"So that's how they do it,". Nagisa switched off his laptop. He already knew what he wanted to try with Yuto but he didn't know what would be safe enough for him. He didn't want to overwhelm him. Only last week, it was Yuto's first time having sex. Since then, Nagisa hadn't engaged with him sexually.
Although, he figured that he'd save that for later. For now, cuddling and kissing should suffice him. Takaba had resigned from his position without even saying why but he wrote a letter of apology to Nagisa and Yuto. He was tempted to set the letter ablaze but just sealed it away in one of the compartments of his desk. In his place was a pleasant and friendly female teacher and she got along just fine with everyone. Nagisa had made firm friends with her as her desk was located next to his in the staff room.
"Anyway, Shinji, why are you watching those videos?" The teacher known as Misako Ueda asked him. Nagisa began to sweat nervously. "Well....it's for entertainment,". Misako plucked the notebook on the table and flipped through it. "You've been taking intricate notes for entertainment?". Nagisa was never good at lying.
He sighed and slumped on the wooden desk. "I wanted to explore kinks with my partner but I don't want to overwhelm him," He whispered and Misako slapped his back. "There we go. You can't possibly lie to me. No one's lies have ever gotten past me. So, you're not straight, huh?".
That made Nagisa freeze. Well, it's not like he could lie, right? She was good at sniffing lies out. He just nodded and decided that whatever her reaction was, he'd accept it. Making a sound of acknowledgement, she smirked at him, setting the notebook down. "How young could he be anyway? He sounds quite innocent, don't you think?"She asked Nagisa who glanced at her, slipping his notebook away in the folds of his bag. Producing a sigh deep from the gallows of his chest, he responded to her nervously."He's....19,".
Instantly, Misako boxed his ear. "Who do you think you are to go out with someone 16 years younger than you?! Don't you know how to control yourself, you old fart?!". Nagisa yowled in pain and brushed her hand off politely. "We've been dating for four months, but we've lived together for three years. So it's not what you think it is,"He smiled and Misako pushed her black bob back.
"Why'd you go out with a kid that young? Do you have a photo of him?". Nagisa nodded and showed her his phone case, which contained the polaroid photo he took with Yuto during the second day of the festival. It was a pretty cramped booth but Yuto perched himself on Nagisa's lap, arms around his neck and pecked his cheek.
The female teacher stared at the photo. "Couldn't you have waited until he went through his coming of age ceremony? If you're not careful, this photo could get you wrongfully arrested..."She joked and Nagisa was dumbfounded. "He's 19! I'd never date a child! For god's sake Ueda!". Misako laughed while giving him his phone back. "I'm only joking, your partner just looks really young for his age,".
Misako tucked a stray hair behind her ear and pat Nagisa on the shoulder. "I'm sure that if you ease him into it, it'll be fine,". Nagisa was still hesitant about it. "I don't want him to hate me for this,". The black bobbed teacher picked up her handbag, getting ready to leave. It kind of worried Nagisa that he put her off. After all, Japan was still a relatively conservative place.
"Wait!"Nagisa exclaimed and she stopped in her tracks. "Are you really comfortable with this? Knowing that your colleague is gay for another man?". Misako laughed and pushed her out "It's not my business to judge someone else's love life, now is it?". She slipped her phone back into her skirt pocket and smiled at him. "Well, it's your life. Do what you want as long as it doesn't harm the people around you. Love is love after all,".
That lifted a weight off Nagisa's shoulders.
'Oh, bless me! She's open minded'.
Holding the strap of her handbag, she headed for the door. "I'm not an expert on this, but if he trusts you enough to date you, you'll be fine,". She waved goodbye to Nagisa and left him alone in the staff room.
Yuto was sitting in the hanging chair on the porch, waiting for Nagisa to return home. He'd never sat in a chair like that before so he found it quite nice. He watched Nagisa park his car in the driveway and sighed in relief. The man walked up to the front door and opened it but then he turned to the chair and kissed Yuto's lips gently. "You thought I wouldn't have noticed you, Yuto? Hehe~ It's hard to keep my eyes off my very own cutie,".
