I can't see Laytonya anymore. I think my mom had something to do with it, but there's nothing I can do. I've been thinking about it, but I think mom is a bad person. It doesn't make sense though, she so nice to me and she gives me food. I really want to go to the outside world, to really see what's outside of this room. That door leads to somewhere. But I'm scared, mom will get angry. Will people treat me like they treated Latonya? When I can speak maybe I'll ask mom, I have so many questions. I feel like I'm missing something. Nothing makes sense as they did before.
Laytonya, do you feel like that too?
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My body felt like it was hit by a truck. I asked him to leave for today, I felt myself breaking down. Nothing was making sense anymore
I sunk into my new suede couch. My head was pounding, I felt like crying. Today was just punching me in the gut several times. "I just don't need you anymore". What did she mean by that? I thought we were friends, I did. Memories of my time spent with her flooded my mind. My oldest memory was her comforting me when another girl in my class called me disgusting. Her sweet smile stopped my tears immediately. She caressed my back and cooed at me. A wave of nausea hit me. I shot up gagging, I hadn't asked where the bathroom was. I puked into the kitchen sink. My legs gave away under me and I slumped onto the hard kitchen tile. I remember she use to rock me to sleep and tell me I could be anything. The tears started to well up in my eyes, my chest was burning. She was everything to me.
I was nothing to her, Was I really nothing to her? All those times she sweetly smiled in my face, what was she really thinking. Anger swelled inside me. I grabbed the stool and threw it into to the front room. I heard something shatter, but it was simply background noise. My heart was going a million miles a minute. These memories kept playing back like a broken record. I was alone, nothing. I'm nothing, without Mary what am I? The walls of the kitchen began to close in on me.
closer
closer
closer
I need to get out of here. I ran to my front door. The breeze felt cool on my wet face. I tried to release my wings and was met with nothing. My panic intensified. "My wings! Oh no my wings, oh God not my wings!" I strained myself trying to push them out. I broke down onto the ground. "Who do I have now?" I wept. "You have me," a familiar deep voice made me jumped. "Lucifer I-I just", I held my tears in. I realized how crazy I must have looked. I quickly picked myself up and wiped my tears. "I'm sorry today just hit me. I-I'm going back inside". "Wait Laytonya, wait for a second!"
The door shut in my face and I stood dumbfounded. I felt something wasn't right when I left earlier. I didn't want to, she looked so lost earlier, but when she asked me to leave I didn't have the guts to say no. I mean she already doesn't trust me. A couple of minutes after I left I felt a wave of anxiety and anger. When I got here all I saw was my beloved collapsed onto the ground. She's not going to let me in. The way she ran off, it was like she was still afraid of me. "Maybe I shouldn't bother her". I began to turn around. Wait no! she's in there crying, Go in there and figure out what's wrong! I was about to press the doorbell but my fingers stopped just a few centimeters in front of it. "Damn it!" I sighed. I pushed my wings out and started to fly away.
"I'll come back tomorrow".
I sped off back to my office to try and finish my work. I couldn't focus at all. I rubbed my forehead, I was starting to feel a bit tired. I was met with the burning gaze of my grandfather and the sweet smile of my grandmother's portrait. "What would you do grandfather?" My grandmother didn't like my grandfather when they first met. In fact, she was in love with someone else. He was quiet, well he was kind of an asshole. He didn't care about her existing relationship and pursued her until well like my grandmother described it, "I looked into his eyes and I realized he would make me happier". After that, my grandparents were one of the greatest leaders in history and revolutionized Mercury as I know it. I stared at my grandfather's eyes, "I won't do her like you, but your right. I'll go tomorrow and try to win her trust". I was filled with a newfound motivation to finish my work.
"Damn it!" I jumped in fear at his exclamation. He's angry, what am I going to do? I groaned. This is too much to deal with. The ground is shaking underneath me. A weird smell shocked me out of my own head. I followed around and it leads me to the kitchen. "oh right", I threw up in the sink.
After cleaning the sink for the 100th time, all of my emotions left me drained and tired. Lucifer didn't get to show me around the house. In turn, I have no idea where the bedroom is. "Maybe it's upstairs." I followed a hallway, It leads me right to a staircase. I wasn't use to homes with a second floor. Once I got to the top of the stairs lights flickered on, lighting up a new hallway. There were two doors and I picked the first one. "Welp, I found the bathroom", It was quite pretty but I just don't have the energy. I opened the next door and sighed in relief when I saw a bed. I didn't even get a good look around the room. I got under the covers, my body was begging for warmth. I didn't notice, but I've been really cold. I couldn't think about it anymore so my tired body shut down.