It was three weeks in to the tour without any days rest, and Ohm was finally going back to Bangkok for a show. For three whole weeks he barely had time to call home, speak to friends, or enjoy any downtime. The day started at 6AM with his band mates having an early breakfast, to then get ready to go to a studio for a morning show, where they would have to get dressed, have hair and make-up done, and then sit for an interview in a foreign studio. Afterwards, they were bussed to a different studio for photos. It wasn't every day that a Thai boy band made it into foreign markets. There, they would have to have hair and make-up done again for whichever designer was going to get their hands on the hot new band. These shoots may take an hour, or three.
After the shoot, there was a quick trip back to the hotel where they would eat lunch, unless of course a restaurant was going to pay for their appearance. Lunch at a restaurant was especially grueling since they would have to change and do hair and makeup again to look casual, but then they would have to post on Instagram, FB, Twitter, and countless other apps to cover their international fan base. P'Kao was especially good at social media since he spoke English fluently. He was the oldest of the group, and like a dad to most of the members who felt a little lost in the hustle and bustle.
After lunch- depending on the city, there was usually one or two more interviews with different hosts or variety shows to get to before a light dinner. Dinner had to be light, even though Ohm was always hungry. They couldn't have too full a belly before performing on the stage at night. Then a three hour show, every day for 3 weeks.
Today was the first time Ohm was back in Bangkok. It felt like home, but it felt distant. The schedule was even more vigorous at home. Ohm now had an official Fan club, and while he was away, the members in Thailand swelled to the tens of thousands. There were some "meet-ups" and other fan service events schedule for the entire week. All booked through his agency, but when he finally thought he could relax and have some down time, his schedule just packed up again.
Ohm really needed a break, but, this is the price to pay for fame and fortune, so he never complained. But something kept nagging in the back of his head. This week was someone's birthday. Someone equally as famous, someone who also had a fan club. An actor who Ohm met back in high school. The one person who he has relied on for four years who also shouldered the stress of working while having to do countless interviews and shenanigans. The one person who made everything right. And also the one person who gave him strength to continue every strenuous activity, P'Chimon.
For six months the boys in the band worked hard to produce an album to help export Thai culture in the same way Korea had been so successful. Training camps, match ups, dance practice, singing lessons and coaches for everything. Social media was scrubbed and monitored by others. Any posts had to go through a screening process. New identities were formed overnight to fit a role. Ohm didn't quite fit a "role" - he was tall, dark, and drop dead handsome. While most of the band mates were selected for their light skin and fair looks, Ohm stood out for having a rounder face and a perpetual tan. Ohm was also incredibly strong in comparison to some of his band mates. He had rippling abs and his arms were twice the size of some of the other members. He wasn't as agile, so his dancing sometimes seemed clunky, but he was better at sports than the others, and could play basketball better because he was so much taller. He only was shorter than P'Kao who was also the most disciplined, and followed all the rules.
But Ohm had something special about him. When he smiled, you just felt warm. When he felt emotional abroad, talking about what he missed from home, from his favorite auntie street car vendor, to the scent of his grandmothers house, and you saw that sparkle in his eyes, you felt sadness based on what he was giving up. When he spoke about how much he relies on the support of his fans, and how much they mean to him, you just wanted to hug him. And when he danced on stage, and ripped open his shirt to see his rippling abs, you felt a quiver that made you shiver. It always seemed like he wanted to say more, and you couldn't just quite figure out what it was. But there was something missing, and you could feel that too. When Ohm spoke, everyone listened. He was captivating in every sense of the word. Any movement, any eye contact, any word spoken, and you would freeze. He was just perfect to everyone who saw him.
This perfect image caused him the most stress. He wasn't lying when he spoke in interviews. He wasn't purposefully hiding anything, most questions were answered truthfully, and most questions didn't delve too deep into his personal relationships. He spoke about home because he missed it. He missed his mother's cooking, he missed his old life - the old norm. He missed Bangkok! Who wouldn't! But there was something missing. The one person who was with him at his darkest times, the rock of his life, and the person who gave him the strength to move forward with his dreams, P'Chimon.
"I'm Home Phi" Ohm texted as he finally had a break in his schedule. "I'm sorry it took me a while to message you, is there any way to meet me this week? I want to see you for your birthday, but I know you are busy, too"
He waited a few minutes but didn't get a response, yet. Ohm's eyes welled up a little. He didn't message P'Chimon for almost a week, he couldn't expect a quick response, but he also didn't have a lot of time before his next event and didn't know when he would have free time again. But, he missed him so much.