Lifting him off the chair, Nagisa smiled at Yuto as he held him in his arms. . "I haven't sat on that thing in years. I don't think I should though, it might break,". He brought Yuto into the house. "Tadaima, Yuto. I wanted to ask if you had any plans tomorrow,". He pecked him on the forehead like he usually did before putting him down. "Okaeri, Nagi. I usually never have any plans unless they're with you,".
Absolutely enamoured, Nagisa . "How do you feel? It's been a week since we've had sex with each other for the first time,". Yuto looked away, his heart racing. "I don't really know how I should feel. That was my first time doing it,". Nagisa wrapped his arms around his waist and rested his head on his shoulder. "Could you follow me to school tomorrow? I have something I want to do,"He purred into the boy's ears, making him cover his face. "W-Whatever you want..Nagi,".
The man let go of his partner and sat down to eat dinner with him. After dinner, Nagisa pulled out Yuto's old uniform. It was a deep blue blazer, a beige vest, brown plaid pants and a patterned red tie. Paired up with a button-up long sleeved white shirt. It looked quite clean. Even so, Nagisa took it to the laundry room and ironed it carefully.
'Kirihara's uniform actually looks really good on Yuto. I can already imagine this on him again'.
Hanging the uniform on the clothing rack, Nagisa left the laundry room as quietly as possible. Yuto was in his (Nagisa's) room, scrolling through his phone idly. The man opened the door to his room and instantly pulled Yuto into an embrace.
"I want to cuddle now,". Yuto was surprised to hear him say that but graciously put his arms around his neck and laid down on the bed with him. Nagisa nuzzled into Yuto's small frame and sighed, content.
'This boy, he's all mine. I don't want to be too possessive over him, but I can't imagine him with anyone else. I'm the only one who's made for him. We fit perfectly like puzzle pieces. Everything, his heart, soul, gaze, body. Every inch of him belongs to me. I'm not going to give him up for anyone'.
Enjoying the warmth that engulfed his body, Yuto caressed Nagisa's hair gently. He had so much love for the man who had his face buried in his chest, nice and snug. Nagisa was his first love, someone who taught him how to love himself and how to smile again. Everything about Nagisa was everything that made him happy. He knew he didn't say much and he hadn't a clue what would make Nagisa happy. But it wouldn't kill to say it once in a while, even if he didn't know how much power that sentence held.
"Nagi..I love you,".
Pink stained Nagisa's ears. 'Fuck this cute kid. I wish I could screw him right here, right now. But I have to hold back until tomorrow'. Nagisa lifted Yuto's hoodie and softly kissed him on his stomach. "I love you too, my Yuto. No one else can have you if I can't,". Yuto mewled and looked away but Nagisa shifted the hoodie back to its original position and dozed off, his head on Yuto's lean stomach, arms around his body. He was excited to get into his role. But he couldn't wait for Yuto to get into his.
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"I look stupid in this!"Yuto growled as he emerged from the back of the classroom. He couldn't believe that Nagisa made him put on this mortifying uniform again. Sure, it looked neat and trim but he detested it. During summer, it was a nightmare and during winter, it was bothersome.
But if it made Nagisa happy, he just complied. His partner wore his "doting on" face as he admired Yuto, who had even tied his hair up higher to emulate his high school self, which was a year ago. "Awwww you look adorable~~!" Nagisa squealed and hugged him from the back tightly. 'So this is what it would be like if I were with Yuto last year. Haha, he's still small and cute'.
Frowning at Nagisa, Yuto crossed his arms. "So, why am I wearing this again?" He grumbled and sat down in one of the chairs. Nagisa snapped back to reality and grinned. "I told you, we're having fun today. I needed you to be in full character,". Yuto was utterly confused but Nagisa leaned and whispered something into his ear. "But first, we need a safeword,". The boy scratched his head, blushing from the low whisper. "Safeword?". Nagisa nodded and rubbed his head gently. "In case I go too far with you, you can stop me,". Yuto thought about it for a bit before he replied. "Taiyaki,".
