Frizabelle
Three weeks later…
Sunday – Morning
I woke up like nothing was bothering me but there were some and it was Ceres' confession about herself. I released some heavy sigh as I looked around for her and she wasn't here in the room. I sigh once again and want to go back to sleep but none. I can't go back to sleep since my mind was drifting to those words Ceres said which led me to distancing myself for those three weeks. Now, I'm missing her.
5 am
I was tossing around my bed filling the empty space that Ceres was supposed to be in it. I sighed once again as I felt so restless for some odd reason and it was frustrating, not to mention it's also irritating.
"Err…Lena, still up with me?" I asked Lena, my wolf within my thoughts since I really want to shake this restlessness revolving inside of me.
'Yep, what's wrong this time?'
"I don't understand why I felt so restless. I know the mate bond was still there and strong but I'm afraid, Lena. I'm so afraid of this feeling that I have for her…" I told Lena like she was sitting next to me on my bed.
'Why are you afraid of your feelings for her?'
"Well, I want her, Lena and that kind of want didn't just end there. It was like I am craving for her but there's also a thought of I only like her because my mind told me so or is it my heart speaking the truth...I confused." I whined my dilemma to my wolf and I knew she felt them too.
'You are you. Act what you want to show her and say what you wanted to say, just be simply you around Ceres and I bet, she'll be okay with it.'
I smiled at Lena's advice though there's still fear behind my mind and I don't want to dwell at them too much.
"Lena, let's have a run." I told her while I was on my couch.
'Sure, I miss our bonding without a mate hehe.'
As she responded so excitedly, I immediately get off from my bed and removed my clothes before I opened my sliding glass door toward the balcony. I don't care much if I am naked now instead, I just jumped off from the balcony and swiftly shifted into my wolf form, Lena. I landed perfectly on the grassy ground then immediately ran endlessly and freely around the pack's perimeter until I smelled a very familiar scent that really never failed to irritate me a lot.
'Mate…'
I ignored what Lena whispered as we kept running but something, I mean, someone jumped off in front of us. As my instincts kicked it, I attacked my one and only mate, Ceres. We fought like we didn't know each other. She pulled my wolf head down that almost hit the ground while we're running and the good thing was I managed to flip myself so I could kick her. But she was a vampire meaning her reflexes were the best. Like each time I was close on hitting her with my paws, she was already on my back and locking my neck down. But whenever she did that I always managed to swiftly shift back into my human form just to get out of her lock. I might be naked whenever I do that but a fight always a fight - we simply didn't care about that. As she let go, she immediately attacked me with her fits and feet but I answered them equally. Our sparring turned intense and hot as I caught her wrist then twisted it before pulling her closer to me. She giggled but before she could land into my arms, she wasn't there in front of me instead she was standing at my back. I smirked at how remarkable she could be which made me claw her as I immediately shifted back into my wolf form. But her reflexes were indeed over the top and it never failed to amazed me. Ceres was always cornered but always found some ways to get away from it within just a second.
Her emotionless face managed to turn the table in her hands and it was like she was already putting strings over her opponent without being noticed until it was too late. I'm a and fought like any others out there but with her I can do more. More intense and powerful yet only Ceres managed to defeat me in every blow that we've exchanged. Looking at her in her fighting stunt, I felt some heat forming around me when I heard Lena said something about our mate.
'She's totally hot…'
"I agree with you there but this isn't the right time to be mesmerized to her?" I agreed and teased Lena as we both waited patiently for Ceres' attacks but it didn't come.
We looked at Ceres, studied her carefully until we heard her chuckled and it was so sweet hearing her voice like a soothing wind chime. Then just a blink of an eye, Ceres was in our front and looking deeply within our eyes that seriously made me lost in them.
"I like the way you look and think of me, my queen." Ceres chuckled before she kissed my forehead then walked normally back to the house.
I was stunned on my ground as my heart was pounding so damn hard in my chest and feeling the erupting warmness like she was hugging my heart. I sighed longingly before Lena snapped me back to reality and we just followed our mate as we walked beside her while the sun began to shine.
7:15 am
Me and Ceres were the one who were in charge for breakfast. Before we could start preparing, Ceres gave me a towel and my pair of clothing since I have to wear something before we cook. As I was done changing, I noticed all the ingredients were already on the island and Ceres was already in front of the stove, cooking. I smiled seeing her move like any master chief which sometimes made me wonder if she's really a vampire to begin with. She knew all the flavors of each food that we're about to make which made me envious at the same time but I'd rather eat her cooking than preparing them with her. But the task was a task that needed to be done or else Mom's wrath I will be facing. I snapped from my admiration over Ceres' cooking skills and went inside the kitchen but before I could even reach the island my mind played something dirty.