He sat back into the couch in the break room of the studio. He was alone for the first time in three weeks. He flashed back to a memory a month ago, when he was alone with P'Chimon in his condo, they just finished dinner and were watching a show on GMM TV- and laughing at how some of the relationships are portrayed.
"God who would ever just high five after a love confession with a song!" P'Chimonstayed with his head on Ohm's lap, their hands intertwined.
"Yea, what's that all about! Sometimes this just annoys me- but I'm happy there are people like us on tv." Ohm responded.
He looked down at P'Chimon who held his hand and looked back with a furrows in his brow. P'Chimon sat upright. "What do you mean like us" he stated as he grabbed Ohm's face in his hands. Ohm caught his breath not knowing what P'Chimon meant. Ohm meant in a gay relationship. But was now confused. Did Chimon not think they were Faen?
"I would never just high five you, ever" Chimon said as he leaned in and put his lips against Ohm's. Crushing his lips and pulling Ohm on top of him on the couch, P'Chimon's smaller frame feeling a little crushed by Ohm's powerful body, but taking the upper hand by biting his lips gently and moving his hands along Ohm's broad shoulders.
Chimon's lips sent shudders down Ohm's body, every time Chimon's tongue slipped inside his mouth, Ohm's body tightened and his cock would pulse. Chimon felt the full weight of Ohm's body against his, and nothing felt better than Ohm's hard cock against his body. And Chimon knew what would make Ohm go crazy. He turned his neck slightly, to let Ohm kiss his neck, and as those kisses made him moan into Ohm's ear in ecstasy, Chimon would slightly turn his head and nibble on Ohm's ear. The next 30 seconds would send Ohm into a fit and he'd start leaking precum, soaking through his jeans and putting him right where Chimon wanted.
Ohm sat in the break room alone remembering his last meeting with Chimon, and realized he was hard and precumming. The flashback made him catch his breath. His eyes rolled to the back of his head and he slipped his hands down his pants remembering the events of that evening.
"Gyahh" ohm moaned as he touched himself. He remembered more of the previous meet up.
Chimon pushed Ohm off him and on his back, and slowly unbuttoned his pants. Just about that moment when Chimon was holding his cock in his hands and about to please him, ohm heard a cough.
His eyes opened wide as he saw P'Kao at the door then realized one hand was in his pants and his phone was opened on the sofa next to where he was sitting with a photo of P'Chimon's instagram page open.
"Umm" P'Kao averted his eyes from Ohm's embarrassment, and slightly turned away, but not before seeing the photo on Ohm's phone "I know it's been a rough three weeks but we need to be downstairs in about 10 minutes so I came to look for you."
P'Kao continued "I know I seem rigid and too disciplined, but if you need to talk about anything I'm always here, ok?"
"Phi, no it's not what you think, there's nothing, I'm ok, I was just daydreaming" Ohm responded.
"Well I'm here to talk" P'Kao stated as he walked out of the room.
Ohm slapped his forehead. "Shia - what do I do now!" P'Kao can't know about my relationship with P'Chimon. "He's too regimented with all of our rules. He knows I can't see him and can't be in a relationship. It will ruin our bands image. I can't be gay! I'm going to ruin everything."
Ohm slowly started to hyperventilate. While five minutes ago he was remembering the last time he felt and tasted P'Chimon- now he was half into a panic attack. His hard on subsided and he had to get his breathing under control. He took a second and another memory came flooding into his mind.
"Just remember when things get tough, that I'll always be here for you" the voice and face of P'Chimon flooding into his brain. He could almost smell his scent and feel him next to him. "I'm going to be there for you when you feel all the pressure is too much, just trust in me"
*buzz* *buzz*
Ohm's phone lit up. He had a text message.
"Know that i love you with all of my heart, and I know you have been crazy busy- so have I, but I will always be here for you, and stop stressing about my birthday, I know I'll see you when it's possible. Don't stress about my birthday - there are 364 other days that are more special when I see you, do what you need to do. I won't leave."
~~Chimon
Ohm read the message four times. "How could Chimon just see through everything and know what to say to calm me down?"
"Ok baby. I love you too" ~Ohm
Ohm took a deep breath. He collected his thoughts and stood up to go down to his next meeting. As he walked down the steps he saw Kao at the bottom of the steps. Kao nodded his head towards him and gestured to the meeting room where the rest of the band was waiting with some of the producers to talk about changes to the next show.
Just a few more days before a break. Then a few days off. Just have to make it a few more days....