'That's....a really unique safeword...'
Kissing him on the cheek, Nagisa winked . "Alright. I'll get into character now,". It was like a switch had flipped. The way he walked changed. The way he carried himself changed. The way he looked at Yuto changed. Nothing was the same.
"Kirishima-kun, did you hand in your English translation homework today?". He asked in a domineering kind of voice. Yuto was silent for a bit. 'He's speaking in English? Well, it would make sense, he's an English teacher'. Yuto nodded but Nagisa lifted his chin with one of his hands, smirking. "Don't just nod at me you little punk. Say, 'Yes Sensei' ".
Bending his head, Yuto hesitated to respond. "Y-yes, Sensei. I did hand it in,". Nagisa heard the uncertainty in his voice and felt like bursting out in laughter.
'What am I doing to this poor kid?! Hahaha!!'.
How unexpected. He tried to contain his surprise at how fluent Yuto sounded when he spoke. Still, he put on a straight face and yanked Yuto's tie roughly, pulling him towards his face.
"Don't go home so early. Have a little fun with Sensei,". Yuto could feel his heart racing. He had never ever done this with anyone before. He just nodded hesitantly and gulped when he felt Nagisa loosen his tie and pull it off. "Take your vest off,". Yuto took off his blazer before he discarded the vest beneath it and slipped the blue overgarment back on. "Good boy. Now, be an even better boy for Sensei and put your wrists together in front of you,". The boy did as told and in a split second, his wrists were tied together. Yuto was a little nervous.
'What kind of person calls this fun? This is actually a little scary, if you'd ask me'.
Straddling Yuto, he stroked the boy's thighs gently before his touch became rougher and he smacked him lightly, making him moan softly. "N-Nagi...Don't hit me like that..."Yuto whined and Nagisa pretended to get annoyed. "Who are you to call me by my first name, you disobedient little shit? Shall Sensei show you your place?".
His hand was still stroking Yuto's thigh, making the boy shudder. Nagisa's hand felt up in between Yuto's legs, smirking as he felt the boy squirm under his touch. Yuto hid his face in Nagisa's shoulder, mewling quietly. Nagisa felt bad for wanting to go even further with someone as innocent as Yuto.
'I want to make him cry from the pleasure. But he's so cute and so new to this, I just can't help but want to hug and protect him'.
"That's my good Yuto-kun. Keep it down now. If your classmates who stay late found out that you keep Sensei entertained every evening, it won't be very pleasant for your dignity, won't it?" Nagisa teased as he leaned in and sucked on the boy's neck so that he could leave a kiss mark. Yuto didn't know where this story was going but he decided to shut up and play along. He wriggled his hands a little and fought the urge to clench something really hard when Nagisa started to get rougher with him. He picked Yuto up and laid him down on the desk, which made the boy turn even redder.
'Even though he wants to play rough with me, he slipped his hand under my head when laying me down so I don't hit it against his desk. It's such a simple, almost unnoticeable action, but it makes me feel loved'.
Loosening the belt around Yuto's slender hips, Nagisa pulled it off carefully. He held it for a second but then let it fall to the ground with a clink. "If it hurts here, all you have to do is beg for Sensei's touch. If you do a cute enough job, I'll reward you,". Yuto shivered, feeling Nagisa's hand slip down his pants. He shut his eyes nervously and put his hands on Nagisa's chest to beg. "S-Sensei..please..". The man made a 'tsk tsk' noise and took hold of Yuto's chin. "Look at me in the eyes when you're begging,". The blonde haired boy bit his lip but managed to force out his words. "S-sensei..please..touch me,".
'I would have never done this in my life to make anyone else happy, yet why do I make such a great exception for Nagi? Is it because I truly do love and trust him?'.
"There's my good boy Yuto~"Nagisa cooed in his ordinary voice and and hugged Yuto tightly. "You're doing well so far. Have you ever roleplayed before?". The boy shook his head and Nagisa giggled. "Surprisingly less awkward than I thought. Good job,"The older man grinned and caressed his cheek gently. "Did I scare you a bit?". Yuto leaned into the hug, resting his head on Nagisa's shoulder even though he was lost. "A little...".
