"Hey girl, you're cool, you're unexplainable..."
Nakabibinging hiyawan ang maririnig sa loob ng Dream High Academy Hall as the new debuted rookie group Touch5 gave their final line of their song Hey Girl on the New Artists Day Celebration. Loud claps, loud I Love You's and loud congratulations from the fans and from the students of the academy made Shanelle grits her teeth in disgust.
Oo, nandoon siya. She's at the debut stage of her ex-boyfriend Gabrielle Lee, and that's a million thanks to her best assistant friend Jam na kaya nang gibain ang buong gymnasium sa lakas ng tili niya. Jammier Yu is one of Shanelle's best friends. Yes, she has a couple of best friends pero kay Jam siya pinaka close since siya ang lagi niya nakakasama sa school. She has a girl best friend also which is Rizalane Kim, na kababata niya kasama ni Gabrielle.
Yes, Gabrielle Lee is her childhood sweetheart. Bago maging sila, they became bestfriends since magkakaibigan na sila nila Riza mula pagkabata. But then, he dumped her. And made her a laughinhstock to everyone.
Balik tayo kay Jam, si Jam ang pinaka slowpoke sa kanilang magkakaibigan. Palaging bagsak sa klase kasi ang mas inaatupag niya ay ang pag attend sa mga concert ng mga idols niya. Lagi ding tagilid ang English niya kaya minsan pinagkakatuwaan siyang i bully ng iba niyang mga kaibigan. Di niya maintindihan kung bakit kalalake niyang tao ay nahilig siya sa boy groups.
Oo, lalake siya pero girl at heart. Pero walang makakapagsabing bading siya kasi di naman siya cross-dresser. Gwapo nga siya eh, sayang lahi.
"Hey, it is almost five damn minutes since those dimwits disappeared from the stage. Pwede ka na bang tumigil sa pambobomba sa tenga ko ng tili mo at umalis na tayo dito? Para kang di lalake like duh?" nanggagalaiti sa inis na sambit ni Shanelle as she picked her ringing phone. She even felt more enraged when Gabrrielle's picture popped out of the screen. I haven't changed my caller ID yet. Or better to just buy a new phone.
Tawagin man siyang crazy idiot or bitter pero dahil sa nangyari sa kanila ni Gab, or can we say, what Gab did to her, she already hated him. She hates him for being cool. She hates him for being handsome. She hates him for having a lot of girls drooling over him. And most of all, she hates him for playing with her feelings and making her fall head-over-heels over him. Three years din yung nasayang.
Maliwanag pa sa ala-ala niya ang nangyari 2 months ago. Nagpunta siyang ospital that time para dalawin si Gab dahil na injure ang kaliwang paa niya during their photoshoot. Nung binuksan na niya ang pinto Nakita niya itong nakikipaghalikan sa ibang babae.
"How about your girflfriend?" narinig niyang sambit ng babae as she carress his hair.
"Yung nerd na yun? Nah, c'mon do you think I really love her?" he chuckled.
"Anak siya ng Chairman of the Board of course I have to flirt with her in order to achieve my dreams."
"Di ba kababata mo siya? She's your childhood sweetheart."
"Yeah. But we are not children anymore. And we have changed. I changed. At eto na ako ngayon."
Shanelle who is just a few inches away from them looked at them blankly. Her eyes were now full of tears that she couldn't utter a single word.
Gab turned around and saw her standing a few inches from them. He looked shocked seeing her there.
"Oh, I guess I need to give space for the two of you," sambit ng babae na tinapunan siya ng ngisi saka lumabas ng kwarto.
"Look, Shan... I..." he mumbles as he tries to speak calmly towards her.
"Ano? Ginamit mo ako para sa pansarili mong interes? Ganon ba Gab?" she pursed her lips and just let the tears burn her cheeks. Wala na siyang pakialam kung anong itsura niya that time. She doesn't even care what kind of words she should utter and which not too. She's too hurt to ask for his explanations.
"I...I'm soryy Sha ---"
"Get out of my sight. Get out of my life," she pointed at the necklace and bracelet he's wearing. "Bigay ko mga yan. Give me those back."
