As soon as Donghwa left, I could see the future disappearing with him from my sight. And as I tried to look for another one, I couldn't find a new future that promised happiness other than a long and endless gloom.
I thought, in our previous relationship, it was Donghwa who was the dumbest. However, I just realized that I was the only dumbest person here — a person who was stubborn and didn't want to admit his own feelings — I was stupid and insane.
If people find out about this, then they would laugh at how stupid I was with my decision as if they were laughing at a joke in a comedy scene.
My fear of starting a new relationship with Donghwa made me feel like a person who had just lost his true self.
There was a strong desire to become one with him like before, but once I thought about how he accused me, scolded me, forced me, tortured me, those all scared me. And, when the chance came once again to both of us, I was like someone who really hated him.
