" Whit!! This has to stop happening!!"
" What has to stop happening?"
" You just showing up like this!! Wait , why are you wearing a servant's clothes?"
" I got your father to hire me,"
" What?!?! Why'd you do that?!?!"
"I thought about what you said yesterday, about you probably not being able to see me very often? I decided to work here part time to see you more often!! I got the eye - potion to work for longer periods, so that won't be a problem!!"
He's more dedicated than I thought …I never thought anyone would ever actually care about me as much as Whit does.
"I'm dedicated!!"
" Yeah, I know."
" Yay!!"
He's adorable …oh my god, what am I even saying?
I started blushing at his sweet smile.
I followed Whit while he worked.
" Daku, you're really mysterious. "
" Why do you say that?"
" Because you don't tell me about yourself, but that's ok!! I think mysterious is adorable !!"
I choked on air.
I started blushing really intensely.
" Daku, are you ok?"
" I'm …I'm …fine …hm…"
I was wheezing at this point.
" Are you sure? You're wheezing…"
" I'm …ok…"
Why did I care so much about this? Why does everything he does make me swoon? He just called me adorable , no big deal…
" Ok, if you insist…"
He looked uncomfortable.
I stopped wheezing after a while. I miss seeing his grey eyes, even though they could get him killed. I want him to have be safe, but they were just so beautiful.
Today, we had to work on wedding planning. I hate my fiance, I don't even like calling her that.
I mainly just sat there with Whit, agitated to the maximum while everyone else works on planning. I hate seeing my fiance. She reminds me of how I'll never find love.
" Daku, you have to talk to me sometime,"Eleanora said, smiling in a way that meant she wanted to win me over.
" Nope," I walked past her, once more.
" Come on!! Just talk to me!!"
" He said no, back off," Whit said harshly, I've never seen him that defensive before.
She brushed him off.
"Look into my eyes, Daku…do you like what you see?"
" I see dark blue, and pupils."
" What else?" She wanted me to say something romantic. I wasn't going to.
" What eyes don't you like , Daku? "
I looked directly into Whit's eyes and smiled lightly.
" I like grey ones,"
Whit started blushing and wheezing, like me earlier.
" Grey? But what about-"
" I think dark blue eyes are bland if that's what you were gonna say. "
" Hmph!" She left, obviously not impressed with me.
" Why'd you say, Grey?" Whit said , nervous.
" Because I like your eyes, they remind me of the snow in the wintertime,"
He smiled softly as he looked at his feet. He was blushing.
He looked up at me.
" I like maroon eyes,they look mysterious, like the deepest pit of your heart,where all the secrets of love is hidden,"
I felt like kissing him…but I couldn't do that. Wait, why would I kiss him? Why would I think about doing that? This feeling I have around him is unexplainable to me. What could it possibly be?
I leaned in to kiss him out of impulse for a second, until he spoke.
" Daku, are you ok? You're acting a bit different…"
I realized what I had just done. I was embarrassed. " Y- yeah , I'm fine,"
"I'm here if you wanted to talk about it,"
He reached and grabbed my hand.
I blushed a little more intensely.
I smiled. " O-ok,"
Whit left to the light side soon after. We were still technically wedding planning, but all I could think about was Whit. Why did I almost kiss him? Why did I want to? I wonder what Whit thinks about this…
" Daku!! We are working!! " my father was mad at me, once more.
" Y-yeah, sorry."
" Yeah, Daku, Are you alright?" My annoying fiance spoke again. She made me want to think she was concerned, but she wasn't.
"You've been acting weird ever since we hired that new servant,"
" Father, this has got nothing to do with him,"
" Are you sure? I saw the way he looked at you,"
What does he mean by that? He wasn't looking at me in any way!
" What does that , mean,"
"He looks at you the way that you should look at Eleanora," I choked on air again. Does he , love me? God, What am I even saying anymore!! I have to be married to my stupid fiancé, I can't fall for anyone else!! I want him…but I can't have him!! I don't even know how I feel at this point!!
What's even going on anymore?!?!
I'm so confused!!! How do I feel about Whit ?! It's a simple question!!
" Daku, focus."
" Fine, Father. "
I can't focus…what if I really do love Whit? I don't, love is an illusion of the mind. But what if I do?!?! I really don't know what to think at this point…
" DAKU!! FOCUS!!"
" Yes, yes, sorry, "
My father is really frustrated with me at this point. I'm trying to focus , but I can't. How could I ? I miss Whit. I wish I could see him…
That whole night, I was stuck in my thoughts. I know I should stop thinking about Whit, but I can't. I know I can never have him. I really wish I could…