Is he hiding his feelings? Or is he scared because he doesn't want to face my bad temper? Am I really that bad in his eyes?
I admitted that I had been indifferent all this time because I thought that Chunghee would always obey my words. It was like taking advantage of his kindness, so if there were ten people who judge, then everyone would blame me no matter what.
My feelings really tormented me and this longing seemed to cut my chest. I wanted him to be here — with me like he used to be.
It was so painful. When we were abandoned by our loved ones, it was truly painless. Now I was the only one who was hurt.
After pondering for a while, I thought that I didn't feel relax about being in this place, so I decided to get back on my feet, then went out and grabbed the coat that was lying on the sofa. I immediately put it on and stepped out, leaving the apartment to go to the place that could calm myself from all my chaotic feelings.