Head-butting Nagisa as hard as he could, he let out an exasperated sigh. "How could you make me put on this uniform and call you Sensei, you perverted old dog?!?!". Nagisa groaned in pain but he expected that at some point. He chuckled as he unbuttoned Yuto's shirt. "I can't help but get excited when I see you in that uniform. You look too cute my darling Yuto~~~"He purred in his "doting" voice and for a second, Yuto wished he went back to being "Sensei".
Tracing the collar of Yuto's shirt flirtatiously, Nagisa licked his lips. "Yuto, you probably already know that you're the one who turned me into such an insatiable and possessive man,". Nagisa opened up Yuto's shirt a little bit to reveal an abundant amount of hickeys all over his neck and chest. "I don't want any other man to come and snatch you away from me,". Yuto's cheeks turned crimson and Nagisa leaned in to kiss him. Yuto slinked his arms around Nagisa's neck slowly, still bound with the tie.
'Just a few months ago, I hated being touched by anyone. I hated anyone who came near me. I didn't want anyone to see the vulnerable sides of me. But now, here I am, my arms around this man as he makes me experience new sensations I've never felt before. I don't know why I find him so attractive or why he finds me loveable'.
Pulling away from the kiss, the older man kept his hands on Yuto's hips. "Do you prefer me as Nagi or Sensei?". Yuto wanted to bite him for such a stupid question but he merely huffed and buried his red face in his chest. "Obviously, I prefer you as Nagi. But if you want to continue being Sensei for today, I don't mind. I still haven't used my safeword,".
If Yuto ever whispered "taiyaki" to him if he got too rowdy, he probably wouldn't be able to stifle a laugh. Nagisa laughed until his sides hurt when he heard him say that; it was comical to him. Yuto looked up and leaned into Nagisa's neck, biting it hard. The man yowled in pain and was met with Yuto's evil eye. " You deserve that, you pervert," He grumbled and swished his bangs out of his face. "You also gave me plenty, so that's payback,".
The older man eased the younger male's pants off his hips and caressed his chest gently. "I think I'll continue being Nagi until the next round. Switching personalities out of the blue must have scared you," He smiled and heard a sigh of relief. He stopped short and carried Yuto in his arms. "Are you scared of these kinds of things? If you are, we can drop it here and continue like we usually do at home,".
Struggling, Yuto averted his eyes to the floor to hide his flushed face. "I really wanted to please you and to give this a try. I really did. But seeing the scary sides of you, the forceful sides of you, it makes me feel scared. I just don't feel comfortable like this. I'm sorry,". He looked disappointed with himself. Nagisa held his head in his hands before he squeezed Yuto tightly.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier? You don't have to force yourself to do something you don't want to do because you want me to be happy," Nagisa groaned exasperatingly and set Yuto on his desk again, swiftly fixing his clothes. "We're going home. We'll continue at home the way you want it,".
While Nagisa was helping him get changed, Yuto's posture drooped. He felt selfish. After all, Hirai-sensei told him that relationships were not supposed to be one sided but here he was, thinking about himself. "Nagi, I'm sorry I couldn't make you feel good. I'll try to do better,". Nagisa stopped adjusting his blazer for a second and sighed.
'This kid, he's too good for me. Always considerate of me. Too considerate to the point that he forgets about himself.'
Blue eyes darted around the room. "No, I'm the one who has to be sorry. I should have known better than to make you roleplay without knowing what you were getting into. I should have consulted you first,". Yuto shook his head, finding it hard to look Nagisa in the eye. "Nagi, you did nothing wrong. I should have tried harder to please you,".
Huge and warm hands rubbed Yuto's head affectionately. Instinctively, Yuto nuzzled into the gentle touch of his partner. "You don't have to apologise over small things like that. I feel good whenever I'm with you anyway. I don't want you overthinking about it,". He retied Yuto's tie around his neck and grabbed his hand. "Come, we're going home,". While they were walking to the carpark, a grey car pulled up. A black bobbed teacher got out of the car, glancing at Nagisa, who had enveloped Yuto's small hand in his. But she looked at the uniform and sighed.
