Frizabelle
Sunday – Noon
I still feel the pain in my eyes like it was sore which reminded me that I did cry to sleep. Speaking of sleep, I was somewhere within my dream since it was pitch black but there was some warmness around the breeze coming from somewhere. I took some nerves to follow where this warmness was coming from and I was surprised to see the serene and familiar place.
"Did I come here before?" I asked since I remember this lake which we had in the pack aside from the weird moon reflected on the water. It was a side by side crescent moon while in the center was the full moon which meant that it was the three faces of the moon.
I looked around for some more and I noticed that there was the same cherry blossom tree near the lake but there was something underneath the tree. There were some old ruined pillars around the small tea table with four black steel chairs around it. I went closer there and I saw there were lots of flowers swaying lively because of the smooth breeze of the wind around the place.
"Like the view, young wolf?" a very familiar soothing voice asked which made me look at my back and I saw a very stunning and beautiful goddess of the night.
"Yes, but why am I here, Moon Goddess?" I asked after I bowed down since she really emits such power and elegance. She wore a simple white chiffon gown with shining silver dust and dark smoke effect wrapped around by the bottom of her gown.
"You tell me. It's very rare for my children to visit this place." The moon goddess said before walking past me and sat on the grassy ground next to the lake.
I went there as well and took the liberty to sit next to her while my eyes still glued at the lake. I released a heavy sigh which made the goddess chuckle. It's a lovely sound.
"Something crawling under the skins of mates, long for more, desire for more, only led to an undying craving of a lovely soul." The moon goddess stated which made me look at her and she was staring back at me before looking at the lake then to the moon itself.
"I don't understand my mate...she was sweet and caring and always there to protect and save me. She always made me feel secure but the way she acted earlier, it really caused some pain in my chest. It was like she was rejecting me. I don't know anymore…" I whined as I released another heavy sigh which she found amusing since the goddess just giggled at me.
"She's not going to reject what her heart and soul have been longing for…" She said which made me pull my knees closer to my chest while looking deeply in the lake. It helps me calm down a bit.
"Then what could it be, Goddess? Tell me, show me, help me understand them…" I said desperately since I couldn't understand one bit of why Ceres acting like that.
"Simple as respect, my child. She greatly put her respect in between you two because if not, you're already been claimed by force." She told me which made me snap back and stared at her as I analyzed what she said inside my head.
"Behind the blank eyes, that possessive mind and longing heart of a mate, never let desire take over without control or else the forced mating will only lead to pain. Control the lustful desire, show the respect, let the love be felt and not just be seen." The goddess told me another riddle but I understand them a little bit which made me sigh again.
"I might not be sure what you mean by that, Goddess but she could at least talk to me and not run off like I am disgusting or something. It hurts. I am hurt by that." I told the Goddess what's bothering inside my head which made her patted my shoulder.
I looked at her and she was beautiful like Ceres but she was more gentle which I suddenly snapped from staring at her when she kissed my forehead. I caught myself blushing from her kind gesture which made her smile.
"Something crawling under the skins of mates, long for more, desire for more, only led to an undying craving of a lovely soul." The moon goddess said the same thing again which made me confused but the heat from my cheeks became visible.
I knew somewhere within my heart what the goddess was telling me and I was right. The cravings will be too much if we keep our distance for too long. I don't want my craving to drive me crazy and do something I won't remember or worst regret what I might do.
I snapped myself from thinking and I was about to ask the moon goddess something when she just smiled while standing by the tree. She was slowly fading as well the surrounding which also made me feel something was numbed around my body. Oh, I slept on my right arm for too long. Then I woke up from the meaningful dream. Well, I did talk to the moon goddess in the morning. Wow!
I stretched my stiff body as I felt the blood finally flow to my numbed right arms when I suddenly heard some song was being played outside the house. The song was I Crave by Marc Dorsey but the part that I just heard was the chorus.
I crave your touch
I crave you lips
I miss so much
The excitement of your kiss
But since your gone my heart won't behave
It's your love that I still crave
I don't know why it was the first song I heard from waking up from the conversation I had with the moon goddess. It seriously reflected the cravings that I am feeling right now for Ceres but the entire song wasn't for us, it's just the chorus really hit me big time. I am feeling the craving over Ceres which I don't hate but I don't like it either.
I sighed once again and tried to calm those disturbing thoughts of cravings over my mate instead, I got up and went to the bathroom. I wanted to soak myself into cold-warm milk with some rose petals bath since it helped me relax even for just a little while.
