Did he really just tell me to have fun. What the fuck was wrong with him. I was getting an abortion. Terminating the pregnancy, he'd help create.
I drove away not caring that the trip would have to get an Uber or walk home. I saw him staring at me from the bar.
I pulled up to the St. Barbara Obstetrics Clinic, I hated this place. I remember coming with Petra before she had Theo. I remember her screaming and crying clawing at my shoulder from grief.
All the stories my mother had told me. I didn't want to but I knew it had to be done. This baby could ruin my Career and Coles. We weren't ready. I wasn't ready, Cole hates me a Osita. I slipped in my sunglasses pulling my ponytail through the back of my baseball cap. I speed walked across the parking lot into the cold sterile building.
"Hello" A woman said in a cheery voice
"Hi" I say quietly
"Do you have an appointment" She asked sweetly
"Yes, 4:30 for Violette Peña" I tell her impatiently
"Ahh here's you clipboard" She said in a slightly upset tone. She hid it well.
I filled out the form hastily.
Name- Violette Peña
Age- 18
I continued down the form till I finished.
"Peña Violette" A nurse called. I stood up walking quickly and quietly toward her. She lead me into an even colder room. There was a bed and long hooks and needles.
"I'm your nurse, I just need to take you vitals and some other quick stuff but, Dr. Gratès will be with you right after that, shouldn't take more than half and hour" The woman said hooking me up to a BP cuff.
As she promised she finished her exams quickly, and a young looking doctor was ushered in. He stood quietly in the corner for a minute looking over the paperwork.
"I'm sorry Osita" I said one last time patting my stomach. The doctor seemed satisfied with the paperwork and turned to me.
"Hello Ms. Peña, are you aware how this procedure works?" The Doctor asked me preparing a large needle.
"Not exactly" I respond
"Well, I'll fill this needle with a drug which basically sends the infant into cardiac arrest. Then at this stage the cells will leave the body in the form of blood, much like you period." he explains.
"Cardiac Arrest" I say skeptically
"Yes is that a problem" He asks me concerned
Yes yes it was. My Abeulos heart stopped over and over again. He begged them to end it but Mama wouldn't let them, he'd fade in and out of conscious, his heart always restarting over and over before it finally gave out. What is Osiata suffered like him.
"Yes. Yes it is, may I come back, I think I need more time to think about this" I explain
"Ma'am you've already paid" He said advancing with the needle
"No." I say again pushing him away
"Ma'am." The doctor says coming back towards me.
That's when I bolted.
I ran out of the clinic crying and begging my Osita to forgive me. I drove as far as I could. I didn't go home. I didn't go to mama, or abuella. To Mateo, my favorite brother. My phone blew up as I drove.
I arrived at the building and ran straight for Matteo's house. I banged on the door. Crying for my brother.
"Rosie" Mateo asked confused
"I couldn't do it, I couldn't do it. Not fair. Hell hate me. I'm going to loose my job, I can't" I sobbed into his shoulder. Mateo scooped me up and brought me to his guest room. He tucked me in like he would when we were little.
"Just go to sleep we can talk in the morning" he said soothingly
"No. No, he'll be mad" I cry
"Rosie go to sleep" He tells me
"Please tell Thalia where I am. She ll be worried" I say more calmly. Mateo nodded taking my phone and closing the door.
5 missed calls.
10 new messages
Cole: How's it go
Cole: Don't ignore me that's what was best
Cole: u know what Idc
Tals: Where r u
Tals: Keke u ok
Tals: answer me what happened
Tals: answer me pls u ok
Tals: what happened, u k
Tals: Where r u. I'm going to the clinic
Tals: Keirra
Keke🐚: it's Mateo she's w/ me and Miguel
Tals: y what happened
Keke🐚: no clue, she came to me crying she couldn't do it. You know
Tals: she went to get rid of it.
Keke🐚: o, k makes sense. Y would she do that. Not like her
Tals: Nicholas
Keke🐚: she's not coming home. Not now at least. Gn
Tals: nite, give my love to Miguel and Keke ❤️
Mateo was more than pissed.