While thinking about that, a decision appeared in my head. Taking a silent breath, I replied, "I will never regret it. I chose to be with you and I chose to go. I have nothing to regret."
I paused for a moment, took a deep breath while closed my eyes to calm my burning heart. Then, as I said again, it all hurt again, "Donghwa, I have no regrets about being in a relationship with you. Now, please, get out of here ... from my life too."
Donghwa didn't give any response. He only kept looking at me with an expression that I had never seen before.
In the past, I had seen him grieve and even cried in my arms but didn't look as miserable as he was now, wherein his eyes there was only despair as if there was no luminous future he could see other than the boundless void with no direction and goals.
He then slightly lowered his gaze but didn't say anything yet.
Seeing that he was reluctant to leave, I reminded him, "You said you gave up, now leave."