'Friz…'
"Yes, Lena?" I answered while my eyes were closed as I let myself be relaxed in the tub.
'Something is different...something is about to change in us…'
"Is it good or bad?" I asked since I rarely heard Lena speak something like this to me unless it was a very big deal.
'I don't know but it's already happening, I know you felt it too.'
"Maybe Ceres could help us…" I sighed since she was right about that part. Aside from my cravings for Ceres, there was also something different happening in us. It was like changing me from within.
'If she knew about it…'
"Maybe…" I sighed before I let my whole body including my head soaked in the tub for a few seconds then stood off.
I don't care if I spilled some water on the floor since I was still dripping wet while walking within the bathroom. I took my mint robe to cover my wet naked body and dry my hair with a blower. I stayed in the bathroom for almost fifteen to thirty minutes since I also have to wipe the tiled floor before getting some clothes in my cabinet in the bathroom. Well, it's all Ceres and my undergarments were there.
'I wonder what she will think if we wear one pair of her undies?'
"LENA!" I shouted at my wolf who just laughed at my sudden outburst but I was indeed blushing as she mentioned that. Now, I am thinking of it. Ceres' reaction.
'Pervert, Friz. You're a pervert mate.'
"You started it!" I whined as I went out from the bathroom after I woke my very own pair of undergarments.
I went to my walking closet not far from the bed since I have to wear something decent before I work on some school stuff that was waiting on my desk.
12:25 noon
Speaking of school stuff, I immediately went on answering all my assignments but one of the artwork projects was giving me a little difficulty because I also have to put my own description over it. I kept sketching but always ended up in nothing like I don't feel it so, I have to redo it again for five times by now. I groaned which I could hear Lena laughing behind my thoughts which made me groan again.
"Lena, shut up. If not, help me here instead." I growled which she just laughed but she went off. Finally, quiet.
I was finally done sketching and now I have to write some description for it before I head downstairs since I already skipped breakfast, so I didn't want to skip my lunch either.
12:30 noon
I walked down the stairs, I felt something was a little odd since there was no noise happening down here. It's totally empty like I was left all alone in the pack house. I just shrugged my shoulders and just ignored it then I went to the kitchen to look for some food that my stomach craved for. When I found a Kani salad, buttery corn and carrots with roasted breast chicken, I took it as mine since I saw my chocolate mint shake next to it and nothing more. I was grinning for having this healthy meal which made me a little drooled over it. As I kept on eating, I didn't realize that Lena was already whimpering in pain for some reason.
"Lena, are you okay?" I asked her while I chewed the remaining corn and carrots on my mouth.
'I want my mate, Friz. I want her now.'
I jolted from Lean's tone since she never or ever pleaded like a crying kid in my head then out of the blue, I felt some tears were already falling down to my cheeks. As I let those tears of mine kept falling, I recalled what happened early this morning.
"Lena…me too." I told her while I'm crying that I can't continue my food any longer though I still drank my chocolate mint.
As I finish my drinks, I'm getting weak and frustrated without my mate next to me. It's really getting under my skin and wanting her here with me, really made me feel so sick. Then the anger suddenly raised inside of me till it reached my chest and already stated that it's switched on. I could feel the heat suddenly steaming out from my body and the pain was building inside of me which made the tears turn into a view of cold ice. I let Lena take over to shift into her wolf form but nothing happened. She didn't take over which made me wonder but there goes the throbbing pain knocking my head. It was like being hammered by a sledgehammer.
"Dammit! What's going on…" I mumbled weakly as I almost stumbled from standing up from the island where I just ate my late lunch.
I can guarantee that something was seriously happening within me and I don't know whether it's good or bad but the only thing mattered now was her – Ceres, my mate. I needed her!
I immediately ran out of the kitchen as fast as I could and I never realized that I would end up at the lake. It was my calming sanctuary but not right now, the anger of pain as this urges within me started to get under my skin and it was killing me from inside.
Ceres
Oh boy!
I jolted while I was running with the patrollers of the pack since I can't be with Frizabelle right now. I still have the urges to jump and claim her right here and there. It was totally non-stop if I didn't control myself. I respect her so much which really tested my self-control over my lustful desire over her. We might be mates but I'd rather make love to her that just have sex or just give her a senseless fuck. I don't like that one bit.
But not this time. Something was indeed different. Something was about to wake up and I need to be there - I mean, I have to be there with her. With my lovely queen, my mate, my Frizabelle.