CALEB'S P.O.V
After I left the room it took me all the strength in my body for me to leave, I felt so many infatuations I have never felt in my life, cause I won't call them feelings, cause that is far from me ,the only feeling I have felt since a long while is anger,hatred, pain,sadness, towards people who are not that close to me. but now am so surprise I am having this strange infatuations, it feels weird but good I guess,the only thing making me despise this infatuations is because the person who made me notice and have this infatuations is someone I don't ever want to relate myself talk less of being near the person,and I know that I won't be able to be with this person no matter what nature does,hell, the single person responsible for all my pains during the breeding season and aching.
remembrance of my terrible past.
Seeing her today made me smile and laugh, something I can't even remember when last I did that. but the thought of my parents just destroys all the infatuations as the arrive.
When work for the day was over,I went home to relax and wait for the next day. And the next day I will be going to my pack ,to check up on them and do the usual alpha work. As I finished all I have to do ,I went to my study room,and started going through some stuffs and I started thinking of how I am going to go through the 2nd breeding season of the year,cause ,last one was not funny at all,it was constant heat and pain due to my distance to my mate and the fact that during this period to reduce the heat I was with other women,and this heat lasted for three days but the second one is usually bigger than the first,if I am to guess it would be close to a week or more than that,and the funny thing is I don't know how to leave work at the city and that means that I may come across her one or two times during my stay in the office in my heat period,and that just gives me the goosebumps cause if I am not able to hold back ,I will not only expose who I am to the public but I may also mark and mate her in the public ,that is a mistake that I don't want to make ,and not just that,the pack works always increase during this period cause that is when some find there mate and mate which will require the construction of new houses cause before the blood moon the would have a litter of pups.
The next day I went to my pack to check on them, I didn't see my beta or my gamma and I just went along to my office to commence work. During the breeding season we don't have trainings cause it can turn bad ,a male wolf who is under the force of the heat can see anyone and mark and that will cause the both to regret.
As I was thinking someone entered into my office,I looked up and saw my gamma Lucas,with his regular grin placed on his face,good day alpha,good day, please let us go straight to the point how has the pack been, apart from days when I called three times,alpha it has been fine don't bother yourself you have a capable beta and gamma,okay, you can take go back now ,yes alpha.
once he left I continued my thought about the pretty girl that is meant to be my mate,wait how can I think such things ,I despise the term of mates,its useless and only makes one weaker, but her hair is long and thick black is that possible, oh my,I face palm myself, and in order not to think of her again ,I went straight to pack work,signing and rejecting some things like some young wolfs who wrote to me asking for the permission to go to another pack. that was when I looked up and noticed somebody was monitoring me.