'm fine without him.
Why do people always coming back after they left? If they're coming back, they should not leave us first.
"Hey! Why are you still there?" I said.
I bet Toni thinks that I'm still concerned of him. I was. But now? I won't
"Oh my god! I'm so late! Your fucking ex is back!" He laughed loudly.
What's funny?
"He has reason why he comes back." He added on the line.
My heart stop a bit for what he said. No, self. I know it's not me. Stop assuming!
I'm still speechless. My heart bumped really hard. Expecting and assuming that he'll comeback for me.
"And the reason is not you." He said like he hurt that much.
Well as usual.
I know, why he would comeback to me? He's the most popular painter and actor at the same time. He has girlfriend right now.
"I know lol hehe" my voice broke. Please stop it self, stop assuming.
"Affected that much?" I heard his sighs.
I laughed and laughed.
To hide my pain.
"Of course not! Remember what I said to you? That I should move on!" then suddenly I felt hurt and sad.
Why should I suffer this kind of anxiety. Damn! I'm so happy and contented right now! Best actress of the year! Most grossing film of all time! Shit! And one of the best fashion designer at the same time
When it comes to him, it's so easy.
But in me, it's so hard.
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