I was so dead. So very dead. My Abuela. I'd requested the family have dinner that night at the apartment rather then be in such a public place. Earlier this morning Thalia had left silently with Cole. I'd decided to clean to clear my mind. I wiped counters and cleaned the toilet belting Selena songs. I cleaned up Thalia's room and mine simply closing Coles door mumbling how I'd never go in there again. The house was clean and is listened to every Selena song I owned on iTunes,
"Si vieras cómo duele perder tu amor
Con tu adiós, te llevas mi corazón
No sé si pueda volver a amar
Porque te di todo el amor que pude dar
Como la flor
Con tanto amor
Me diste tú
Se marchitó
Me marcho hoy
Yo sé perder
Pero" I sang out loud as I finished putting away the cleaning supplies. For the rest of the day I read pregnancy books I wouldn't need. At 5:45 the click of the lock as Thalia Cole and my family arrived. One by one they all filed in, thinking this was just. Normal familia dinner. Mama, Dad, Abuela, Tía Francesca, Petra, Miguel, Mateo, and Alejandro.
Cole and Thalia came in bags of Thai food in there hands. Everyone sat around the table chatting in Spanish and English.
"So Kierra, how has work been" Petra asked bouncing her son Theo on her lap.
"Well as you all know I haven't really been up to work lately" I looked around the table, Thalia seemed to urge me on, Cole looked like he was waiting for something and everyone else was eating. So I shut up.
"Coffee on the balcony anyone" everyone's heads jerked up at the prospect of coffee. The family and friends made there way to the large back balcony while I put a pot of coffee on. Grabbing a bunch of mugs and the pot I headed toward the door.
I slid it open and walked onto the balcony. Everyone was congratulating Thalia, I assumed on her new role. Then I heard a comment
"So If the baby is a girl you'll name her after me" Petra joked, she had grown up with us so we considered each other sisters. There was a loud crash as I dropped the coffee pot. Thalia looked at me begging for help, gesturing to the stack of Pregnancy books I'd left out.
"Mama, Petra stop pestering Thalia she's not Embarazada" I say firmly.
"Then what are these" She said gesturing at the books, the entire family seemed to get it based on there faces besides Mama. I couldn't bring myself to say it so I turned to the side, pulling up my sweater to reveal my minuscule bump.
"Kierra Violette Orla-Rose Shelley, what in gods name, how. When how could you, your job. I'm going to be an Abuela." she ranted somewhere between anger and happiness.
"Who.is.the.father" My Father asked through gritted teeth. I noticed Cole tense up his eyes darting around looking for an escape. My Father apparently noticed too.
"Ese pequeño hijo de puta dejó embarazada a mi bebé. que estabas pensando idiota Voy a matarte." he shouted in rapid Spanish no one knew that he knew. He grabbed Cole by his shirt spouting Spanish obscenities. The whole family just stared.
"Sort it out of consider yourself out of a job" He released Cole and stormed out of the apartment followed by an equally angry Abuela and Mateo. It was hard too tell if they were mad at me or Cole or both. Mama, Petra and Francesca looked at me silently giving me and Thalia quick hugs before filing out. Thalia also took her leave. Cole and I were left alone on the deck, and I knew he was mad at me and only me.
"You just cost me my job. I can not loose this because you weren't on the pill, how could you be so stupid, you've ruined my career it will be all over the papers. I'm ruined. You need to get rid of that before anyone else finds out" He said jabbing a finger at my stomach.
"And what if I don't want to. Osita isn't just yours" I yell back
"You know as well as I do neither of us want that. This is all your fault your so fucking stupid. This so your problem. Get rid of it" He rages at my slamming his fist in the table. He gave me a glare telling me that this conversation was over. Telling me to leave him alone and too get rid of Osita no matter what I wanted. I had no choice.