My name is Sasha, Sasha Nerva Vestitor, last night I remember who I was, it was like super heavy headache and BOOM, I remembered, who I was.
My name was also Sasha, Sasha Newman, I was a high school student, I died from blood loss because of a giant monkey hit me with his freaking sharp tail.
My greatest regret was I failed to convey my feeling to my crush, I was in love with my own teacher, Mr. Sol, I was devastated, it pained me so much to know that I will never see him again.
Out of my wildest dream, I didn't disappear, I was just there, flying in the air, I tried to talk to him, touch him and all but to no avail, it's like he was just a hologram, he was there but also not there, or rather I'm the one wasn't there, it was like a higher dimension.
Everywhere was in greyscale, only living being was vibrant with color, there was also some student like me, they had died and come to this place.
I did try to talk to them but they can't seem to hear me or touch me, it was like we were also isolated from each other, it frightened me how that place felt so strange.
I had tried to follow Mr. Sol but I can feel my existence start to fade, a little by a little, like the air itself is corroding me.
I could feel like I was supposed to go somewhere but I couldn't, like the way was blocked, even though there was no temperature in that world I still shiver in fear of another dead, to cease to exist.
When I looked at others like me, The dead, I could feel a little attraction, not in a physical way but like I wanted something from them.
That feeling was growing as my 'soul?' corroded, I hated that feeling, it was like I'm losing my self.
I tried to concentrate on something else and I can feel it, it was a feeling of safety, as an umbrella on a rainy day, I feel it from my necklace in Mr. Sol's pocket.
I hid inside the necklace but I can still saw the world outside, I saw how Mr. Sol protected Anya, honestly, I'm a bit jealous of her, If only Mr. Sol knew how she had bullied me.
I never told him about it, it was just a small thing, I can take it, even though I cried sometimes, I used to it already.
I'm very worried about Mr. Sol, his situation was always desperate, I prayed to Gods to protect him, Luckily he survived.
After a few weeks, I could feel my existence was waning, it looked like my safe harbor was not safe enough, but this time I'm not afraid to be erased.
I had seen a lot of souls give in to the hunger, they devour each other, they assimilate other to strengthen their existence, I didn't know how they can interact with each other but I know I can't be like them.
I didn't want to be like them, a monster, an abomination, I was so scared, everything is so strange and I was all alone in the unknown.
I wanted to be erased, but if I leave the necklace they would devour me, I didn't want to be a part of them, I was sacred.
My hopeless day continued, other than hopelessness and fear the only feeling I have was worried, the man I loved always fighting against the impossible, even if that black python can't touch me I can still feel dread from deep inside me.
Days after Mr. Sol miraculously killed that snake, I could feel that my end is near, but here I am, reincarnated into a child because of the grace of Goddess Minerva.
Was I happy about it? Maybe, but what more is I feel conflicted, I had a taboo feeling for my teacher, once I graduate, I can covey my feeling, but now I'm his freakin' daughter, how am I supposed to face him?
My life had become so complicated, first, I'm the only Heir and daughter of a Goddess, second, I also have one more mother which was a cat, third, my father is also the love of my life, so I'm basically a mix between Diety, Cat and Human.
If you count my parent from my past life then I have, 2 father and 5 mothers, how complicated is that? I didn't even know how am I supposed to tell my real parent that I had reincarnated.
"Nerva, let's take a bath, we are going to be late if you are still sleeping" Mr. Sol, or rather my dad picked me up.
"yes, Daddy" I was still groggy from all the information, I answered him Instinctively and hugged his neck like I had done it since forever.
Whaattt!! I came out of my groggy state and wanted to told him that I'm Sasha but he already stripped my little body bare and started washing me like its the most natural thing to do.
I could feel my face hot and ear turning red, I had decided that I would never tell him the truth until the end, I was too embarrassed.
"Dad, I love you," I said the regret of my last life, I did it unconsciously, He just smile at my red little face and kissed me in the face.
"Me too, Lil Princess, I love you so much" He replied naturally.
I was so happy but conflicted at the same time, he didn't fuckin' get it, I loved him as a woman but he saw me as a child, I wanted to bash my head in frustration.
I didn't know that my conflicted feeling and suffering was just begun, had I know, I would have told him the truth since the beginning.