He's like an obedient dog that does everything she says. He removed the necklace and bracelet at nanginginig ang kamay na binigay niya ito sakanya. "I'm sorry again."
Hinablot niya ang mga ito mula sakanya. "Your sorry is not enough to heal what I feel right now. You're an idiotic monster who doesn't deserve a single love from anybody." She held out a deep breath.
Salamat sa yumao niyang ina na nagturo sakanyang maging malakas in whatever situation she will be having. Because if not, her name might be written in the World's Guiness Book of Records for having the most dramatic scene in the entire universe.
But she didn't let him control her emotions. Gaya ng anim niyang ex bf dati nagawa niyang mag move on sa kanila kaya alam niya na kayang kaya din niyang mag move on sakanya. But whether she accepts it or not, her heart is torn down to pieces. Her seventh love was taken away from her again and now she's left with nothing but those damn necklace and bracelet she's holding.
"Oy, tulaley ka jan?" Jam poked her head hard to get her back into reality. Nandun pa sila sa hall but the people are now slowly leaving the place.
"I don't even know why I came here by the way," she said as she stands and heads towards the door leaving Jam who is busy checking the photos he got from the performance.
"Why your leave me! I show importants thing!" sigaw ni Jam na hinahabol ang kaibigan.
Tumigil naman sa paglalakad si Shan at kinunutan niya ng noo si Jam sa English niya. Kingina anudaw? "Ano? Di pa ba tayo uuwi?" bagot na sambit nalang niya.
"Tignan mo tong mga nakuha kong pictures ng exes mo. Kinuha ko talaga ang bestess shot niya," he said grinning while flipping his phone in front of her.
"Una sa lahat, wala akong pakialam, pangalawa sobrang ginto ng oras ko para aksahayin sa pagtingin ng picture ng isang halimaw," she jolted as she entered her car.
"Halimaw? Sino? Si Gabrielle lee? Baka nakakalimutan mo kung gano mo siya tinilian noon!"
Shanelle just gave him a tiger look na nagpatikom sa bibig ng kaibigan.
"Shout out sa may pake sa past," she answered him.
"Pero, di kaya mas okay na maghanap ka na rin ng iba at mag moving up ka na sakanya?"
She gave him another tiger look. "Baka move on yun. Loka-loka ka talaga. Ofcourse noh? Di lang naman ang Gabrielle Lee na yan ang gwapo ditto sa planeta ah. Well if there's none, there are still other planets to look for one," she sarcastically remarked.
"Oh my gosh, I nosebleeding," sabi ni Jam na kumuha ng tissue sa bag at nilagay talaga iyon sa ilong niya.
Napailing na lang si Shan sa inasta ng kaibigan.
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The alarm clock which is set at 5:30 stops Shanelle from sleeping peacefully. Well, it's been the first time she really had a peaceful sleep without wetting her pillows with tears.
She got up and opens her lampshade. Routine na niyang gumising ng maaga para gawin ang kanyang hobby which is sketching. Thanks to her talent in art that her time are not wasted just reminiscing the past.
She grabs her sketchpad from the table together with her pencil. Napangiti siya ng Makita ang kanyang gawa. She now completed her own version of a "perfect guy". Shiny eyes, kissable lips, a guy who can be prettier than her.
"Prince Chihoon. Yes, I will call you that since you're the prince that made me forget him. Noong ginawa kita, nalayo ang oras at atensyon ko sakanya. And now, I already completed you. My masterpiece." She kissed the person drawn in that sketch pad.
"I wish that you're real. So that I can let everyone know that I am not a loser. That I don't deserved to be played. That Gabriele is not the only guy on Earth," a tear fell down the sketchpad.
"Alam mo ba mahirap magkunwaring okay ka. Na wala ka na talagang nararamdamang sakit. I always say that it's fine. I'm fine. He's nothing. And that I don't love him anymore. But that's not it," niyakap niya ang sketch pad at inalala na naman ang mga nakaraan nila ni Gab.
"Alam mo ba minsan gusto ko na lang maging katulad mo. Even though they hurt you, crumple you, throw you away, di ka masasaktan. You will still smile," she sighed and looks at his face again.
"Salamat sa palaging pakikinig sakin. Maiwan na muna kita," she kissed it once again and stands.