'That old fart said he'd never go out with young students but he's going out with a student from Kirihara? I'll have to corner him about this on Monday'.
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"Hn..Nagi! Wah-! Be patient!"Yuto gasped as Nagisa started fumbling at the buckle of his belt the second they arrived home. "You made me wait, I should at least get a treat for it,". Yuto's knees shook and he gripped Nagisa's hair. "N-Nagi..not at the doorway....please..." He pleaded softly and leaned against the door. The man merely looked up, smirked and continued, his hands groping his partner's butt as he sucked him off against the locked oak wood door. "I-I don't want your siblings to hear me if they come over...". Nagisa pulled away for a split second. "Yukina and Kanako are on a field trip. Naoki's doing overtime at work. Hitomi's at training camp. No one will come along,".
Lean legs shook uncontrollably from either the embarrassment or the pleasure. "Your reactions are still surprisingly innocent even though I already did this with you a couple times. Are you still not used to it?". The blond haired boy hid his cute, shy face and Nagisa wanted to embarrass him even further. He lifted Yuto's thigh, stroking it seductively. "You don't even know how sexy you are right now,".
Biting his sleeve, Yuto looked away. "Do what you want but...please..anywhere but the doorway...". Nagisa picked him up and brought him to the sofa. "You should take the rest of your uniform off. Doesn't it feel hot?". Yuto shook his head and rested his head against the cushions. "You like seeing me wear this right, Nagi? I'll keep it on for you,".
"Eh, no, please take it off. I feel like I'm doing something immoral with you when you wear that," Nagisa chuckled nervously and slipped off Yuto's tie. "Nagi, are you really happy going out with a kid like me? A kid who barely knows how to make you satisfied and happy?" Yuto asked as he lay tamely beneath Nagisa. He cupped the man's face gently in both hands. "If I can't do any of those things, I'd rather you find a woman to spoil,".
Nagisa clasped both of his hands and sighed, pulling him into a hug. "How long are you going to spend overthinking about that nonsense? I've already said that you are mine, and that I have absolutely no intentions on letting you go,". He kissed Yuto on the cheek and continued unbuttoning Yuto's shirt. "Plus, only my Yuto deserves to be spoiled by me".
Most of their clothes were piled on the wooden floor now. "Yuto, my precious baby, have a little more confidence in yourself. You're always going to be my one and only, yet you always seem to have doubts. Whatever it takes, I'll help you remember who you are to me every night if I have to, my lover". He pinned the boy to the sofa and proceeded to make a great mess of him for the evening.
'I want to make him cling onto me, to make such a mess of him that no one can break him except me, that no one can touch his slim frame if they aren't me. I want him to call my name, to depend on me. I want to leave traces of me all over this boy. He's my precious cutie, all mine'.
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"You lied to me!" Misako hissed and cornered Nagisa in the staffroom on Monday morning. Luckily for him, the other teachers didn't hear her. "You're going out with a student from Kirihara right? You pervert!". Nagisa sweated nervously before he realised what Misako saw and laughed at her impulsiveness. "He was from Kirihara. I already told you, he graduated last year and he's in Yunomitsu now,".
Misako was stunned, especially since what she saw had a different look to it. "So why was he wearing their uniform on Saturday??". That seemed to make Nagisa sweat even more nervously and Misako put the puzzle pieces together.
"So that's your kink huh, you absolute hentai?! Forcing that upon a kid?!".
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! He didn't like it anyway so I stopped to bring him home..."
Vibrations from Nagisa's phone broke the tension in the room. Yuto was calling him. The man answered his phone, expecting to be scolded. He braced himself and greeted him. "Yuto? What's wrong?".
"N-Nagi..please come to the hospital..please..I don't know what to do,".
_φ(･ω･ Author's Note
I just to say that consent should be given throughout the act. Always tell your partner when it's too much for you because your boundaries deserve to be respected and established. Voting is appreciated! Thank you for reading this chapter of A Heart To Heal! ♡