NATE'S POV
I still hadn't figured what I was, but the rest of the week was pretty rough for me...Also, I had attempted to take off my ring and suddenly my skin was burning under the sun.
You know I may have wanted to blame this on Alvah, but she never wears any jewellery whatsoever...so maybe its true, she just does a lot of research. Of course it shocked me that she knew so much about how to handle me. But its what she said, research. I am not so sure. Am glad she was always at the saviour end of every dangerous thing I did. Well, I wouldn't say me-me...more like a voice that had so much control over my entire system.
He first took over when I was with Matt and Brad. The minute I landed my eyes on them I felt some kind of power, some evil slither under my skin, covering every inch, bubbling up utter rage as it did. I could feel my muscles twitch with fury and slowly...my human consciousness started to fade away, like I had no power over my body...next thing I knew I was covered in blood, and am pretty sure I woke up with some it in my mouth.
I wouldn't believe I had done it if Alvah hadn't promised me it was me. She had no further proof than my bloody shirt and the blood that was all pasty inside my finger nails which I hate to assume had morphed to claws at the moment of attack. But they had. I had attacked like a wild animal. I remember being incredibly hungry before they appeared, which is funny I had just eaten. It was like a whole other level of starving.
And afterwards...I was okay. That was the first time ever I ever fought back and that was what I did. Guilt kicked me right in the gut. I could feel the tears coming up to my eyes. I was scared. Scared of who I was. Also curios. I remembered the one time I slapped a mosquito between my palms and I was so guilty I slept without a net or mosquito coil for a week to compensate it's family members.
The reason why these moments were flicking back into my head was because I couldn't sleep. I looked at my watch at the side of my bed and it was two minutes past midnight. Since I went all strange. I always got up at this time. Like I was programmed or something. I would stir in the cosiness of my sheets till morning. Trying to block out the bits of images that I saw behind my eyes, short ones, like gifs. I wasn't sure of what to call them, they were not thoughts as they were not mine. Not consciously mine. Its like I was remembering something. Like someone else's memories were just pouring into my head and burning themselves permanently. So they would mess me up the rest of the day.
Also I knew they were not visions as they were from long ago. In these 'thoughts' , I saw some three dudes, all very dashing and with badassness just radiating out of them...discussing something. It seemed secretive and they seemed scared like their lives would be put to an end of their plan didn't work. Just thinking about these things made me furious. Its like they were a part of me, like I had a right to be angry, because each time I saw the memory of this mysterious person I felt his emotions too...and they were the most intense things I have ever felt. When he was mad I thought I would combust, when he was sad it felt like my heart was sinking to my ankles and when he was happy, I thought I was on drugs.
The last memory I had before I lost it had someone I know. Alvah. She was in an old school gown with you know the corset planted on the top part. She had her hair in a French plait or something people in the past used to wear, her edges formed laces that framed her face into a perfect oval. I thought she had more life in her then. In my head, her face had a wide range of facial expressions. She didn't just switch between the blank face and the resting bitch face.
These days she looked like her existence had a permanent sepia filter and her dull coloured clothes didn't help, I was there too but not as me, I couldn't see myself, she had something clasped behind her hand and we talked like we were an imagination of William Shakespeare. Yes, that kind of English and when she pulled whatever it was she was hiding, she launched it into my heart and plunged it so that it made a hole through my heart.
I let out a shrill scream as she twisted her wrist and drove it further, she was crying which was funny, she wasn't the one that had to go through such excruciating pain.
'Nathan...am back. we are going to get her, and the rest of them and we are going to destroy them.' whoever it was in my head told me.
"Get who? why? Why are you in my body?"
'its our body now...call me Emi...wasn't it great when you put those kids in their place..Don't you looove the power ? You have been through enough. we both have...we are going to make a beautiful team...'
"No...get out of my head. Please just go." I yelled at it, shaking my head. I was glad I didn't live with anyone. I knew I looked because I felt like a mad person. All this is crazy!! What does Alvah even have to do with anything??
'Is this what I get for helping you out?'
"I knew that was not me!"
' Clearly Alvah hasn't told you...oh, this is going to be sweet. First we'll put some blood in you then we'll look better. I love that we lost the glasses and horrendous rat's nest hair...'
"Blood...why?" My voice cracked. I had thought about it I just didn't want to believe it. To believe that my solutions to the intense hunger that was making me feel like my entire gut was cracking dry was blood. "NO...no no no no ...I don't take blood. I don't have to." I felt the believability slip out of my words. As if I was arguing that boys wear petticoats on any normal day.
