_ hello everyone, my name is Alexa and I'm 18, I consider myself as a healthy and well balanced person, and as known to people "curvy" or "hour glass figure" and there's even who call me fat and some other mean comments for the sake of their jealousy or other reasons that I'm oblivious about, non the less, I'm pretty careful of my eating habits and maintain a pretty active life and I give credit to my "curves" to my aunt to whom I look crazily alike, anyways, I hit puberty pretty early at the age of 9 and came with it those long time envied "curves" that made me stand out of girls my age, followed with an unwanted attention here and there and many other complications, because of that I grew up cautious of my body as every person I interact with... Stares not knowing what to make of it I've gotten through eating disorders and other self harm... I'd leave it at that
I'm what's known as popular in my town, every one knows me even people I've never seing in my life, my school, even on social media, some people look up to me and some people hate me for god knows what and again who I dont even know, but I guess that's the price of popularity you can't please everybody right?
Besides all that I'm a pretty cheerful person, optimistic and always try to see the bright side of things and people and expect the best as I believe that there's goodness in this world and always try to find reasoning to what I call "the aspect of life" enough about that, I have two brothers whom I respect and we get along pretty well, being the younger sibling people expect you to be spoiled and favorise, in my case maybe maybe not, I'll let you discover youselfs, a mother who I consider very peculiar is the word to describe her, being a single parent, she's been through a lot, having to start fresh and build a whole new life with three kids on her back is not given to everybody and not everyone can make it, I wouldn't say that we get along so well but we try our best, at least I know I do, as to my father... Well he's alive is all I can reveal for now, I'm quiet a mysterious girl and I like it that way, I hate hypocrites and..
- Alexa ! I would you stop talking to yourself like a crazy maniac and come help me with dinner. Screamed my mom down the stairs interrupting my TV presentation
- I'm not crazy! I groaned, soon I will be a famous TV host and people would die to know my life story. I screamed back
See that's what I was talking about. I added to my invisible public
-Alexa !
- alright alright I'm coming give me a sec would you. I yelled hoping to get her off my back
I heard her groan and the storming off, once I heard no sign of her I carried on with my speech
- alright I think she's gone. I whispered relieved, sorry guys for keeping you waiting she can be a hassle sometimes, but don't you worry she has the purest hearts once u get to know her
-Olivia! She screamed even louder
I hurried downs the stairs - mom can you chill! I sais I was coming. I groaned
-then why was I still hearing you talking with your imaginary friends like a maniac, I don't believe I had crazy jeans along with that long beautiful hair of yours, you know sometimes wonder if they didn't inject drugs to you when you were born when I wasn't looking, that's the only thing that would explain your behavior. She mocked
-no mom they don't do that in hospitals, oh wait. I paused, maybe they did that back in your days they used that instead of antibiotics, you know to ease the choc of the baby to coming to the world with that crazy family it's forced to spend their innocent life's with.
-haha very creative young lady, you need to stop your allusions and get you real friends or you'll end up an old lonely cat lady who considers her cats living humans and her actual kids. She grinned watching me put water to boil and started cutting some carrots
-I do have friends mom, but you never approve any of them. I rolled my eyes
-you need you real friends not some rich naughty spoiled brats who only look forward into taking advantage of you and stab you in the back when you're not looking. She objected as she poured some noodles into the boiling water
-mom! Why are you so judging! I whined, Britney is very loyal and she sticks by my side and has been there for me every step of the way. I said as I scooped onion into the pan
-Britney is fine but what about Samantha, Riley, Rebecca Tony... Etc
-well Britney is my only best friends and the only one I can trust fully. I paused and turned to look at her, concern was still marked on her face
-look mom I'm what's known as popular in my school and those naughty rich spoiled brats as you call them come along that title. I explained spilling vegetables down the pan and covering them, and despite the brutal negative opinion of yours about, them their actions come from a good place they're just too shallow and selfish because they had it all and all the attention for themselves their whole life and they want it to stay that way, sometimes you need to give people a chance mom not everyone is bad
- bring me that tomato over there, I just want you to acknowledge the fact that they can stab you in the back and you won't even know it. She carried on as her voice got softer and tender, I don't want them to hurt you
-mom can you stop worrying about me, I'm totally conscious of who's fake and who's real, I can take care of myself and because high School experience follows people their whole life I'm trying to make the best of it and it doesn't make make me bad nor blind for that matter.
She covered the stakes and approached me her eyes softened and her forehead released its tension then grabbed my face with two hands and stared at me deep in the eyes, I looked into her big beautiful blue eyes, sorrow and worry written all over them
-mom are you okay?
She closed her eyes and narrowed her nose down to mine it was like she was scared I would run away
-mom are you okay?
She kept staring at me even deeper I had the allusion she was staring into my soul and I saw a spark in her eyes it was like something was scaring her I got lost in them, suddenly I remembered the cooking meal
-Mom! The noodles! I I hurried to check on them so they don't burn then turned to her
-alright mom your freaking me out what is going on with you?!
- I feel guilt eating me up on a daily basis she confessed
-what why?! I I asked surprised
- I just have been son caught up with work and never being there for you and your brothers. I felt her voice breaking and tears falling down her cheeks, my heart dropped I never knew she felt that way, I mean sure I've always wished my mom would be there for every important event in my life even silly childhood stuff but I've never blamed her, I know how much responsibility and efforts she has to do, and I've always been thankful for her hard work and it permitted me to grow up and experience life the hard way and on my own
- mom! You don't have the right to say that, if it weren't thanks to your courage we would be on the streets or worse, we ow you our being and existence, you've gone along so much to provide us such an amazing life that people are even jealous of us, if anything I wouldn't ask for a better mother, yeah you might be controlling and strict sometimes but you made such a beautiful home and a beautiful family well if you don't count the two other doodle heads. I giggled hoping to see her smile, she laughed
After that everything been ready I turned the stove off and sat next to her, I felt like she wasn't convinced
- I'm not saying this because I feel obligated or anything, it's my heart that's talking, I wish I had half of your courage, I would conquer the world you're my role model mom and I love you, I wouldn't trade you for the fortune of the world as I said that my eyes started tearing and got lost in the moment, she leaned in and gave me warm hug
- well well well how delightful, mind if we join screamed a familiar annoying voice
-what's going on in here did someone die. Jocked Jordan oh just Alexa never mind
I rolled my eyes and we all started giggling
-no I'm pretty sure it's your brain cells did
-well either that or you finally decided on moving out you know so you can hassle another family so you push them to put you up for adoption then we'll be forced on taking you back. Said Jason
-haha very funny Jason, I'm the pole that puts this house together without me you'd be lost.
-oh yeah we'll see about that. He started chasing me, I panicked and ran away, let me go I screamed giggling as he was tickling me very intensely making me cry from laughter
-Boys behave! screamed my mother
He finally let go of me giving me a challenging teasing look
Jordan sat down - when are you two ever gonna grow up. He groaned
We joined him and sat on the opposite side of the table
- Oh I moaned Jason! Don't you see that's you're disturbing his highness he might even cry!
-I'm so sorry Einstein, it's just so hard to put up with such a perfect sibling jealousy is killing me. He started making annoying faces like he was choking
- alright kids enough. She shouted as she paused food on the table
We then ate and talked and made fun of Jordan
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