"Holy shit!" I screamed into my thoughts since I imagined her cooking naked with only apron as her cover. I blushed like a tomato since I can't get rid of that image in my mind.
'You're so whipped!'
"Shut up, Lena! you are not helping." I groaned at her comment which made Ceres suddenly jolted and froze to her spot.
"You okay, Ceres?" I asked as I gulped since I wondered if she heard or even saw what my mind was playing.
Ceres didn't answer but I can see her shoulder went up and down then followed by a quiver before shaking her head. She was like snapping herself from something which made me worried. I approached her since I had to help her cook but she suddenly jolted again then looked at me in her different eyes. Her eyes were totally bloody red which made me confused but the more I stared at her, I suddenly heard some growl. I looked around but there was none till I went back on Ceres eyes, it wasn't just bloody red it was glowing which made me gasped.
"W-what?!" I was embarrassed at the way she looked at me.
"Your blood…it's getting sweeter…I'm sorry…I have to go." Ceres honestly said to me but then she covered her mouth before she immediately went off like she was disgusted?
I might be shocked since I was frozen and speechless toward her action but what hurt me was the look in her eyes. She was looking in pain but at the same time disgusted like she wanted to vomit something. It hurts just thinking like that. I groaned but when I heard the others came in with their starving chuckles which made me turn to face ang glare at them. They were all shut up from giggling until my eyes landed on my mother who seemed worried.
"Mom, what's wrong?" I asked as I tried to prepare the breakfast, to which I was not surprised that Ceres already finished them while I was lost in my thoughts.
"Baby, your mate was on the edge and trying to control herself from taking you, that's why she ran off." Mom told me as she put her hand on my shoulder to calm me but only a little. I was stunned on my ground for a moment as I felt the anger raising up in me.
"Seriously, she doesn't have to do that!" I was pissed off when I responded to Mom then I went off to my room so irritated after I placed all the food on the table.
As I reached the doorknob of my room to open it, I could feel the heat all over my body like I wanted to rip something off. When I got inside the room, I slammed the door so hard to the point of making everything around it vibrated. I jumped onto my bed and curled up as I cried. It was painful when she looked disgusted or sorry at me while covering herself as if she doesn't want me anymore. But I was more hurting when I saw those pleading looks behind her bloody glowing red eyes.
"She doesn't know how stunning she is which made me crave for her even more." I mumbled to myself as I heard Lena whined behind my mind as I kept crying on my bed.
Ceres was indeed stunning behind what vampires emit since I wasn't just lured by it but every bit of her. Everything about her, I want it. I wanted her which sometimes confused me since I couldn't handle my feelings whenever I thought of being intimate with her. Just thinking of being one with her, made me feel so hot and hungry for her touches. I want to possess everything about her within my grasp as I crave for her, for my mate, my Ceres.
"Trying to distance yourself won't help...we both crave for each other...but we both hold back...it will only bottled every cravings we have for each other, stupid mate…" I mumbled weakly as I never realized that I was blocked out.
Ceres
I don't know what just happened.
Early at the kitchen her scent was still chocolate mint but as she came back from changing, there was something different around her scent. It was still there but there was something else like there was a sweetness touch in her scent. I ignored it as I kept moving around the kitchen as I felt her gaze fixed on me. I can feel the tender love in those gaze but what surprised me when I saw myself naked and only wearing an apron as I cooked. I smirked as I recalled when I mentioned it to her last time but there her scent was getting into me again which made me jolted. I can hear what she asked me but I was caught by her scent that suddenly changed that sent my urges so overdrive. I just can't hold it much longer. My hunger for her was really sent to overdrive. I really wanted to mate with her but I know she wasn't ready for this. And if ever she was, will she still accept me?
Argh! Loving her made me really totally insane. So I ran before I could bite her in the worst state that she didn't know I could possibly hurt her if I didn't control myself. Also, I don't want to mate with her at the kitchen when her family eats there. I don't want to give them any show as well, I don't want anyone to see her naked aside from me.
With the thought of her being naked. Argh! it wasn't helping at all.
This is so frustrating!