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"Why are you stuttering? I'm on my way" he ended the call afterwards.
Suddenly I feel relief because Toni's here. He comforts me. Shit! I'm crying again to him, and it's still the same boy I cried!
"I don't really know that you're still hurt" He whispered.
I don't know what to say.
I'm speechless when we talk about this shit!
"I don't know, I'm already happy without him." I said with full of pain
My cries are so dramatic. Toni giving me a warm hugs and water to drink.
"You're happy? But you still love him." I did not expect when he said that.
And it's true, I'm happy when he's gone. But do I still love him?
I can't answer my self. Because my brain and my heart are always fighting.
"You happy right? Don't you dare beg."
"You're happy but there's still one person you wanted. And I know he's the one who can fulfill you're emptiness"
Damn! I'm really confused.
"Don't ever begged for him. Remember what you told me? That you will be happier and stronger without him. Well, you made it!" Toni smiled sweetly and I smiled back.
I stand up and face him, I stop my tears to fall from my eyes. I made it in the past, and I'll made it right now.
"You're right! I don't want to be much affected by his presence!" I shouted.
Yeah I should be strong!
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We're here at the mall buying some groceries, I'm with Toni. I think of it awhile ago after I cried.
Well now, my feeling is alright now. I just keep saying to myself that I can do it, that I can beat him.
"Hey! Uhuh is it true! Iriz have a sugar daddy, look at them.." He speak playfully.
I looked where Iriz was. And there I saw Iriz with her sugar dad! Shit it's so funny! I'm about to burst into laughter.
She is hiding some bad things huh! Damn i didn't expect that, fuck.
Iriz Jean Elardo. She's my top 1 antagonist in my entire life. She's idiot, bitch, arrogant, and desperate woman. She always do her fucking best just to pull me down. Well, I know that's show business.
And fucking now? I saw her sugar dad. Just wow. I thought that it's just a rumors, but geez it's fucking real haha
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