CALEBS P.O.V
After my chat with my gamma Lucas I started thinking more on what am going to do,for sure the moon goddess will be more wicked to me now that I have seen my mate,she will make me regret it but what she doesn't know is the more she does this the more I hate my mate.
today I was meant to go to work,at the city,but,I didn't have the strength to see her,and hold myself,chase I know that she is truly beautiful, and apart from that she is also my mate,so ,I decided to call Alex and tell him,I picked up my phone and dialed him,hello hello please who is this,I was not surprised on what he said because me I can't even remember the last time I called him,hello Alex its me caleb,oh boss any problem,I smirked because he knows me well,he knows I wouldn't have called him if there was no problem,hello boss are you still there,yes Alex,I may not come to work today so I wanted to let you know that you will be in charge today I hope you can handle that Alex,yes boss there is no problem, I can handle it,thank you sir,no problem,try your best and with that I cut the call.
After my call with Alex I took my bath,then,I ate my breakfast,sometime after that I decided to have a good rest. when I laid on the bed,I dozed off immediately, then I saw myself when I was still small,I could still remember the scene that was before me,I started to shed tears,****Smaller Caleb****
mummy please don't leave daddy,please for me,I can't live without you and my daddy,please,as I was saying this I saw some feelings show in her eyes but she didn't let it to last and she covered it immediately she noticed that it showed,you don't understand son you will not understand until you meet your mate, but mummy can't you just stay with me ,as I said this tears were flowing down my cheeks, no son I can't,don't worry daddy will take care of you,but mummy I also need you,i need you and daddy, shit up you little boy,what do you know, your just like him, you greedy boy,and with that she banged the door on my face and ran away,it was so painful to watch her from the window as she ran,and as she left me and daddy.
I woke up afraid,and sad as one my my many nightmares happened again,I touched my cheeks and noticed that it was wet,I stood up and checked the time,it was just 11am,I rinsed my face on the sink a d checked in on the mirror,I noticed that my eyes looked dull and had dark bags under them. This nightmares are one of the reasons why I never wanted a mate,it reminded me why I should not accept my mate,cause I never wanted what happened between my father and mother to happen to me,cause,I am not sure I can take the pain.
I tried my best to forget the pain but all my efforts didn't even work .so,i decided to drink my pains away ,though as a wolf it would be hard for ours to get drunk, but,I had enough supply of drinks,I didn't get drunk much but it was enough for me to forget the pain.
After some hours I decided to check my business emails,I saw that I had a lot of emails so I went straight to work.