'Nate, you poor thing, you are so innocent and stupid it hurts. I hope we wont have more arguments in future, they are painful. so we'll make you sleep a little bit while I show you how its done.'
I remained conscious, I just lost the power to control my body. So I just walked into the mirror and waited to be shocked. Nothing could have prepared me for this. It started with my eyes they lit up, right at halo of my iris, like some evil kind of energy was glowing behind them, glowing red. A mesh of veins sprouted near my eyes, spreading through my body. I scream erupted from me when I saw my teeth jag at the tips violently, and double fangs sprouted from both ends of where my top canines used to be and my nails grew out as I watched hardening and curving at the edges sharply, claws. A burning sensation that had been circling around my chest ended when I, or lets just say Emi ripped my sleeping shirt into cotton bits and dug his claws into my chest, or is it ours now? Thunking his claws through my flesh and bones.
As much as it should have hurt and it did, it felt more discomforting. All made sense when he pulled out a stake, a wooden stake that was coated in my blood and had some streaks with streaks of silver. I wasn't sure I had seen a tree like that. But there were many things I was yet to see.
When the demanding hunger knocked the pit of my stomach, i didn't have it in me to resist it. I let it out, feeling like a visitor in my own skin. I had taken it out on anyone that didn't run fast enough. Basically everyone that had been out that night. Because I had an unrealistic speed and night vision. Both of Which somehow I didn't have to learn as it usually happens on TV because, Emi had it figured. The very last prey I devoured I remember was a cop, I knew this because of the uniform, and the fact that he had been chasing me with a screaming sirene vehicle with blue and red lights. I remember being yanked with a pair of frail arms that had to belong to a supernatural being to pull that off.
I hate to admit it, but it was fun messing with him. Fun till I had sucked in most of his blood could feel bits of his meat start to stick into my teeth and my human side took the light, snapped back on . Alvah gripped my shoulders steadily spinning me around to face her. She was pleading with me, to rise above the beast that had given me the most amazing shots of dopamine. I could still feel my heart racing, pounding along the last bits of it. The night vision eyes, the claws, the fangs and rage all went along with him, slowly fading back in the background where he always stayed when shit was getting real or when the consequences of the actions done by his period of consciousness were playing out.
I spat the taste of blood that still coated my tongue...tasted awful. Well it didn't a while ago. I could feel the blood dripping from my lip so I wiped it off with my hand. The coldness of the night kissed my top naked half while a breeze swept by, sweeping Alvah's hair along with it. For the first time, she looked scared. I couldn't see her clearly till she stepped out of the shadows that patched her with moonlight which came pouring proudly from the sky.
Dry leaves cracked below her feet as she progressed, slowly, cautiously towards me, like the way I had seen game wardens approach a savage animal that had escaped in their attempt to recapture it on TV. I could tell she knew I knew. And I knew she had known this whole time otherwise why would she be here.
"Nathan...before I explain anything do me a favour..."she uttered. The nerve. The fucking nerve.
" Right. You mean the same way you did when you turned me into a freaking vampire or when you daggered me with whatever!" I noticed I was yelling because she held her hands in front of her in a calming gesture.
"Am serious. Trust me, there's a perfectly logic explanation of what is going on. I promise but we need to save that cop you just tried to kill...it's Mr William's..." Her face suggested it was a big deal and I should have quickly responded to that but I was too mad, too confused, to care.
" Just how many people were you stalking...my jaw slammed shut with realization. How could I even talk right now? Mr.William was...I looked down at his body which I had thrown on the ground in an awkward bloody heap. I did recognize him, he was one of Ruby's dads.
I don't know why it had to be now, but remember when I pictured an embrace with Alvah...this was it, this was the moment. I don't remember who dashed to the other but we grabbed each other into a hug so tight and so necessary I don't think anything else would have worked at the moment. I was mad at her...I hated her, sort of. But I needed her.
" Nate, I know
we need to talk but before we get to that...we really need to take care of this..."She whispered. She had to ruin it. I should have known this confusion and conflict was something I would always have to deal with it if I were to keep Alvah in my life. I would be at the both extremes with her at the same and almost always.
Oh no! What had become of my life? When I wished for something to do with my life, I pictured Lisa actually just saying hi to me when walking past each other in the hallway and me and my buds spending time together during the weekend. Not once did this cross my mind.
To the reader,
Hi guys...It was incredibly hard and fun to get through this chapter, when I thought about the book I thought I would write it sooner. But hey, how do you like the chap. Please let me know. I love you so much. Your reads are very encouraging.