"One Bacardi please," I told the bartender after sitting on the seat at the counter.
"Here you go."
I drink the Bacardi all at once and ordered another after another. I busied myself with the drinks I keep ordering. I knew that someone had to keep on calling me. I can feel the vibration of my phone in the purse I am carrying.
After only a few hours of keeps drinking, the dizziness started to appear. But I stop because I still need to drive.
So I stood up, walked up to the dance floor, and joined the people to dance as if there was no tomorrow. I swayed my body with the sexy dance. Letting myself go with the flow. Letting myself discover another piece of me. Letting myself know that something is missing from me.
Him.
Only after a few moments, a guy appears in front of me. He was tall, had a very good shape nose, and broad shoulders. That's all I can see because of the lightning inside the bar.
Going closer and closer to me, he held my tiny waist and so I kept closest, swaying my butt onto his. Soon after, I felt the hard thing inside of his pants, I held him at his nape and kissed him as we keep on dancing to the Body on Me music.
This is it.
No more regrets.
No more overthinking of the consequences.
No more of him.
No more I love you.
No more Luciana following him.
This is it.
The guy then paused making out in the middle of the dance floor and asked me, "Would you like to continue it somewhere private?"
I nodded and seductively smiled at him.
He led me to the private room upstairs and threw me in the bed as soon as he closed the door. I smiled. I'm not drunk yet but I couldn't move any inch of my body to protest or to refuse.
I let him and myself fall deeper.
He started to strip off. Leaving only the boxers and then, he started on my clothes which he can easily take off. He slides off the strap of my cowl dress.
I saw the smirk on his face when my breasts are exposed and my underwear are only left in me.
I started to get chills and excitement as he start kissing me on my neck which gives more of something I was feeling in my abdomen. I want him. I want him now.
Slowly kissing my neck, he moved to my breasts while his free hand is playing with my nipple.
Then he started to play with my clitoris. Giving more and more inside of me. The feeling I couldn't control any longer. Removing next of his boxers and my underwear, his eyes looked at me with desire.
I couldn't see any of his face, but I am sure of one thing. He's hot.
I held his hard thing and thrust him up and down. His groans adds to the fire and his lips started to own my lips. Then my tongue went and played with my tongue.
He placed his finger in my clitoris and went inside with his forefinger and thrusts deeper and deeper, which gave more and more flame. I am burning. And so he is.
He then stop with his hand and removed my hands from his thing.
At that moment, he went it. He went it and slowly thrust.
"Ahh. Ugh. Fa-faster.." I begged.
But he didn't do.
He keeps on slowly thrusting inside me while playing with my clitoris with his free hand. Then I let out a warm fluid inside of me.
He smiled. A smile with both desire and sincerity.
"Get on top of me." He commanded.
He laid down and I sat down on him. He played my nipples and is looking at me directly.
I placed myself in front of his thing and played with it. I suck it and lick the whole of it. It was harder than before.
"Ugh. Ugh. Don't stop." He said while groaning.
It went in my mouth and It went up and down, faster and faster, then he exploded in my mouth. I wiped off the warm liquid on my face and I heard him catching his breath. I smirked.
After that, he placed me again on the bottom and went in inside of me again, with his thing. He thrusts faster and faster. We groan louder and louder. All I am feeling right now is my desires. The sexual desires.
"Ugh. Ugh."
"Fa-faster!"
"Shit! You're so tight!"
"Ugh Ugh Ugh Ugh"
Deeper and deeper.
Faster and faster.
His thing reached the place where I love the most. He thrusts in there a lot more passionately and played again with my nipples. Caressing it so hard.
"Ugh! I'm coming."
"Come inside of me."
The whole room was filled with groans and screams. But it was perfect.
Then, we both explode at the same time, inside of me. Without using a condom. He laid down inside of me.
But I stood up immediately. Took my clothes and wore them quickly. After that, I left the room. Leaving him on the bed while watching me walk away. I had to leave. It has to be a one-night stand.
When I went out outside of the bar up to the parking lot, I lit up a cigarette and look at the bright moon.
Is what I'm doing right?
Having sex with anyone I've met just to take revenge on my husband?
Of course, it's not wrong!
It's also been five fucking years since my husband is having sex with his special someone. What I had is something they have been doing on a normal day. Which made our marriage fall into the dump. That ruined our married life.
I threw the cigarette on the ground and step on it, get in, and started my car. I think I'm sober now so I think I can drive. I mean, I might be sober but who cares? Definitely, not my husband. My life is already a mess so no one would ever be worried whether I was drunk driving or not.
My apartment isn't that far so I can drive. Plus the fact that there's no car right at this time of midnight. The best option is really to drive.
Even before I could get out of the space, I hit another car that was parked in front of mine. The car started to alarm and I coldly went out of my car, placed a business card on the glass, and took a picture of the car and my car's position when it hit the other. I went up to my apartment using the elevator.
It was all fun and relaxing.
But all the sadness went back in.
After seeing our wedding picture that's hanging on the wall right after open the main door. Smiling two people said their bows and I do's. Two people who promised to be there up and downs and will love each other eternally.
But was fell apart because of the other who have fell out of love.
And the brown envelope placed on the coffee table containing the divorce papers and agreements. Papers that have been sent to me 3 years ago, and still had no signature from me.
Damn it!
Fuck this marriage!
Fuck him and that girl whom he's fucking!
Fuck them all!
Fuck me for being not good enough! I sat down on the couch, closed my eyes and tears started to roll down my cheeks. All I do is cry. All I do is say yes whenever he wants something. But never did I try to become someone who's enough for him. I didn't do anything. The